Friday, September 29, 2006
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
AMUSING...
A PART OF MY LIFE..
Yawns.. practically my day is not much interesting today. Besides being lucky for both my Excel Test and My results.. everything was dull. I slept, incredibly during the whole Economics lecture. Yes, as usual. Sleeping is my hobby. When you don’t hear my voice, it only means one thing..i AM ASLEEP! Ok.. took bus home, then.. I start doing something I feel like doing.. It’s a secret. And nope.. nothing dirty.
Went cooking, ate 2big bowls of porridge. Then its time to see my prince charming in dreamland. Landed myself flat on the couch a.k.a bench, something hard lar. Adjusting myself a little on the antique bench and suddenly, KRRRERKKKKK… I jolted up.. then lie back on the bench. I reach for the bench below my 8yuit Sap Ng.. and feel it, I reinforce, the bench, not my ass. I felt a line on the bench, I sat up and looked at it. Yes.. 200% confirm it’s a scratch, on my mum’s favourite antique bench? Oh my god, I’m so dead. I try rubbing to you know, try to make it invisible, I rub rub, and rub harder, but its still there. Last resort, took a pillow, place it on top of the scratch, and ran upstairs.
Now here I am. Asking friends how to download live messenger. A bit computer noob, but well, at least there’s something I can do about online besides ONLY chatting. Surf through this website, and look what I found :
The background? Its actually a drawing on the pavements.. meaning water pool is Fake.. yes.. see d gridlines?those r actually tiles on roads..but that man?Julian Beever? He's for real.. I ''ll post more of his masterpieces soon.
hE actually made me realize one thing. Sometimes, i only believe what i see, but actually, what you see can be fake too. That made me realize that, one should think complicated, but act simple. Not acting's act, but do's act. See the difference..
Nothing much to blog about today, one real good lessson. I must never ever look at things at one angle but every oppurtunity i have, i should take a glimpse
Sunday, September 24, 2006
The two mes?... goodness sake..
A transformation myself couldn't believe.. do i like them?? Well.. rate me ppl..
Saturday, September 23, 2006
A BAD DAY??not when i don't think so
After.. a long long zz.. woke up at 11++ 1st thing, call my friend and ask if she's ok? She ok? Then, some argumentos with her, a college friend of mine then ask me go on9..hmmm sounded serious, i rushed dialing myself up.. to know that, my blog kena spam spam!! but, i'm ok bout it, cause its ok to comment, rite?But, don't not tell us your name lar.. so lame..CHICKEN..lolz..
Went to my class blog. Found a tagger, who commented on me, well i think he/she indirectly ordered me to shut up!!Hmm.. was angry the moment i saw that, so was conselling my friend about how we should see that.Not long after that, i don't have mood already, sleeping whole day..
Was a bit quiet. Was thinking about who i am, what i am, and what has changed. Well, i have to admit, and agree that i'm a very noisy person, its not the 1st time ppl ask me to shut up lor.. At times, i can be really very annoying.. i'm sorry to those i'd hurt, by harsh words. You have to confront me, and tell me i'm wrong, for if you don't, i will keep repeating the same thing.. sighh..humans need lessons to improve, let me understand and accept the situation. For we must grow with our age.
Things didn't go well for me. I dare say, i might always sound positive, but i have my sadness too. But then, it'll soon be over, if i overcome it calmly. I was told not to jump into conclusions quickly. I was told not to give any assumptions and judgements on whatever people do. I again dare to say, i always tell people to do so. But when i'm in the situation, i myself commit the little wrong, and i turned irrational easily.
Nothing much.. its all about realization. How often we look back in our past and realize things that we'd done?How often, we realize that we should appreciate those around us? How often we regret on what we did was wrong and trying hard to repent? How often we missed the past and wonder if things could be just like before?.. Seconds, minutes, hours days, weeks months years decades.. they passed us by. But did we realize how things would be if we do one thing instead of the other?
Realise what is in us.. realize that, at any form of disappointment, you cant blame one side for being so. It cant be justified. I had my wrongs too. But, its too late for me to repent. A new life started, lets include me broking my mum's flower pot.. i'm so dead. It all depends on how i want to write my story my life, when i make myself sad, i put myself into depression. But.. if i want a smile on my face, i made myself and everyone else happy.
Will it ever be difficult for one to stay happy forever?... No.. unless we don't want to. Be more alert about changes around you. So that you won't be suprise if things suddenly went haywire. Never ever put your emotions into consideration before taking actions. Although its difficult.. but try your best... i once let my emotions drive me to take silly actions. Now, i regret, but it wouldn't change anything. So to all out there, be careful. Don't repeat the same mistake for two times... take good care of yourself. For no one loves you more than you yourself. Protect yourself.
Humans are unpredictable, my prev post mentioned, understanding is crucial. Now, this post is a bout realisation.
Went to my class blog. Found a tagger, who commented on me, well i think he/she indirectly ordered me to shut up!!Hmm.. was angry the moment i saw that, so was conselling my friend about how we should see that.Not long after that, i don't have mood already, sleeping whole day..
Was a bit quiet. Was thinking about who i am, what i am, and what has changed. Well, i have to admit, and agree that i'm a very noisy person, its not the 1st time ppl ask me to shut up lor.. At times, i can be really very annoying.. i'm sorry to those i'd hurt, by harsh words. You have to confront me, and tell me i'm wrong, for if you don't, i will keep repeating the same thing.. sighh..humans need lessons to improve, let me understand and accept the situation. For we must grow with our age.
Things didn't go well for me. I dare say, i might always sound positive, but i have my sadness too. But then, it'll soon be over, if i overcome it calmly. I was told not to jump into conclusions quickly. I was told not to give any assumptions and judgements on whatever people do. I again dare to say, i always tell people to do so. But when i'm in the situation, i myself commit the little wrong, and i turned irrational easily.
Nothing much.. its all about realization. How often we look back in our past and realize things that we'd done?How often, we realize that we should appreciate those around us? How often we regret on what we did was wrong and trying hard to repent? How often we missed the past and wonder if things could be just like before?.. Seconds, minutes, hours days, weeks months years decades.. they passed us by. But did we realize how things would be if we do one thing instead of the other?
Realise what is in us.. realize that, at any form of disappointment, you cant blame one side for being so. It cant be justified. I had my wrongs too. But, its too late for me to repent. A new life started, lets include me broking my mum's flower pot.. i'm so dead. It all depends on how i want to write my story my life, when i make myself sad, i put myself into depression. But.. if i want a smile on my face, i made myself and everyone else happy.
Will it ever be difficult for one to stay happy forever?... No.. unless we don't want to. Be more alert about changes around you. So that you won't be suprise if things suddenly went haywire. Never ever put your emotions into consideration before taking actions. Although its difficult.. but try your best... i once let my emotions drive me to take silly actions. Now, i regret, but it wouldn't change anything. So to all out there, be careful. Don't repeat the same mistake for two times... take good care of yourself. For no one loves you more than you yourself. Protect yourself.
Humans are unpredictable, my prev post mentioned, understanding is crucial. Now, this post is a bout realisation.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Something New.
It took me 17 years of tears, sadness, joy, laughter and experience to be what I am here today. I believe every personality in each human being has a story behind them. One is acting in such way is because of something behind him/her, that we can’t see.
I realize, what I am here today is because of the story behind me. For what I failed in the past, for what I’d done and learnt, they planted my attitude in me. Sometimes, I wonder how people can act and do things different from me. Well, of course they are not me, that’s why we have different thinking and ways of doing things.
What we humans need to realize is that, we must not judge a person on the way they act. Instead of commenting and gossiping around, instead of under-estimating and looking down on some particular person, cursing and telling everyone else how one would be, have we ever thought of putting our shoes into their situation and start thinking their way?
I tried my best to understand everyone, for only by understanding their situation, I can only comment. You can blame one for stealing your belongings. But what if you got to know that, the one is actually facing some problems that caused him to do things to attract people’s attention? I’m not trying to say that he should be forgiven. But I want us, as humans to understand other people’s feelings as situation.
When I dwell into my past, I realize, that they wouldn’t be able to understand my situation for what I’ve gone through, they hadn’t. That moment, I knew that I am not considerate enough. When my friends are in trouble, I often take them as childish, fool, and being kiddo for thinking and feeling the way they are. But, who am I to comment when I’m not in the situation. I realize it isn’t easy to understand one person. It takes patience, a lot of time, and persuasion to do so,
Just like Christianity, a few years back, I didn’t have good impressions on Christian and the religion itself. I regretted. I now know that, before I start judging something, I must understand it first. For this case, I took the opportunity to explore on the religion. Read the bible, attend youth camps, and attend services. All come to know that, Christianity is just like Buddhism in a way. They exist in this world to help humans, to teach them the proper way of life.
Everything can be controversial, be it an issue, a misunderstanding, an argument, for there is always two side of everything. The pros and the cons. The good and the bad. The yin and the yang. What happens if you were to hear two different stories about the same incident? Do you not care? Or do you side the one who sounds truer? It is difficult. Humans act according to their feelings. One moment when we are angry, hurtful words were blurted. The moment we regret, at times it’s too late to change anything.
Understanding is something very deep. How would you consider one understands you enough? He knows that you don’t wear underwear? She knows that you don’t like grapes with seeds? Or that, he or she knows what you’re thinking when you are not verbally connected? Or is it that at the look of the eye, you would have all his or her thoughts at the tips of your fingers? Understanding is everything.
Now, I must try not to comment, criticize and condemn about others. I must learn to understand them, and be in their shoes, before I make any judgements. I must not be stubborn and must accept things that I don’t like. I’ll change for the better, but I still doubt that I’m able to do it. I’ll try at least. All the best to people who are facing difficulties. Its all about understanding. Hope you will understand this post too.
It took me 17 years of tears, sadness, joy, laughter and experience to be what I am here today. I believe every personality in each human being has a story behind them. One is acting in such way is because of something behind him/her, that we can’t see.
I realize, what I am here today is because of the story behind me. For what I failed in the past, for what I’d done and learnt, they planted my attitude in me. Sometimes, I wonder how people can act and do things different from me. Well, of course they are not me, that’s why we have different thinking and ways of doing things.
What we humans need to realize is that, we must not judge a person on the way they act. Instead of commenting and gossiping around, instead of under-estimating and looking down on some particular person, cursing and telling everyone else how one would be, have we ever thought of putting our shoes into their situation and start thinking their way?
I tried my best to understand everyone, for only by understanding their situation, I can only comment. You can blame one for stealing your belongings. But what if you got to know that, the one is actually facing some problems that caused him to do things to attract people’s attention? I’m not trying to say that he should be forgiven. But I want us, as humans to understand other people’s feelings as situation.
When I dwell into my past, I realize, that they wouldn’t be able to understand my situation for what I’ve gone through, they hadn’t. That moment, I knew that I am not considerate enough. When my friends are in trouble, I often take them as childish, fool, and being kiddo for thinking and feeling the way they are. But, who am I to comment when I’m not in the situation. I realize it isn’t easy to understand one person. It takes patience, a lot of time, and persuasion to do so,
Just like Christianity, a few years back, I didn’t have good impressions on Christian and the religion itself. I regretted. I now know that, before I start judging something, I must understand it first. For this case, I took the opportunity to explore on the religion. Read the bible, attend youth camps, and attend services. All come to know that, Christianity is just like Buddhism in a way. They exist in this world to help humans, to teach them the proper way of life.
Everything can be controversial, be it an issue, a misunderstanding, an argument, for there is always two side of everything. The pros and the cons. The good and the bad. The yin and the yang. What happens if you were to hear two different stories about the same incident? Do you not care? Or do you side the one who sounds truer? It is difficult. Humans act according to their feelings. One moment when we are angry, hurtful words were blurted. The moment we regret, at times it’s too late to change anything.
Understanding is something very deep. How would you consider one understands you enough? He knows that you don’t wear underwear? She knows that you don’t like grapes with seeds? Or that, he or she knows what you’re thinking when you are not verbally connected? Or is it that at the look of the eye, you would have all his or her thoughts at the tips of your fingers? Understanding is everything.
Now, I must try not to comment, criticize and condemn about others. I must learn to understand them, and be in their shoes, before I make any judgements. I must not be stubborn and must accept things that I don’t like. I’ll change for the better, but I still doubt that I’m able to do it. I’ll try at least. All the best to people who are facing difficulties. Its all about understanding. Hope you will understand this post too.
Monday, September 18, 2006
Anew life:
Most of you would realise some of the posts have been deleted in my blog. Why would i do so? Is it because i'm afraid that i'd revealed myself to much and will get my image spoilt? Partly.. IS it because i'm afraid of rumours that might make me feel awkward and being left?.. Partly..
ONe most important thing i've got to know today. If i were to dwell in my past and letting this posts to survive in my blog. I would only look behind and always regret on things i've done. Tsae Yun told me, i should let go, and be contented. Why would i want to let my past to ruin my future. Continue doing what i want, but i don't have to be sad at the past.
Different people gives different things. Different human have different weaknesses and strengths. If i were to comment each and everyone in the world? Who am i to be? I'm not God, for that, i already shouldn't comment. No rights to.
I had decided to move on with live, leaving sad things behind,sweet memories in my heart and to pursue what i want now and in the future. Only by this way, i can let go the old me and be the new me. Not to get stuck in the past. But to learn, forgive, and to improve for the future.
We must not let the past ruin us, but make us grow. For what is ahead, will depend on how we act today. Oour actions has its consequences. Eat 5 times aday? You'll be like a panda in future. Drink less water, your face wil look like the moon's surface in the future. Study hard, you'll score. Don't study and slack all the way through education, you'll flunk n not succeed. Talk bad about others? Have people talk bad about you. Steal and enter jail. Love, and you'll be love. All this are cause and effects. I believe in Buddhism as it teaches me how to live my life. It tells me about the karma i had.
It teaches me that we as humans, are here on earth to decide and do things, and the actions we do, will result in whether we are able to go back where we belong to. Immortality, which is heaven. All humans are given brains to think. We are rational, for that, we should know what we should do. Humans sin. But how we cleanse? Only by repenting that we shall be forgived.
Find the truth of life, how we as humans suppose to live. And our purpose here. For christians, do read the bible often as it is an answer to all problems in life. To buddhists, try to understand the religion. Buddhism is not only about worshipping with food and burning insense. Those are traditions. Understand the teachings in buddhism not just look at the things you see, but feel whats in it. I'm not sure about other religions cause i'm not exposed to it. But religions in this world, many. And they are here not because of the sake of beliefs. They existed for a reason. Therefore, try to understand the religion. Christians does bible study, Buddhists have sunday classes. Attempt, you'll find something.
Be neutral and learn, that's what i'mtrying now. I vow, from today onwards, i shall be myself and be contented and stay happy always. Hope whoever who use to dwell in problems has awaken. Love ourselves first if you want others to love you. Love others, although they don't. Love is not about give and take. Is about willingness and tolerance. Its about sacrifice and commitment. Love those who supported me. AND I'M PROUD TO SAY.. I'M BACK
Most of you would realise some of the posts have been deleted in my blog. Why would i do so? Is it because i'm afraid that i'd revealed myself to much and will get my image spoilt? Partly.. IS it because i'm afraid of rumours that might make me feel awkward and being left?.. Partly..
ONe most important thing i've got to know today. If i were to dwell in my past and letting this posts to survive in my blog. I would only look behind and always regret on things i've done. Tsae Yun told me, i should let go, and be contented. Why would i want to let my past to ruin my future. Continue doing what i want, but i don't have to be sad at the past.
Different people gives different things. Different human have different weaknesses and strengths. If i were to comment each and everyone in the world? Who am i to be? I'm not God, for that, i already shouldn't comment. No rights to.
I had decided to move on with live, leaving sad things behind,sweet memories in my heart and to pursue what i want now and in the future. Only by this way, i can let go the old me and be the new me. Not to get stuck in the past. But to learn, forgive, and to improve for the future.
We must not let the past ruin us, but make us grow. For what is ahead, will depend on how we act today. Oour actions has its consequences. Eat 5 times aday? You'll be like a panda in future. Drink less water, your face wil look like the moon's surface in the future. Study hard, you'll score. Don't study and slack all the way through education, you'll flunk n not succeed. Talk bad about others? Have people talk bad about you. Steal and enter jail. Love, and you'll be love. All this are cause and effects. I believe in Buddhism as it teaches me how to live my life. It tells me about the karma i had.
It teaches me that we as humans, are here on earth to decide and do things, and the actions we do, will result in whether we are able to go back where we belong to. Immortality, which is heaven. All humans are given brains to think. We are rational, for that, we should know what we should do. Humans sin. But how we cleanse? Only by repenting that we shall be forgived.
Find the truth of life, how we as humans suppose to live. And our purpose here. For christians, do read the bible often as it is an answer to all problems in life. To buddhists, try to understand the religion. Buddhism is not only about worshipping with food and burning insense. Those are traditions. Understand the teachings in buddhism not just look at the things you see, but feel whats in it. I'm not sure about other religions cause i'm not exposed to it. But religions in this world, many. And they are here not because of the sake of beliefs. They existed for a reason. Therefore, try to understand the religion. Christians does bible study, Buddhists have sunday classes. Attempt, you'll find something.
Be neutral and learn, that's what i'mtrying now. I vow, from today onwards, i shall be myself and be contented and stay happy always. Hope whoever who use to dwell in problems has awaken. Love ourselves first if you want others to love you. Love others, although they don't. Love is not about give and take. Is about willingness and tolerance. Its about sacrifice and commitment. Love those who supported me. AND I'M PROUD TO SAY.. I'M BACK
Saturday, September 16, 2006
A day of awareness.
I had a pair of swollen eyes this morning. Didn’t have the courage to tell mum I cried when I was interrogated. I wouldn’t explain why anyway. I got a bruise on my forehead due to severe bangs on the wall yesterday night. But, I can still drive, talk, laugh and calculate and do some logic sensible chats. Meaning? No brain damage. Early morning today, bang my arms on the bed, cause I had a bad night, wasn’t able to sleep well and in the morning too. Not painful cause it is just a light bang. 20% of my strength used. That would be, urm… 0.5 calories burn?
I had a hard time convincing mum to allow me to drive to ampang to meet up some friends of mine. Thanks to sis, and my persistence, I drove finally. 1st plan, drop by ‘Yiok Choi Po’ to buy some Chinese herbs. I was approaching two young man packing herbs at the counter. I enquire in Cantonese about what should I purchase. But they didn’t bother me. I wonder, at my size, am I that invisible? I again asked politely. Finally, they answered, sorry, we don’t know how to speak Cantonese. I was like... “’—sweat! Then I talk to them in broken Chinese. Well, I’m fluent with it though. They then pointed at the guy right at the other corner. I walk and ask again, this time, a girl stopped me and ask me what I want. I tried describing the best I could. With my luck, I was able to purchase what I want.
Heading to the restaurant to meet up my friends, drove a bit recklessly, but yet the car and me are still in one piece. Being the 1st to reach, goodness, I waited till the restaurant actually OPEN. Ha-ha... I had a great time talking with my friends. For 3 hrs plus. Then, time to head home, almost met accident twice. But again, I’m still in one piece. Went to Jan’s house to pass her some stuff.
Practically that was my day. Learn a lot from today. Learnt to wake up from a dream. Manage to discover something from someone. Then, my intuition took place. I hope it’s wrong though. I’m back people. After a whole week of sadness, confrontation, confession, clarification, stress, tears, and some injuries, all has finally ended. September 8 till today. Things that I’d lost and gain balanced the scale. Although I’ve lost more, but it was for a long term. What I gain is, a wake from a sweet dream that will never come true.
Guess that’s all. Things come and go. People enter your life and they’ll leave someday. Now, I know, what friends are for, Lisa Tsae Yun? Thanks for supporting me yesterday night, without you girls I wouldn’t have pulled it through. Janice? I hope we can cope up to closer our friendship and rebuild whatever that was destroyed since this year. Yee Wah? Thanks for being a buddy of mine, and I really appreciate your 24-7 on call out to yum cha with me. Keep in contact always. Many more to mention. But it’ll be until tomorrow by then. Friends? Really appreciate your friendship. I’ll be stronger, and learn to handle things better. I’ll know who to love and who to care about. I’ll never give up on Janice, Yee Wah, and whoever who needs me to be there. I promise. The least I can do, to repay all you girls have ever done for me.
I had a pair of swollen eyes this morning. Didn’t have the courage to tell mum I cried when I was interrogated. I wouldn’t explain why anyway. I got a bruise on my forehead due to severe bangs on the wall yesterday night. But, I can still drive, talk, laugh and calculate and do some logic sensible chats. Meaning? No brain damage. Early morning today, bang my arms on the bed, cause I had a bad night, wasn’t able to sleep well and in the morning too. Not painful cause it is just a light bang. 20% of my strength used. That would be, urm… 0.5 calories burn?
I had a hard time convincing mum to allow me to drive to ampang to meet up some friends of mine. Thanks to sis, and my persistence, I drove finally. 1st plan, drop by ‘Yiok Choi Po’ to buy some Chinese herbs. I was approaching two young man packing herbs at the counter. I enquire in Cantonese about what should I purchase. But they didn’t bother me. I wonder, at my size, am I that invisible? I again asked politely. Finally, they answered, sorry, we don’t know how to speak Cantonese. I was like... “’—sweat! Then I talk to them in broken Chinese. Well, I’m fluent with it though. They then pointed at the guy right at the other corner. I walk and ask again, this time, a girl stopped me and ask me what I want. I tried describing the best I could. With my luck, I was able to purchase what I want.
Heading to the restaurant to meet up my friends, drove a bit recklessly, but yet the car and me are still in one piece. Being the 1st to reach, goodness, I waited till the restaurant actually OPEN. Ha-ha... I had a great time talking with my friends. For 3 hrs plus. Then, time to head home, almost met accident twice. But again, I’m still in one piece. Went to Jan’s house to pass her some stuff.
Practically that was my day. Learn a lot from today. Learnt to wake up from a dream. Manage to discover something from someone. Then, my intuition took place. I hope it’s wrong though. I’m back people. After a whole week of sadness, confrontation, confession, clarification, stress, tears, and some injuries, all has finally ended. September 8 till today. Things that I’d lost and gain balanced the scale. Although I’ve lost more, but it was for a long term. What I gain is, a wake from a sweet dream that will never come true.
Guess that’s all. Things come and go. People enter your life and they’ll leave someday. Now, I know, what friends are for, Lisa Tsae Yun? Thanks for supporting me yesterday night, without you girls I wouldn’t have pulled it through. Janice? I hope we can cope up to closer our friendship and rebuild whatever that was destroyed since this year. Yee Wah? Thanks for being a buddy of mine, and I really appreciate your 24-7 on call out to yum cha with me. Keep in contact always. Many more to mention. But it’ll be until tomorrow by then. Friends? Really appreciate your friendship. I’ll be stronger, and learn to handle things better. I’ll know who to love and who to care about. I’ll never give up on Janice, Yee Wah, and whoever who needs me to be there. I promise. The least I can do, to repay all you girls have ever done for me.
Friday, September 15, 2006
The purpose of my life on earth:
1. Experiencing things that I love doing- like, sleeping, eating, slacking and talking.
2. Able to be with my loved ones – my god sisters, my best friend, and my family members
3. To learn where my limits are and what can I do to improve my weaknesses.
4. To entertain my friends with my crappy lame jokes, and make them smile always –
although some will be hurt, because I’ll shoot anyone possible, I don’t mean to. Just
joking about things. Sorry
5. Finish reading an English Oxford Dictionary. Was having a tough time understanding
bombastic words like ‘bleak’. Was cracking my head on how to explain the meaning in my
own words for ECSF02 exam
6. To eat as much meat as possible, lamb, beef, pork and duck. Substitutes would be chicken
and fish! Love them, fried, stewed and GRILLED, best roasted.
7. Trying to break my gor gor’s record of sleeping more than 16hrs a day. Mine is only 14.
8. Try cheating death again. Yesterday’s close shave was the second time. When will I
experience it again??
9. Not to lose things for the third time: IC, purse, umbrella, house keys and goodness. A lot
more.
10. Make sure my hp doesn’t get soaked in water for the 3rd time, once in the washing
machine; the 2nd was a swim with me in a pool.
11. Learn more about computer. – Chips, and keys and whatever.
12. Try to achieve, every goal I had made. Most of them accomplished, current goal I’m trying is lose 5kgs. (Still find it impossible to achieve)
13. Try to lead those less faith to their own religion, regardless of which, or believes, and also to support whoever who’s having trouble.
14. To accept my karma, for whatever I have done in my past life that would result in this life. Even in the past. “Yao yan pit yao guo”
15. Lastly, to stay happy always. (Most of the time laughing away, but sadness still occurs)
Things I’d hope for:
i. Being selfish, my first hope is being able to get everything I want
ii. My sister to be able to do what she likes and that she’s happy with her job
iii. My parents to stay healthy forever.
iv. Less arguments at home. More interaction with parents
v. My Best Friend Janice, to be able survive through all her sadness and pain, and also, eternal happiness to her and her true love. Whoever it might be. Hope that she stays strong, healthy and safe always
vi. My God sisters : Study hard and achieve good results in whatever they are pursuing. Find their purpose of live and learn to decide and do what they LOVE.
vii. My close friends(school & college): They will be free from whatever troubles they had, achieving success in future, and also keep in contact always
viii. I can be able to protect and care for those whom I love, forever and always.
ix. I am able to be strong, and positive minded to handle all challenges in life
x. Everyone in this whole world to be happy. Smile always.
1. Experiencing things that I love doing- like, sleeping, eating, slacking and talking.
2. Able to be with my loved ones – my god sisters, my best friend, and my family members
3. To learn where my limits are and what can I do to improve my weaknesses.
4. To entertain my friends with my crappy lame jokes, and make them smile always –
although some will be hurt, because I’ll shoot anyone possible, I don’t mean to. Just
joking about things. Sorry
5. Finish reading an English Oxford Dictionary. Was having a tough time understanding
bombastic words like ‘bleak’. Was cracking my head on how to explain the meaning in my
own words for ECSF02 exam
6. To eat as much meat as possible, lamb, beef, pork and duck. Substitutes would be chicken
and fish! Love them, fried, stewed and GRILLED, best roasted.
7. Trying to break my gor gor’s record of sleeping more than 16hrs a day. Mine is only 14.
8. Try cheating death again. Yesterday’s close shave was the second time. When will I
experience it again??
9. Not to lose things for the third time: IC, purse, umbrella, house keys and goodness. A lot
more.
10. Make sure my hp doesn’t get soaked in water for the 3rd time, once in the washing
machine; the 2nd was a swim with me in a pool.
11. Learn more about computer. – Chips, and keys and whatever.
12. Try to achieve, every goal I had made. Most of them accomplished, current goal I’m trying is lose 5kgs. (Still find it impossible to achieve)
13. Try to lead those less faith to their own religion, regardless of which, or believes, and also to support whoever who’s having trouble.
14. To accept my karma, for whatever I have done in my past life that would result in this life. Even in the past. “Yao yan pit yao guo”
15. Lastly, to stay happy always. (Most of the time laughing away, but sadness still occurs)
Things I’d hope for:
i. Being selfish, my first hope is being able to get everything I want
ii. My sister to be able to do what she likes and that she’s happy with her job
iii. My parents to stay healthy forever.
iv. Less arguments at home. More interaction with parents
v. My Best Friend Janice, to be able survive through all her sadness and pain, and also, eternal happiness to her and her true love. Whoever it might be. Hope that she stays strong, healthy and safe always
vi. My God sisters : Study hard and achieve good results in whatever they are pursuing. Find their purpose of live and learn to decide and do what they LOVE.
vii. My close friends(school & college): They will be free from whatever troubles they had, achieving success in future, and also keep in contact always
viii. I can be able to protect and care for those whom I love, forever and always.
ix. I am able to be strong, and positive minded to handle all challenges in life
x. Everyone in this whole world to be happy. Smile always.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Cheated Death;
After a tiring rehearsal.. a bad one, cause i chose the wrong song.. well, have to change song lor.. erm.. headed back home by ktm, that was like 605pm when i left college, thanks to Jessy and her mum, i got a lift, and save my 10 minutes walk to the station.. did a marathon, rush to buy tickets, and ran over.. the other side coz TRAIN bubu... is leaving. Thank goodness i'd made it inside, the train left 3minutes later. Darn if i knew, i would have taken my own sweet time.
Then, a 45minutes train ride, to tasik selatan.. and did a short 20metres marathon to chase the 408 bus that reaches opposite my house. For your info, my opposite is inclusive of 1block of shop houses, one block of double storey houses, and a wide long, always jammed Connaught Highway. Alright, i was listening to the song, i'm going to sing in the SOS finals, while walking.. i was on a small road, after crossing the bridge, i was suppose to look right first then left, then right again before crossing, (that's what television teaches me.. MUM too) but i took short cut, i looked on my left, and just crossed. My left foot was out...
The vios, flew by.. yes.. it did flew by. And my foot got ran over.. but.. my NAtional Service Shoes saved me from to left tyres. I was inches away from the car, and was stunned for 10seconds. I looked at my foot, move my toes a little, ya... i can still feel them, i knelt to feel the front of my shoes.. THank goodness, my toes were a few centimetres away from the point, where it got ran over. That moment, someone's name struck my mind. Don't have to mention who it is.. for its over. Goodness, i really hope that name didn't came in.
wELL, That cheat was a real close one. If i was faster, I won't be here typing this post. That point of time, i realize there's a lot a lot of things, not that i haven't tried, but things i'd haven't mention to my loved ones, families, god sisters, close friends and friends. I realise, wow.. i can just die off like that? But i didn't. Well, that shock woke me from a dream . A dream that involves the disappointment of life. No longer will i ever, be down so easily again. Not won't be down. But just, not so easy only. Life is precious, we learn as we grow, and the people around whom we appreciate most, contributed to our happiness. Thus, ... i knew at this point, i have to move on with life, be opstimistic, and happy go lucky.
Hope those who're reading this realize that too, and stay happy alwayz..
After a tiring rehearsal.. a bad one, cause i chose the wrong song.. well, have to change song lor.. erm.. headed back home by ktm, that was like 605pm when i left college, thanks to Jessy and her mum, i got a lift, and save my 10 minutes walk to the station.. did a marathon, rush to buy tickets, and ran over.. the other side coz TRAIN bubu... is leaving. Thank goodness i'd made it inside, the train left 3minutes later. Darn if i knew, i would have taken my own sweet time.
Then, a 45minutes train ride, to tasik selatan.. and did a short 20metres marathon to chase the 408 bus that reaches opposite my house. For your info, my opposite is inclusive of 1block of shop houses, one block of double storey houses, and a wide long, always jammed Connaught Highway. Alright, i was listening to the song, i'm going to sing in the SOS finals, while walking.. i was on a small road, after crossing the bridge, i was suppose to look right first then left, then right again before crossing, (that's what television teaches me.. MUM too) but i took short cut, i looked on my left, and just crossed. My left foot was out...
The vios, flew by.. yes.. it did flew by. And my foot got ran over.. but.. my NAtional Service Shoes saved me from to left tyres. I was inches away from the car, and was stunned for 10seconds. I looked at my foot, move my toes a little, ya... i can still feel them, i knelt to feel the front of my shoes.. THank goodness, my toes were a few centimetres away from the point, where it got ran over. That moment, someone's name struck my mind. Don't have to mention who it is.. for its over. Goodness, i really hope that name didn't came in.
wELL, That cheat was a real close one. If i was faster, I won't be here typing this post. That point of time, i realize there's a lot a lot of things, not that i haven't tried, but things i'd haven't mention to my loved ones, families, god sisters, close friends and friends. I realise, wow.. i can just die off like that? But i didn't. Well, that shock woke me from a dream . A dream that involves the disappointment of life. No longer will i ever, be down so easily again. Not won't be down. But just, not so easy only. Life is precious, we learn as we grow, and the people around whom we appreciate most, contributed to our happiness. Thus, ... i knew at this point, i have to move on with life, be opstimistic, and happy go lucky.
Hope those who're reading this realize that too, and stay happy alwayz..
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
A day of Fulfillment and Disappointment
Woke up at 7 today, realising that everything that happened the past few days is over. And i have to move on my life. Went to the registrar, where i need to redo my ic, for loosing it the second time. Waited hours, cause server is down, decided to come back and left again at 2,Paid a RM50 fine, then went JPJ to redo my P lisense, RM20 Paid. Finally, all has ended, due to my own reckless attitude, and i have to take it to my own responsibility. Total loss: RM200
Although its an expensive lesson, all expenses paid by myself, but i'd felt the rush of achievement in my heart. Like i said, things come and go, for i shall learn to give things to gain things.
The next sad thing, not really sad though, was receiving a post from the PLKN, National Service lar.. Well, once i got it, i knew it would be a sad news. I knew i had to go back although i escaped NS for 11 out of 13 weeks. I guess someone is happy. Well, i don't know what reaction i could give, i was issued a certificate of training by my favourite commandant that moment. Now, the Chairman wants me to go back. Mum say don't care.
This is definitely a disappointment, the one thing i'd never regret coming back is being able to celebrate my love one's bday and to be able to be with, i'm more than happy. But, it seems that, i'd lost my love one when i got back, its already 5months now. I'd learned more things about that particular person, hurts when it isn't from its own mouth. A sad thing i would say. I was told to let go, i will, soon, but not now. Quote tsae yun : let the bygones be the bygones, you might loose someone you love... wouldn't want to type what she said later. I still do miss things...
Sis told me, don't keep it in your mind, for you will feel sad and depressed about the same matter, over and over again. I do agree with her, but.. it would never be easy. I'll try. Life is not only about living, suffering. We are created to overcome challenges, for only this will make us grow. I would say, its a shame of myself, doing all silly things for the past few months, hurting love ones, and letting them go, chasing them away from my own life.
I have no right to judge others, for me, myself.. ain't perfect at all. I see weakness in people, so do they towards me. I realize i'm foolish to had all things ruin, making my love ones feel sad and depressed, leading them away from me. Well, too bad it cant be undone, for i shall prove that i can be better.
I hereby, *kneels down* ask for everyone's forgiveness, i'm sorry for all i'd done, since young. I realize it isn't easy to be a human, you get irritated, you irritate people. For i see now, i must learn to be nice and caring. For it says, DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WANT OTHERS TO DO UNTO YOU.
You know who you are.. you know what i want to say, and in additional to all my expressions towards you? I 'm sorry. Happiness to both of you. i'll stay happy too. My friends and sis is supporting me good. Thanks to all who'd cheeered me up when i was down. Arigatoz.
Woke up at 7 today, realising that everything that happened the past few days is over. And i have to move on my life. Went to the registrar, where i need to redo my ic, for loosing it the second time. Waited hours, cause server is down, decided to come back and left again at 2,Paid a RM50 fine, then went JPJ to redo my P lisense, RM20 Paid. Finally, all has ended, due to my own reckless attitude, and i have to take it to my own responsibility. Total loss: RM200
Although its an expensive lesson, all expenses paid by myself, but i'd felt the rush of achievement in my heart. Like i said, things come and go, for i shall learn to give things to gain things.
The next sad thing, not really sad though, was receiving a post from the PLKN, National Service lar.. Well, once i got it, i knew it would be a sad news. I knew i had to go back although i escaped NS for 11 out of 13 weeks. I guess someone is happy. Well, i don't know what reaction i could give, i was issued a certificate of training by my favourite commandant that moment. Now, the Chairman wants me to go back. Mum say don't care.
This is definitely a disappointment, the one thing i'd never regret coming back is being able to celebrate my love one's bday and to be able to be with, i'm more than happy. But, it seems that, i'd lost my love one when i got back, its already 5months now. I'd learned more things about that particular person, hurts when it isn't from its own mouth. A sad thing i would say. I was told to let go, i will, soon, but not now. Quote tsae yun : let the bygones be the bygones, you might loose someone you love... wouldn't want to type what she said later. I still do miss things...
Sis told me, don't keep it in your mind, for you will feel sad and depressed about the same matter, over and over again. I do agree with her, but.. it would never be easy. I'll try. Life is not only about living, suffering. We are created to overcome challenges, for only this will make us grow. I would say, its a shame of myself, doing all silly things for the past few months, hurting love ones, and letting them go, chasing them away from my own life.
I have no right to judge others, for me, myself.. ain't perfect at all. I see weakness in people, so do they towards me. I realize i'm foolish to had all things ruin, making my love ones feel sad and depressed, leading them away from me. Well, too bad it cant be undone, for i shall prove that i can be better.
I hereby, *kneels down* ask for everyone's forgiveness, i'm sorry for all i'd done, since young. I realize it isn't easy to be a human, you get irritated, you irritate people. For i see now, i must learn to be nice and caring. For it says, DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WANT OTHERS TO DO UNTO YOU.
You know who you are.. you know what i want to say, and in additional to all my expressions towards you? I 'm sorry. Happiness to both of you. i'll stay happy too. My friends and sis is supporting me good. Thanks to all who'd cheeered me up when i was down. Arigatoz.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Belated birtthday
My belated birthday
Well, well, look what we have here. Friday night wasn’t a nice birthday pass by. Urm... some sad moments in between.Which made me realize, I’d no one else but my sister and my friends to live for. Anyway, on Saturday morning, apologies and again some moments of sadness occurred, or incurred. Man!!Teach me English!! In the afternoon, two of my god sis’s wished me belated, both so absent minded, but I still love them a lot cause they are my beloved cute little sisters.
A gathering was suppose to be help around 1100, but as usual, many people busy with many upcoming stuffs. But then, I was asked to go out for a “yum cha” event around my place. I was very happy of that. Because, even the gathering didn’t make it, well at least, I can meet a few of them tonight
It was a restaurant near UCSI college, should I use is? Hmmm… my grammar! They have this little stage, and I went in to look for my friends, at a corner. Once I touch the seat, I’d already started laughing like a maniac. Good old friends really cheer us up huh? That 1st two hrs with them for goodness sake, we laughed and joked, as if there’s nothing between us. No barriers within us. Just like what we use to be in high school. We crap, and no one cares whether its lame or not. We just laughed at our actions, our words.
Then, the band started singing, and we were playing with the dedication papers. Like a three year old, we wrote lame song titles, just to make those singer’s life difficult. It was only then, suddenly.. the band started to play a birthday song and sing them. I turned around looking surprised, and look in front, being nosy of who’s birthday is celebrated. There I saw, the restaurant workers holding a cake approaching me. Then I felt the warmth, I was so touched and speechless. It is so nice of my friends to have this event for me.
Although I didn’t cry, but I was really really happy for what they’d done. YEE WAH, XIN YEE, LAI SHAN, JOYCE. I forgot to hug all of you. My best ever birthday celebration award goes to you all. 9th sept , Halo rest. I’ll remember that forever. THANKS A MILLION.. REALLY appreciate you all.
PS.. FELINA? If you’re reading my blog, I sincerely apologise for not getting you anything on OUR Birthday, sorry JIE JIE.. lolz.. hope you’d a wonderful time wit HAMIMI.. blessed birthday to you.
Well, well, look what we have here. Friday night wasn’t a nice birthday pass by. Urm... some sad moments in between.Which made me realize, I’d no one else but my sister and my friends to live for. Anyway, on Saturday morning, apologies and again some moments of sadness occurred, or incurred. Man!!Teach me English!! In the afternoon, two of my god sis’s wished me belated, both so absent minded, but I still love them a lot cause they are my beloved cute little sisters.
A gathering was suppose to be help around 1100, but as usual, many people busy with many upcoming stuffs. But then, I was asked to go out for a “yum cha” event around my place. I was very happy of that. Because, even the gathering didn’t make it, well at least, I can meet a few of them tonight
It was a restaurant near UCSI college, should I use is? Hmmm… my grammar! They have this little stage, and I went in to look for my friends, at a corner. Once I touch the seat, I’d already started laughing like a maniac. Good old friends really cheer us up huh? That 1st two hrs with them for goodness sake, we laughed and joked, as if there’s nothing between us. No barriers within us. Just like what we use to be in high school. We crap, and no one cares whether its lame or not. We just laughed at our actions, our words.
Then, the band started singing, and we were playing with the dedication papers. Like a three year old, we wrote lame song titles, just to make those singer’s life difficult. It was only then, suddenly.. the band started to play a birthday song and sing them. I turned around looking surprised, and look in front, being nosy of who’s birthday is celebrated. There I saw, the restaurant workers holding a cake approaching me. Then I felt the warmth, I was so touched and speechless. It is so nice of my friends to have this event for me.
Although I didn’t cry, but I was really really happy for what they’d done. YEE WAH, XIN YEE, LAI SHAN, JOYCE. I forgot to hug all of you. My best ever birthday celebration award goes to you all. 9th sept , Halo rest. I’ll remember that forever. THANKS A MILLION.. REALLY appreciate you all.
PS.. FELINA? If you’re reading my blog, I sincerely apologise for not getting you anything on OUR Birthday, sorry JIE JIE.. lolz.. hope you’d a wonderful time wit HAMIMI.. blessed birthday to you.
Friday, September 08, 2006
Bufday gal today
My birthday:
A surprise from my friends, a small cake with 18 candles.. thanked goodness they can fit inside, I wonder y they put all in, as if I MYSELF dunno I’m eighteen. Well, that was the warmth I felt, although it was freezing cold in M FLOOR that time. So Sweet of you gals.. love you guys a lot. A confession, sorry if I’d ever made you angry ya. I don’t mean it, sometimes I’m too sarcastic. Sorry Queen sorry tsae yun, sorry Lisa.. I don’t mean it.
A msg from a friend of mine spoilt my day. Although those involve claimed that they don’t understand and that they don’t mean it, although I was initially mad and I was really angry about it. But the anger dissolve, cause I know, there is no right for me to be angry at it. Cause, I’m a nobody in between them. Sigh.. but I must, must be strong, strong to proof that, I am still able to handle. But.. I still wish both of them happiness always. Really from my heart. So Long you treat each other good. As a third party, I have no rights to complain
Watch pulse with my best friend, and ernest who was with his College friends, goodness sake, I would rate the horror flick E- . But the storyline was perfect, just that it didn’t scare me at all.Almost fell asleep tho. But that two friend of mine? They cannot make it lor. Cover eyes ears. My best friend worst, ask me to become story teller. So I paid the tickets for urm? Some storytelling contest. But its still worth it for RM 5 …well at least its original right?
Came home, another surprise from GIN SIM, she said she had something she want to give me last week? I got so blur and didn’t manage to capture the signals. She came with a cake, so sweet of her. LOU PO?? I LOVE YOU .. so much.. a surprise. BUT yet, she needs to learn to be more alert. So selamba, although its already around 10++.. Haih, when will you learn la?
My dear sis, one is Yi syn, got me a bday msg and also a prezzie. She’s one of my god sis that I’ll never worry about her studies, hope for her the best. Other kai mui’s too. Then Linda? She mms me with two of her pics and a sweet msg. This two sis of mine, I paling sayang. BESIDES That, I got kar mun. iris, Carmen, Janice and other not so close kai muis. Those are my precious and I’ll be there for them always. Not to miss out.. my first priority, my best friend.
That’s all. Didn’t make a wish for my bday. Because I already had what I want. But here, I want to wish all people around me having some problems and emo-in away, happiness and smile always. Laughter is always the best medicine.
A surprise from my friends, a small cake with 18 candles.. thanked goodness they can fit inside, I wonder y they put all in, as if I MYSELF dunno I’m eighteen. Well, that was the warmth I felt, although it was freezing cold in M FLOOR that time. So Sweet of you gals.. love you guys a lot. A confession, sorry if I’d ever made you angry ya. I don’t mean it, sometimes I’m too sarcastic. Sorry Queen sorry tsae yun, sorry Lisa.. I don’t mean it.
A msg from a friend of mine spoilt my day. Although those involve claimed that they don’t understand and that they don’t mean it, although I was initially mad and I was really angry about it. But the anger dissolve, cause I know, there is no right for me to be angry at it. Cause, I’m a nobody in between them. Sigh.. but I must, must be strong, strong to proof that, I am still able to handle. But.. I still wish both of them happiness always. Really from my heart. So Long you treat each other good. As a third party, I have no rights to complain
Watch pulse with my best friend, and ernest who was with his College friends, goodness sake, I would rate the horror flick E- . But the storyline was perfect, just that it didn’t scare me at all.Almost fell asleep tho. But that two friend of mine? They cannot make it lor. Cover eyes ears. My best friend worst, ask me to become story teller. So I paid the tickets for urm? Some storytelling contest. But its still worth it for RM 5 …well at least its original right?
Came home, another surprise from GIN SIM, she said she had something she want to give me last week? I got so blur and didn’t manage to capture the signals. She came with a cake, so sweet of her. LOU PO?? I LOVE YOU .. so much.. a surprise. BUT yet, she needs to learn to be more alert. So selamba, although its already around 10++.. Haih, when will you learn la?
My dear sis, one is Yi syn, got me a bday msg and also a prezzie. She’s one of my god sis that I’ll never worry about her studies, hope for her the best. Other kai mui’s too. Then Linda? She mms me with two of her pics and a sweet msg. This two sis of mine, I paling sayang. BESIDES That, I got kar mun. iris, Carmen, Janice and other not so close kai muis. Those are my precious and I’ll be there for them always. Not to miss out.. my first priority, my best friend.
That’s all. Didn’t make a wish for my bday. Because I already had what I want. But here, I want to wish all people around me having some problems and emo-in away, happiness and smile always. Laughter is always the best medicine.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Something deep
When you know that life’s all about receiving and transmitting, what would you define love as? Must it be a two sided way, as in.. I’ll only love if that person loves me? Must it be that only through sacrificing, you’ll obtain love?
In Christianity, love is a very wide word, different aspects to look on, once, a friend of mine told me, I LOVE YOU.. I thought it’s the love as in the one couple’s would say to each other, but i came to find out, its merely a word of comfort a word of encouragement, and a word of care. That really hurts. I wonder if that person’s reading this.. would it know how much they meant to me.?
Anyway, I’m not going to harp on it. Stubborn? Being stubborn is something good or bad? Say You?.. well, I would say its both. How would you define stubborn? One who stands on his ground and stay by his principles of life? But only this people will achieve what they want in life. Or, is it by not being able to adapt to the change of environment and the people they meet? That can be compromised.
Recommendation: Who mOVed my Cheese?
It is impossible to be tolerant all the time. You realize, ppl around you will always be there to test your patience, at times, you’ll blow like a volcano.. Why is it important that life is all about compromising? Humans must be selfish at certain things, but yet, at the same time must learn how to give and take.
I’d went through a lot of pain and sadness, to be what I am here today. Hiding behind the mask, something most of the ppl around us are doing that, while the dark secrets hid behind closed doors. To be positive is difficult.
One could say anything, could give all opinions, and all excuses, all advices, all consoles and one could be very rATIONAL, but NEVER, when they’re the victims of the problem.
That is why, never tell people what to do, never convince them to make decisions you think is right. But.. instead,give them choices& tell and show all the pros and cons, and let that own person decide, coz its his life. We have no rights to control him, We have no rights to decide for him, for he must know, what are the consequences and responsibilities to bear after certain actions are taken. Remember.. think before you act. And always look at a third party’s point of view. You can see it on a larger screen, and your actions would be more ethical than you previously decided.
Bless you all reading this with love and happiness,
Out stretch yourself to achieve your goals, don’t be too comfortable of what you have in your arms now
In Christianity, love is a very wide word, different aspects to look on, once, a friend of mine told me, I LOVE YOU.. I thought it’s the love as in the one couple’s would say to each other, but i came to find out, its merely a word of comfort a word of encouragement, and a word of care. That really hurts. I wonder if that person’s reading this.. would it know how much they meant to me.?
Anyway, I’m not going to harp on it. Stubborn? Being stubborn is something good or bad? Say You?.. well, I would say its both. How would you define stubborn? One who stands on his ground and stay by his principles of life? But only this people will achieve what they want in life. Or, is it by not being able to adapt to the change of environment and the people they meet? That can be compromised.
Recommendation: Who mOVed my Cheese?
It is impossible to be tolerant all the time. You realize, ppl around you will always be there to test your patience, at times, you’ll blow like a volcano.. Why is it important that life is all about compromising? Humans must be selfish at certain things, but yet, at the same time must learn how to give and take.
I’d went through a lot of pain and sadness, to be what I am here today. Hiding behind the mask, something most of the ppl around us are doing that, while the dark secrets hid behind closed doors. To be positive is difficult.
One could say anything, could give all opinions, and all excuses, all advices, all consoles and one could be very rATIONAL, but NEVER, when they’re the victims of the problem.
That is why, never tell people what to do, never convince them to make decisions you think is right. But.. instead,give them choices& tell and show all the pros and cons, and let that own person decide, coz its his life. We have no rights to control him, We have no rights to decide for him, for he must know, what are the consequences and responsibilities to bear after certain actions are taken. Remember.. think before you act. And always look at a third party’s point of view. You can see it on a larger screen, and your actions would be more ethical than you previously decided.
Bless you all reading this with love and happiness,
Out stretch yourself to achieve your goals, don’t be too comfortable of what you have in your arms now
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Bad Hair day
Bad HAIR DAY!!
When I reach home at around 5++ I saw my sis’s car.. In my heart I was like.. cool, I could get her to cut my hair, just to save that RM32, less to RM18 hair cut money. I opened the door, I ran upstairs, stared at the mirror for almost 15minutes? Actually staring at my hair lar, so.. what happen was, I decided to cut it for the very last TIME Again, my last times? Trust me, I have a lot of last times, ask Janice if you don’t believe me…
Alright, so here goes, I thought I can cut an inch, cause my hair is really OUT OF SHAPE, so I took two hairstyling scissors a comb and ran downstairs. My sis was ready ar that time. I let her cut my hair.. YES I really did!! When she started, I told her, I only want an inch off. She cut, cut ..cut and still cutting, till I stop her. Then I look at the mirror.. my first reaction was, OH MY DEARLY GOD!! MY HAIR IS GONE.. I went crazy, screaming .away, cause, she gave me a coconut hair cut, A STRAIht CUT
Goodness!! I ran up with the scissors, hide myself in the toilet, and do this DO IT YOURSELF thinge.. in my heart, I sweared that I’ll never ever let my sis touch my hair again. So I cut.. cut.. cut.. and cut.. and still cutting. When I look on the floor.. I was like, WHAT THE.. so much hair, or many hair down there. I wash my hair, dry it so that I acan have a clearer vision of MY DUMP hair,.. and there it was.. gone, and ugly.Then in my heart, i swear, i'll never ever let myself cut my own hair again.NEVER
Lesson: NEVER EVER TRY TO BE STINGY TOWARDS YOUR HAIR AND THE HAIRSTYLIST. THEY PAY THEIR LESSONS AT SNIPS, OR WHATSOEVER HAIR ACADEMY, NOT FOR NOTHING.. trust me, its SO NOT COOL TO CUT YOUR OWN HAIR..
Sigh… what a day!! I’m.. so in no mood to talk.. my hair WAS SO CANTIK B4 THIS, Now?? ITS Jz.. a coconut hair, short and ugly.. HELP ME..
PS* for those who haven get me a present? Can I have a wig? Or a cap? So that I can COVER COVER? Thanks .. wat a day
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When I reach home at around 5++ I saw my sis’s car.. In my heart I was like.. cool, I could get her to cut my hair, just to save that RM32, less to RM18 hair cut money. I opened the door, I ran upstairs, stared at the mirror for almost 15minutes? Actually staring at my hair lar, so.. what happen was, I decided to cut it for the very last TIME Again, my last times? Trust me, I have a lot of last times, ask Janice if you don’t believe me…
Alright, so here goes, I thought I can cut an inch, cause my hair is really OUT OF SHAPE, so I took two hairstyling scissors a comb and ran downstairs. My sis was ready ar that time. I let her cut my hair.. YES I really did!! When she started, I told her, I only want an inch off. She cut, cut ..cut and still cutting, till I stop her. Then I look at the mirror.. my first reaction was, OH MY DEARLY GOD!! MY HAIR IS GONE.. I went crazy, screaming .away, cause, she gave me a coconut hair cut, A STRAIht CUT
Goodness!! I ran up with the scissors, hide myself in the toilet, and do this DO IT YOURSELF thinge.. in my heart, I sweared that I’ll never ever let my sis touch my hair again. So I cut.. cut.. cut.. and cut.. and still cutting. When I look on the floor.. I was like, WHAT THE.. so much hair, or many hair down there. I wash my hair, dry it so that I acan have a clearer vision of MY DUMP hair,.. and there it was.. gone, and ugly.Then in my heart, i swear, i'll never ever let myself cut my own hair again.NEVER
Lesson: NEVER EVER TRY TO BE STINGY TOWARDS YOUR HAIR AND THE HAIRSTYLIST. THEY PAY THEIR LESSONS AT SNIPS, OR WHATSOEVER HAIR ACADEMY, NOT FOR NOTHING.. trust me, its SO NOT COOL TO CUT YOUR OWN HAIR..
Sigh… what a day!! I’m.. so in no mood to talk.. my hair WAS SO CANTIK B4 THIS, Now?? ITS Jz.. a coconut hair, short and ugly.. HELP ME..
PS* for those who haven get me a present? Can I have a wig? Or a cap? So that I can COVER COVER? Thanks .. wat a day
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Business Plan porposal comments.. =)
i'd joined a businessp lan competition on the 1st of august, attending two workshops..then.. handling in our first business plan porposal, on the spetember... we got our results..
sadly... we didn't manage to make it to the topten.. Less advantage as v are the oni ones in foundation yr.. other participants are from degree and sam and alevels..
Some of the comments i find useful:
sadly... we didn't manage to make it to the topten.. Less advantage as v are the oni ones in foundation yr.. other participants are from degree and sam and alevels..
Some of the comments i find useful:
- fragrance- brand is rather inappropiate.. tHE JUDGE IS rite.. coz.. i'm using that name for a wine product.
- Wine- would the government be supportive of such a product? Wel, i did mention in the porposal that i'll be meeting up the government for lisence and approval
- kNOWLEDGE OF PLanting fruit? Wel. i do have as my uncle is planting dragon fruit now.. just that its not stated in my proposal, doesn't mean i simply do k?
- Fragrance? TOO CLICHE!! aNOTHER comment on my brand.. now i think back,its more suitable for a perfume?
- cROP FAilure? - The judge thought i'm not conversant about what i'm doing.. you think i didn't do research? I EVEN know what type of pesticides feed on my dragon fruit lar.. SNAILS!!lolz
Well, it wasn't bad for a first try.. cause it could have been better.. i should have put in more effort on my proposal.. thus.. the failure is at my responsibility.. NO more next time.. cause I'LL BE BACK... with better ideas..
Thanks to the judges... now.. i noe.. what to prepare to be back.. i'll improve so definitely.. wait for me 3RD business plan competition!!
Love
What is love all about? What it feels when you know, that you're not able to love that one person forever, cause they don't love you?
Love in christianity is very wide. So rmbr.. when a CHRISTIAN tells you they love you. Ask if what type of love they are talking about.. lolz..
Words like i love you... is often mentioned. When people owe u something.. they say they love you.. When you do something for them,, they say they love you..
They also thank you by saying love you..
But ...
when it comes to the real person you love, you find it difficult to express the words in your heart.. it seems so hard.. don't you think so?? tHAT'S WHEN CODES ARE OUT.... H KNUD XNT, 143.. OR 1433.. or i heart you.. rite?? LOLZ
Love your enemies, love your parents.. don't hate one.. but wait..
hate?lovE? Its just a border that seperates the two words..
That's y you can hate the one you love most when they said its over!!
When they hurt you.. rite??
Here's a song for everyone:
Specially to those i love...
By Heart
Hold me close, baby please
Tell me anything but that you're gonna leave
As I kiss this fallen tear
I promise you I will be here
Until the stars fall from the sky
Until I find the reason why
And darling as the years go by
Until there's no tears left to cry'
Til the angels close my eyes
And even if we're worlds apart
I'll find my way back to you...By heart
When you go, I'll stop the clock
I won't ever let this moment stop
Time is stealing you from me
But it can never take this memory
Until the stars fall from the sky
Until I find the reason why
And darling as the years go by
Until there's no tears left to cry
'Til the angels close my eyes
And even if we're worlds apart
I'll find my way back to you...By heart.
Until the stars fall from the sky
Until I find the reason why
And darling as the years go by
Until there's no tears left to cry
'Til the angels close my eyes
And even if we're worlds apart
I'll find my way back to you...
By heart.
Love in christianity is very wide. So rmbr.. when a CHRISTIAN tells you they love you. Ask if what type of love they are talking about.. lolz..
Words like i love you... is often mentioned. When people owe u something.. they say they love you.. When you do something for them,, they say they love you..
They also thank you by saying love you..
But ...
when it comes to the real person you love, you find it difficult to express the words in your heart.. it seems so hard.. don't you think so?? tHAT'S WHEN CODES ARE OUT.... H KNUD XNT, 143.. OR 1433.. or i heart you.. rite?? LOLZ
Love your enemies, love your parents.. don't hate one.. but wait..
hate?lovE? Its just a border that seperates the two words..
That's y you can hate the one you love most when they said its over!!
When they hurt you.. rite??
Here's a song for everyone:
Specially to those i love...
By Heart
Hold me close, baby please
Tell me anything but that you're gonna leave
As I kiss this fallen tear
I promise you I will be here
Until the stars fall from the sky
Until I find the reason why
And darling as the years go by
Until there's no tears left to cry'
Til the angels close my eyes
And even if we're worlds apart
I'll find my way back to you...By heart
When you go, I'll stop the clock
I won't ever let this moment stop
Time is stealing you from me
But it can never take this memory
Until the stars fall from the sky
Until I find the reason why
And darling as the years go by
Until there's no tears left to cry
'Til the angels close my eyes
And even if we're worlds apart
I'll find my way back to you...By heart.
Until the stars fall from the sky
Until I find the reason why
And darling as the years go by
Until there's no tears left to cry
'Til the angels close my eyes
And even if we're worlds apart
I'll find my way back to you...
By heart.
Friday, September 01, 2006
Facts of Life
Have you ever want to love one completely and at the same time being love by the person whom you love??
What makes a person pass through their daily lives, missing someone who doesn't even know that you're inlove with them?
hOW DIfficult is it to actually move on with our own lives, knowing that, love is all about sacrifice, and that loving one doesn't mean you have to own them but by just seeing them smiling back at you, that feeling is as if, you'd achieved the greatest moments in life?
Could it be that, there would be a chance, a very slim chance in the future, that that one person you love, would come back into your arms again. But by then, you already gave up hope?
Life is all about learning, accepting and also comprehending with other's deeds, actions and words said. One moment your loved one hurts you badly, another, your friend starts to stray away from you?
dARKNESS, at times.. all of us were in! Everyone, all humans, are RATIONAL. but how many of us actually act rationally?
Time is the best ever word use to cool things down. Time fades the feeling, time heals wounds, time enhances love, time strengthen bonds, time is everything.
pAtieNce, something that not everyone has. oR maybe at different limits. To be successful, you need to be patient, to be forgiving, you need to have patient, to get old slower, you need to have patience.
Smile... something you can offer to everyone in your life for free. The smile on your face lets me know that you need me... the smile, made one who's sad, feel better. When u smile at others 98%smiles back at you.
A quote that lives in me, do unto others if you want others to do unto you
sOUNDs deep, but its just simple.
Sometims, you need space, sometimes you need company and simetimes you need privacy. When you're strangled till the very last moment, you hanged on untill you couldn't breath. That's when you burst, and worst scenarios happen. Learn to distress. As it reduces risks of heart attacks in futuire
Facts of life, simple to follow, it is just how difficult for one to accept things around them and start adapting to it.. It is not about the ability of doing certain things or making certain decisions in life, but rather the willingness to do it or not. As the saying goes, its not about whether you can or cannot, but rather you want or don't want
nOTHin is impossible, just that the impossible takes longer. Do not set the wrong base, as that causes wrong predictions and mistakes will happen. Remember that, you might not have the choice to choose how you feel but rather the choice of how you deal with your feelings
my ADVICE, adapt, alter, improve, and be positive always. Remember that, things don't always go your way. And of course they happen for a reason... you're still learning,so long you still inhale air, you're still in school session.
What makes a person pass through their daily lives, missing someone who doesn't even know that you're inlove with them?
hOW DIfficult is it to actually move on with our own lives, knowing that, love is all about sacrifice, and that loving one doesn't mean you have to own them but by just seeing them smiling back at you, that feeling is as if, you'd achieved the greatest moments in life?
Could it be that, there would be a chance, a very slim chance in the future, that that one person you love, would come back into your arms again. But by then, you already gave up hope?
Life is all about learning, accepting and also comprehending with other's deeds, actions and words said. One moment your loved one hurts you badly, another, your friend starts to stray away from you?
dARKNESS, at times.. all of us were in! Everyone, all humans, are RATIONAL. but how many of us actually act rationally?
Time is the best ever word use to cool things down. Time fades the feeling, time heals wounds, time enhances love, time strengthen bonds, time is everything.
pAtieNce, something that not everyone has. oR maybe at different limits. To be successful, you need to be patient, to be forgiving, you need to have patient, to get old slower, you need to have patience.
Smile... something you can offer to everyone in your life for free. The smile on your face lets me know that you need me... the smile, made one who's sad, feel better. When u smile at others 98%smiles back at you.
A quote that lives in me, do unto others if you want others to do unto you
sOUNDs deep, but its just simple.
Sometims, you need space, sometimes you need company and simetimes you need privacy. When you're strangled till the very last moment, you hanged on untill you couldn't breath. That's when you burst, and worst scenarios happen. Learn to distress. As it reduces risks of heart attacks in futuire
Facts of life, simple to follow, it is just how difficult for one to accept things around them and start adapting to it.. It is not about the ability of doing certain things or making certain decisions in life, but rather the willingness to do it or not. As the saying goes, its not about whether you can or cannot, but rather you want or don't want
nOTHin is impossible, just that the impossible takes longer. Do not set the wrong base, as that causes wrong predictions and mistakes will happen. Remember that, you might not have the choice to choose how you feel but rather the choice of how you deal with your feelings
my ADVICE, adapt, alter, improve, and be positive always. Remember that, things don't always go your way. And of course they happen for a reason... you're still learning,so long you still inhale air, you're still in school session.
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