Another Yum Cha event

me& my granddaughter..sharon

(carmen&laili) (karpo,me,sharon,carmen&laili)

it was a call to get everyone to stephen's corner(steven's corner)Well, kena shoot, cause spelt it wrongly.Sigh, so particular for what la.. understand d ma.

It was raining, i was 5 minutes late. Cannot make it. once i reach, i was honoured with words of Fei Kei wong.. WHOA... den kena bombarded by all HISTORY events THAT earned me that title.

There was 8 of us, one left superb early. I was there oni for 10mins, she left. Arghhh.. then we chatted till about 1 hour plus. Planning the next outing. As usual, they again reinforced that i should make it happen for i'd been sending planes to them. Haih.. cannot make it

Around 5 something, after getting gin sim;s car tyres fixed, we went to carmen's house, And talk talk talk talk talk talk talk.. till 11++ that's like 6 hrs and more.. goodness. Besides some catching ups, also managed to grab some nice songs from my friends hps.. Cool

Really miss them. Yesterday was all heart to heart talk. Its like us again, doing all those stuffs.. goodness. I'll be getting my focus on the next outing, MAKE IT HAPPEN n shut their mouth. For blaming me to FFk everytime. Basically that's all le. Had lots of fun tho

Personality test

Well, i was reading Tsae's blog.. and i click on d click where she click on her friends blog and found myself something.. that is quite true and not quite true..

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward.(so me) You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
(same like yunnies)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. (goodness, didn't tbhis strike me b4?)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively.(reminds me of genting:my hiao hiaoness) The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. (that is so not true)But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady in
come. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. Well at times i put a strong shell upfront..

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. Not to forget, i'm egoistic, pathethic sarcarstic and often harsh and crude on my words..

Blogging

Torns teaches us things, being hurt and never to get involve d same way again..But, will our heart prevent us from doing so or do we stick with it even we know its painful..


When you realise the sun is setting, you would hope that one day it would end, or do you hope that the moment will last forever??

At times, when you know it has set, but tomorrow the sun rises again, setting a new day, a new beginning..but how sure tmr is better than today?


Sometimes, your heart so fiery, your determination increased, the passion's there..but will it LAST?


Sometimes, your heart felt icy, at times feeling like giving up everything... when all things you tried didn't pay..


No one knows how you feel, humans are born with feelings.. no confession? No understanding.. left with a heart crying away..


It hurts sometimes when you aren't able to tell someone you realy love them alot, 1 rose in the hand, but a face that showed failure..

Got my mouse today.. and also a pendrive interesting?? That costed me RM90

Genting

Sorry people.. I have promised Michelle to help her to upload some photos she took in Genting and i have been delaying it. Sorry Mic! Let me write this post for u as a punishment. Lol! Ok, so here goes the photos.. Enjoy~

These are our prom night tickets with the theme "Frozen in Time". Good work done by SC, even the tickets gave us the "winter feeling" and it was freaking cold inside the ballroom. There was THIS GIRL who even hold SOMEONE's hand in order to keep HER hands warm. Ngek ngek.. So hiao la that girl. So, guess who's that GIRL. *evil grin*

Nice roses eh? =)

As usual, the six gals in a gang. From left : Daphne, Queen a.k.a Nana, Lisa, Tsae Yun, Michelle and Tze Ming
Six of us, AGAIN. =D
Photos express our feelings and this photo expresses our joy.
Sue, Michelle and Ashleigh
Both jungle people were trying to eat flowers they saw in Genting.Michelle's favourite place - The Arcade. Showing her pro-ness in dancing. Hehe..
Michelle was carrying Queen. And Daphne was acting cute? Lol. Nice pic, though.. =)
Imitating Titanic, Jack and Rose. Jack was having somekind of.. face problem here? XD
Last but not least, a photo before we really left Genting. This photo was took in the cable car..

P/S : I'm not Michelle posting but someone sent by God to help her here. ;) Try to guess who am i and i hope u all enjoy this post. All the best~ :)

A.S.H.A.M.E.D

When i woke up today, facing hours of blank mind, unable to be in reality.. i started to regret on what i did yesterday.

I was told i had changed into someone i used to be a few years back. Ego, Notty and thinking pesismistically is now my attitude. Where have i been and what have i done???

I was selfish all this while, chasing and trying to pursue everything i want, the moment i'd decided.

How can i be like this, without thinking the goods of others, the feelings of unwanted pain and extra problems caused, just because i said i want it.

When i complained about not being loved back the way i'd givien to many others, I know that moment, i'm a rubbish. Whats wrong with me..

Apologies to everyone. I can't forgive myself. I'm ignorant, i'm arrogant, i'm selfish, i'm egoistic, i'm everythin you can find in a beast. Oh..who am i to blame but myself.

I'm sorry to those i'd hurt, to those who cared for me, to those around me. Do correct my wrongs by telling me. I PROMISE MYSELF,i'l improve for the better. Please lend a hand..


Hating myself..

Insights...

I don't know why.. i don't know how.. i rejected the call i made, it was too fast, my heart fell when i heard the voice saying hello.. well.. my reflections can make it.

I watched World trade centre today, a show that, a movie that actually brought my mind to someplace very very far. Talking to a friend of mine today, also gave me alot of views onto something on what i did on the past. The word obsession, has made me, failed my love, my friends and my family.

About the movie, the whole 135 minutes i was watching it, i only thought of one person. This movie, made me cried many times until i was actually sniffing and my friends were kind of suprise seeing this rough, tough noisy girl crying her tears away.. phew.. I was indeed touched by the movie, scenes, sad scenes when you know there is only flashes of memories running thru your mind the moment you step into the death's gate, gave me the courage to learn about how important some people are to me.

I kept thinking about what's wrong in me that made people fear me, hate me, dislike me, go against me, and disown me. My far far cousin mentioned about obsession. That really lighted my rusty bulb.

I was too obsessed with my club last time, till friends of mine, realise my pride is off the limit.

I was too obsessed with my love partner, till, i got disown and left alone here. Well, its over.

I was too obsessed about my pride, my image, till i hurt people around me, saying things i'd never thought it would came off my mouth.

I was too obsessed about being caring, to show concerned, till i caused haywire, and things had never been the same.

Alot of times in my life, i would wonder, is it fair to me? One thing is for sure, obsession isn't something to be proud of.
Andrew Matthew mentioned:
"Loving someone is about giving them the freedom to choose, who they want to be and where they want to be"

It is difficult at times to express to someone you cared about alot.

Wow, i had cheated death alot of times, and i do understand certain situations. I regret that my actions had actually threw away my closest friend, my family and my friends. And, the spilt milk is drying, yet, i couldn't do anything to change.

Detachment is the word. Optimistic is the word. And TIME is the essence.

i do hope that many of you here, reading this, take this oppurtunity right now, to call your love ones and apologise and tell them you actually care, before its too late.

Humans have feelings. Live with it, adapt to it, improve about it, Survive in it.

....
Love does not boast,
it does not envy..
its patient
and it NEVER FAILS..

extracted from the bible:
corinthians book 1 chapter 13:4-8

pRom day

Please read from bottom up... haih...

A transformatioon..


Woke up in the morning, packed everything, and head to KTM station to rush for 1000am bus to genting. Well, i and joshua reached few minutes before 1000 and a few others, who were waiting for us at 1st floor KL Central, reached at 1000. Then the ticket collector, said, there's only 2 space when WE HAVE 10 TICKETS with us. She actually said we are late and gave the seats to other passengers.
My goodness,she cannot make it, and how is that possible. We WEREN'T EVEN LATE. Anyway, we headed to genting from 1030 reached at Genting Skyway at 1200pm.

Scenes in cable car:



Guess what, we ate YAO CHAR GUAI Again for the 2nd time. It has become a tradition. Haha... tHEn will waiting.. hee.. photo time of course


Dear frens ..its not that i don't want to upload you see.. it takes donkey years to upload photos..n my patience is getting ... haih...

to c pics.. do refer to tsaeyun.blogspot.com or waikikimonkeyz.blogspot.com

sori ppl...i tried for 3 hrs ald

Dear visitors..
Gimme sometime b4 i post my next stuff about prom and wat has happened to me lately..this is due to mouse malfunction and i was unable to upload photos.. easily.
Lazy me, as usual, anyway.. prom was fantastic, the people were fantastic, Student Council taskforce members were fantastic, 23 of them doing everything.. at gentingwowow.. salutes..
my first experience in Prom, held iN Genting.. was thumbs up..klaexplain d details by wednesday.. ciaoz..
ASSIGNMENT COUNTDOWN, 2 down 2 to go
Presentation countdown.. all 4

W.H.Y.

Being always positive minded, trying to stand up for my frens, and family. To support and to show that i'm independant, i'll try to hide all my feelings in me.

Interact is my life. It build and guide me to what i am here today.. i love interact so much, cause it gave me lots of benefits. And i couldn't bear.. watching it being destroyed. I can't do much.. i'm no longer having the authority to do such things, to mend the problem.. All i could do is just, try to support while i still can.. Join me with this song

OH LET THE HANDS OF FRIENDSHIP
BE STRECTHED ACROSS THE SEA
TO BRING MANKIND TOGETHER
IN ONE FRATERNITY

MAY LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING
PREVAIL IN ONE AN ALL
MAY BROTHERS COME TO SISTERS
TO ANSWER DUTY'S CALL

WE ARE FAITHFUL INTERACTORS
PREPARE TO PLAY OUR PART
TO SERVE WITH LOVE THE NEEDY
WITH UNDERSTANDING HEART

WHEN NATIONS JOIN WITH NATIONS
TO BUILD A BRAVE NEW WORLD
THUS THEN THE HEARTS OF CHILDREN
SHALL SING THE SONG OF MIRTH

LET NOT YOUR FEET BE LAGGING
BUT COME AND JOIN OUR THRONG
LETS FILL THIS WORLD TOGETHER
WITH FRIENDSHIPS HAPPY SONG

SERVICE ABOVE SELF. A motto i'd live with since i am 14. What makes me today, what build me, the oppurtunities i had, the things i'd experienced. Everything given by INTERACT..

MOST OF THE TIME IN MY LIFE.. TILL NOW, 18 YEARS.. THINGS I'D LOVE NEVER GO RIGHT. I'D hurt many others, jupsetting them with my terrible behaviour. I was never able to understand why the people don't understand my intentions. I at times, my ego and pride brought me into disasters

One thing is, i tried my best to protect what i could. But years later.. things started to jumble up. One incident, i protect it for 8months.. recent 6 months? i'd lost everything. Another, INteract, i tried to rebuild it, my juniors too, but there's always a barrier that stops us from doing so.

I AM POSITIVE thinking. But at times i get very tired. The effort, the time, the energy.

Andrew matthew said its all about detachment. Try your best, and then leave it. Make sense? The more you want of something the more it won't come. When you want something give it away. ISN'T IT CRAZY? When you want a smile? You give smile. When you want love, you give love.

After a long nag..on dis post, finally i felt better. tHANKS jANICE FOR BEING THERE FOR ME..I NOE YOU ARE WORRIED. This is only temporarily. I'll be fine soon. Thanks eric for asking. Thanks jack for listening to my stories... i'll do my 21 sit ups later.I relaly appreciate all of you. Janice? You stayed by me when i needed someone. Although we had a smal argument earlier. BAnd that i didn't make you feel better. But instead i throw my tantrums on you. Hurting you more.i'm so sorry. Pls forgive me..

Feeling much better now. I am again thinking rational. I love interact and one person. I am leeting go the latter. The former, i won't. I'm picking up taekwondo soon. I have to gain back what i'd missed, what i'd lost. I must tell myself, no matter what. I must be strong and be independant.. SERVICE ABOVE SELF. i want to be what i choose to be..i won't blame others

Another day of awareness.. me n myself:

Well.. after two days of terrible haze.. i could even smell the burning air, destroying my cute little lungs... but, i'm strong, my nostril hair, will blog those naughty dust and bacteria away... urm.. correction.. bacteria is for my antibody.

Well well... waited for sis till 6.. as usual.. in between the process of waiting would be on d computer at Mezannine floorr..chatting with friends that passes by. I mean strangers.. Haha..then.. my sis came.. with my mum's car.. a WAJA.. eventually, i expected not to drive. Cause my sister.. she's a bit afraid of my driving skills. You know la... professional ppl like me driving an amateur like her.. Haih.. but see see.. she was on d passenger side.

She told me she forgot her lisence.. So???I HAVE THE CHANCE TO DRIVE.. on the way.. while driving superbly calm and cool, both me and my sister decided to go for a swim. Something i'd never did for more than at least 6months.. i couldn't remember when.. reach at 7.45pm/ D counter said that, the last stretch would be till 8.30.. so we quickly change and swim lor

Swam non-stop for almost 30minutes.. then.. haha.. i took my goggles out.. and PLAKKKK.. opszzz.. its now into 2parts, connected oni with the strap behind it.. I look at it in awe.. my goodness.. and it happen due to my laziness.. not to swim often, and let my goggles rott inmy drawer.. thank goodness i got spare parts for that holder.. Haih.. hak sei ngo meh. Then i couldn't swim coz the chlorine content is too much?many? Whatever...

So decided to stop, called my sis, then we both bath and went home.. Me driving Waja again.. I can make it lar.. Then.. almost kena bang by another WAJA... but.. luckily.. its always ALMOST.. and always NEVER( touches wood)... Now.. i'm home, ate some chinese hawker stall food. Then.. blogging away..

Realize something important.. once before, i gave up all my favourites, all my pride and made myself to like things that i don't for a particular person. Now that, we all go on seperate paths, i regret on putting others into priority then myself, more when it wasn't much appreciated. Well, i have the blames on me too. So basically, its my fault. I can't blame others for what i choose to be... So now, i'll build back my stamina.. and attend taekwondo as soon as possible..

I'll start with weekly swimming and basketball games, and daily sit ups.. once i'm FIRM.. i'l be back to taekwondo. Cool.. i can't wait. Now, i share lots of new likings and picking back all my old past time hobbies. Its great.. its like a new me. And, i'm improving day by day, to be more understanding and more cheerful and more useful and less depressed.. I promise myself. I would ask myself, what i can give and contribute to the society then what i can get from the society. Law of "dHARMA" states the purpose of my life on earth... yes.. i UNDERSTAND FINALLY..

that's all i guess... tired d.. time to rest.. al the best to everyone outthere striving through challenges and pain. I made it through.. Hope you all can too.. Remember.. YOU ARE NOT ALONE... bye

Happy

Good evening ladies and gentlemen..

Was mourning on my pen drive. Correction, 2nd pen drive since last friday. It went into comma on the 29th Sept, I was so worried about it. I realize its body temperature increases everytime i plug it into the mother. Haih.. After, some doctor's full body check up and emergency rescue. It was pronounced dead, today.

Worst still, i lost the receipt, and i couldn't use the 5 yrs warranty i had. Haih.. i guess i don't have faith with pen drives. 1st of mine, lost... 2nd, went in ICU and never came back alive. I cannot make it lor. Making lots of noise today to lecturers and with friends.

As usual, when i don't sleep, i talk!! A friend i cared scared me to death today. She called and told me she got her piano results. Well, that was like, hours after my many msges sent to her. The msg was short. A sentence. I panicked and called her as quick as i could. As fast as i could? Goodness me, my english!.. It took her long time to pick the call, then when i got through, i heard sniffing. I kept quiet and asked, you ok? She kept quiet.. i don't remember what's the conversation in between till she yelled through the phone saying she PASSED her piano exam

Goodness her, my legs felt so weak la. Haih... talk to her more, i think i need anti-heart attack pills. Or i die sooner... anyway.. was really happy for her. Cause she wsa really worried about her results lar.. So i also stressed with her.. Hmm.. bet she's happily celebrating now. Janice Janice.. you cannot make it lar.. Today is 2nd Oct, not 1st April. Looks like pranks are done not only on april fool huh? Sigh.. swttt.. kena bully by her. Nevermindla.. so long she happy.. can already. Haha...

OKok... i'm now in my room.,Breathing only using one of my nostrils. The other is BLOCKED.. haih... drank alot vitamin c also not able to help me. Destined to be sick. Thanks to the weather, and the amount of water i drank, and the AMOUNT of fried stuff i consumed.. haiyoyo..cannot make it.

Not much facts of life toblog about today. Only to realise i needto change my attitude for the better.. Hmm.. i managed to control myself from shooting people for at least, 2hours today? Well, its a big achievement to me. Kk... shall try 4hrs tomorrow.. All the best to me..

Haha..zzzz .. I NOE!! SWEAT mar...as usual, the lame me

Sorry tsaeyun, i'm not able to do your tag.. still surviving without mouse... dunno how to copy paste with keyboard lar.. Correction.. i mean highlight your post...

Haha...ps..everyone, try GOOGLING your name at google.com.. you'll be suprised on what you can find..TRUST me.. lolz

Enlightenment

The last post i'd posted. Actually i wrote a page long about being sorry. An apology made to most of the people in my life. I didn't know why it didn't appear in my blog. Was it a signal.

Many times in my life, especially recently, everything seems to be fated. The message that could clear off misunderstandings i want to send? It would be either no line, low battery or no credit. It happens too many times, too many times to be considered as a coincidence.

Would you agree with me that things happen for a reason?... Would you sometimes, think that if you have the chance, you would do things differently? Would you blame yourself for making mistakes that you regret? But do you know that, mistakes makes us grow stronger and better? How many of us are doing the things we like? Could it be just conincidence? Or you conclude yourself that everything that happens is not your fault?

"The thing always happens that you believe in; and the belief in a thing makes it happen"

Frank Lloyd Wright

We complain that we can't do certain things because... the usual reason is, its just the way i am..

Lets see how well we agree this (Example adapted from Andrew Matthew's: Follow Your Heart)

Get yourself and aquarium.Divide it in half with a clear glass wall,so now you have akind of fish 'duplex'. Now find a barracuda, and name it barry. Nest get yourself a mullet. (Barracuda eats mullet) Put one fish on each side. In a flash, Barry,will head for the mullet and..thump..hit the glass wall at full throttle. He'll turn around and come back for another shot....thump!

Iver a period of weeks Barry will het a very sore nose. Eventually, he'll figure that mullet hunting equals to pain, and quit chasing the mullet. You can then remove the glass wall, and guess what! he will stay on his side (bARRY) for the rest of his life. Barry will happily starve to death,with the mullet swimming just inches away. He knows his limits and he won't step outside them.

We humans, believes something different from others around us. We tend to disagree others that shares different opinion with us. WHY? because we believe we are right! Its our thoughts that made us believe that certain things are wrong and right. Andrew Matthew said, in order to reject certain negative thoughts, we must stop our should beliefs. People should treat me better. People should love me back, people should b more considerate. It might seem as a list of expectations, and everyone deserves to have their own expectations. But what if you don't. What if you don't have expectations. You'll be happier.

Should beliefs don't help us because reality don't understand should beliefs. THings are just the way they are..

Again an example from andrew matthews.

Lets say you believe that fathers should praise their children and give them lots of presents. WHenver your's doesn't, you'll get upset. So you want to change father. Most people never consider the alternative solution: WHich is change beliefs.

To see things differently, you don't need willpower, self confidence or brain surgery. You just need courage to think the unfamiliar. Next time when you're angry, remember that not so much people makes u sad, as your beliefs. Whatever thoughts that are causing you paiN,they are only thoughts. You can CHANGE A THOUGHT

try searching Andrew Matthew's book in the bookstore. I fell in love with his works. He's a great cartoonist and he gave me lots of insights...

He had enlighten me at all different aspects. And he made me learn about myself and others