A day of awareness.

I had a pair of swollen eyes this morning. Didn’t have the courage to tell mum I cried when I was interrogated. I wouldn’t explain why anyway. I got a bruise on my forehead due to severe bangs on the wall yesterday night. But, I can still drive, talk, laugh and calculate and do some logic sensible chats. Meaning? No brain damage. Early morning today, bang my arms on the bed, cause I had a bad night, wasn’t able to sleep well and in the morning too. Not painful cause it is just a light bang. 20% of my strength used. That would be, urm… 0.5 calories burn?

I had a hard time convincing mum to allow me to drive to ampang to meet up some friends of mine. Thanks to sis, and my persistence, I drove finally. 1st plan, drop by ‘Yiok Choi Po’ to buy some Chinese herbs. I was approaching two young man packing herbs at the counter. I enquire in Cantonese about what should I purchase. But they didn’t bother me. I wonder, at my size, am I that invisible? I again asked politely. Finally, they answered, sorry, we don’t know how to speak Cantonese. I was like... “’—sweat! Then I talk to them in broken Chinese. Well, I’m fluent with it though. They then pointed at the guy right at the other corner. I walk and ask again, this time, a girl stopped me and ask me what I want. I tried describing the best I could. With my luck, I was able to purchase what I want.

Heading to the restaurant to meet up my friends, drove a bit recklessly, but yet the car and me are still in one piece. Being the 1st to reach, goodness, I waited till the restaurant actually OPEN. Ha-ha... I had a great time talking with my friends. For 3 hrs plus. Then, time to head home, almost met accident twice. But again, I’m still in one piece. Went to Jan’s house to pass her some stuff.

Practically that was my day. Learn a lot from today. Learnt to wake up from a dream. Manage to discover something from someone. Then, my intuition took place. I hope it’s wrong though. I’m back people. After a whole week of sadness, confrontation, confession, clarification, stress, tears, and some injuries, all has finally ended. September 8 till today. Things that I’d lost and gain balanced the scale. Although I’ve lost more, but it was for a long term. What I gain is, a wake from a sweet dream that will never come true.

Guess that’s all. Things come and go. People enter your life and they’ll leave someday. Now, I know, what friends are for, Lisa Tsae Yun? Thanks for supporting me yesterday night, without you girls I wouldn’t have pulled it through. Janice? I hope we can cope up to closer our friendship and rebuild whatever that was destroyed since this year. Yee Wah? Thanks for being a buddy of mine, and I really appreciate your 24-7 on call out to yum cha with me. Keep in contact always. Many more to mention. But it’ll be until tomorrow by then. Friends? Really appreciate your friendship. I’ll be stronger, and learn to handle things better. I’ll know who to love and who to care about. I’ll never give up on Janice, Yee Wah, and whoever who needs me to be there. I promise. The least I can do, to repay all you girls have ever done for me.