When its in your H.A.N.D.S

December 31st, marks the end of the year 2008..

Year 2008 has been rather colourful for me, starting of the year working in ABN AMRO, with great benefits and definitely learnt alot (best is what i still could remember now) Then sem 3 took a huge plunge for my results, and that made me work much harder for semester 4. Then , the work in Nova Scotia, definitely the best workplace, not in terms of culture, but in terms of learning experiences, being able to get directly involved in treasury back-office doing stuffs related to finance, its definitely an eye opening experience

The fun part is, I get what I wanted, when I want to quit, and I need not pay a refund. Cause they decided to release me since someone is coming in to replace me, so from a month, its reduced to 2weeks (wow.. fantastic) and yet benefited from it.

Alot say, there's nothing much to teach and learn within a short period of time, to me, an interview is learning chance, a day trip is, a day's work is to. It depends on whether you wannna take time and absorb and observe what is happening. Even taking a bus can sometimes give you lessons.

Life's about learning lessons ei??

sem 4 was miraculous, fantastic lecturers, great desire to achieve goal, made a difference, and my result was what I want..

Now working in campbells, it has been a month, initially didn't like the job, and was always frustrated about it, sometimes you'll feel alright, sometimes it just depresses me. And so I thought I could make arrangement to change my current job scope (well, widen my knowledge) cause I don't want to waste my two months doing data entry which to me is unproductive, when i already get a REAL low pay.

Sis then say i was expecting too much, as an intern you don't expect people to guide you and train you. I think she made sense there? So i didn't question much and end up trying to want what i get (john mcgray)

That was in the midst of 2nd week

Yesterday, it was at my limit. I was basically SLEEPING at work, never felt so terrible before, I was always the one energetic moving all around, giving 110% of what I should. I hate it, when it happens

I was really upset, then the thing that happened was came a new found friend i got to know 2months back. Definitely a gift, though we had much complication in between arguing and getting confused. The unconditional love we had for each other, made us pulled out strong for each and every tough rides ahead.

So, it took me the entire night, to think about what I'm gonna do to make things right at work. And i'd decided when i woke up this morning, to complete my current task (data entry) and to ask for more.

And so I came to work today, with the will and preserverance to survive. THen you know.. how important is your thoughts, when you dislike it, no matter how hard you try, you still will suffer. But once you'd decided that you'll make a change, it seems that your body would work even harder for you, the power of mind.

I gave Alicia a call, and she told me that it shouldn't be that way, an intern is supopse to learn from desired department. But she say, i'm a scholar, i should work things out myself. So figure, and let your boss know.

And it only took me 5 minutes to actually come out with an idea. I immediately storm into my boss's room well, I stormed POLITELY yea.. and sat down and told him that, I was required to come out with a report on something i had learnt the past one month (which is nothing) and I need to plan out what I'll learn next month (which is what I can control and demand for) requested for a meeting on friday.

This time, i would make things work for me. ASK.... and get the message across, the proper way, and you shall be answered.

Yes.. that would be the best new year resolution I could ever give myself, MAKING THINGS WORK WITH MY OWN HANDS IF I WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

till then, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL

May year 2009 be as plentiful (blessings) fun happy exciting for everyone.

I already had my 1year plan ready in my head. And i'm gonna make it work, make a difference, make a life, and improve to be better.

If God can do it, If mahatma ghandi can do it, If nelson mandela can do it, If terry fox can make a difference , if Paul from BGT can make a difference. WHY NOT MEEEE....

iTS MY WILL, and i have to stop SAYING, i gotta walk it.. yes.. Have to get it stuck in my head

Bukit Tabur Hike

Now who would not love sunrise, especially when you are with your loved ones...

well,you can catch sunrise without much effort if you're in redang, or perhaps some island..

even better, hop on to the net, google sunrise, you can even have the video too.

What is worth more, is when you USE all your MIGHT to CLIMB HIGH and witness the sunrise, on a klang gate (bukit tabur) Had always been talking about bukit tabur with my mates.. gosh!!! And all i hear from them is Michelle? When are you going to turn your WORDs into ACTIONS? join us laaa..

So despite its AN EARLY SUNDAY MORNING

despite, I HAVE A COMPETITION DATELINE on the same day

and .. DESPITE, i have not completed my work... I join the divers a.k.a crazy fellas a.k.a monkeys to hike bukit tabur.. JUST to see SUNRISE..

A bit intro of Bukit Tabur, a batu kapur hill with length approximately 1km, about 400metres above ground, located near Taman Melawati.

It is known as the klang gate as you will be able to catch the entire KL view, though further than what you can see from the look out point back in Hulu Langat, this hill gives different challenges, as you need to CLIMB up. and about 60% of the entire hike is CLIMB not hike.. means.. gotta use ya hands.. rock climbing style you know.Thus made the trip much more interesting...

So we woke up at 4.30 am, went to meet up at a point 5am. Drive down to nearby stall to makan till 6 am, drove to the car park and start hiking at about 6.20am..

So we climbed and we climbed, with torches on our heads, we went UPWARDS,

just to catch sunrise

My sis and I before the hike, both only slept bout like 2hours?? and trying to act ENERGETIC..wakakakaka

And so there were 10 of us, having a briefing..

remember, code names and no names allowed in the jungle.

So?? SATU SAMPAI SEPULUH laaaa ..

I was number 6.

Climb halfway upwards, sis felt dizzy, bet we started off too fast and she couldn't catch enough oxygen..

So she rested, and then I broke the 1st rule of the day by calling our leader

"Joshua.. how long more?"

Didn't notice, till number two called up ONE a.k.a Joshie and told him something

Paiseh laaa.. that was in the dark, man!!! I m terrible

Some of us went on, climbing higher and higher just to get a good view of the rising sun.

But but but... it was not long when all of us got frustrated by the 5minutes more kinda motivation.

For me, i woke up 4.30am for the sunrise, DO or DIE also must reach the spot by then, if not might as well i come at 8am right? aih!!!..

So i monkeyed my way up, and the real challenge was the rock climbing and the steepness of it.

There's one friend of ours who wore lots of acessories, rings and all, with her hair LONG and untied, and she could do it, I with my pride, am SURE i can do it too..

Reached the peak at close 7++ I don't quite remember.

aND we spot the ever beautiful and worthwhile scenery

The Kuala Lumpur View. Btw, all pictures are taken using my phone. So the resolution abit the cha.. wait till i get pics from teh ever wonderful NIKON SLR ..
About 45 degrees anti clockwise, you will see mountains and mountains, and the mists.. (picture below) below it is a lake.

Another beautiful view

And i couldn't resist to get myself SNAPPED, with the view, yes the ferns are in the way, but yea.. I couldn't get any much further cause I'll just bungee jump without the rope, screaming to god say here i C.O.M.E


After a while when no one wanted to try Joshua's OVERNIGHT LEFTOVER TARTS..
we moved ahead to cross the hill. Basically it was mainly rock climbing.
Climb up down up down

That is eric, and you can spot spencer (right bottom) and yew hong (behind spencer) climbing down
I was on the other hill, that they are to climb, down and up to my side..
btw, 400metres up and no ropes provided except for real steepy places.


Come on come on, come up to mummy.. climb people C.L.I.M.B

it took us bout 2 hrs plus to complete the remaining course, now we are going DOWN hill which was easy.. cause no more rocks, and just land and sand and pokok and leaves and mosquitos and bites and falls and slides..

Wanna see how high we went?.. (pic below) I was on top of that hill for a moment yeap!.. ON TOP ok.. NOT below or around.. KAT ATAS, ON TOP .. WEEEEEE

Conclusion? Exciting, though my thighs are hurting real badly now. But wouldn't say no to any next trip provided that we have rock climb seessions laaa.. not just hiking

And owh.. the breeze on top was good, and you felt like on top of the world, when you completed the course, just like finishing a marathon.

My sis say if i do this weekly i may loose some weight ot accomodate for CNY..

till then.. meet you next year with my next post :D

Bukit tabur hike

I was 400metres above ground today, to walk pass the klang gate, and to witnesss the ever beautiful sunrise, with the rising mists from the dam, and the entire kl view, with Genting watching my back!

Now focusing on competition! Be right back! With pictures tomorrow!

Muaxie..

Christmas Blast.

Christmas Blast.

Supposed to join in a countdown (at my place) during the eve of Christmas… but somehow I’m too tired, and coincidently, my besties decided to postpone it, since like only got 3 kaki!!!! So Off to bed I went at 9++… woke up at 7 on Christmas morning to find out that my mum wants me to bring her to hot spring. Fuh!!! Bukan main terkejut I.

Took bout an hour to get ready left for hotspring was back about 9.30 bathe and headed straight to my Aunt’s place for lunch. Was super hungry, I was chewing on fries throughout the 30minutes journey, and yet, want to diet by CNY wor!! Hahahhahaha, lets keep goals as goals.

Ate at aunt’s place, immediately went to the guest room and??? SLEEP la of course. Till bout 4, went home, bath and went to PGRM to attend Jan Tan’s church musical! Heavens, fantastic project, and great effort by the organizing committee I met an OLE ex-colleague there, my 1st job in RE, my evil twin, (and I still have her card with me) the ever notorious and decent (omg contradicted myself) MICHELLE PETER LEONG!!! Omg.. pics up soon (as always).. then chatted with Jan Tan and Beatrice and Michelle and Gen Ric and Elvin and Steph and people, left about 8pm,

Went to find my bestie =P, not knowing where to go, I ding donged my way to sg wang, and resolved in eating NANDOs. My bestie =P did not tell me that it wasn’t “the” preferred choice, but somehow obliged cause I’M THE KING, PRINCESS PRIME MINISTER, whoever that has CONTROL and AUTHORITY K?...WHEN I ASK YOU TO STAND, YOU DON’T SIT OK!! Lol..

I got 2 gifts from my bestie =P, both my favourites. Home made Mashed Potato (sorry folks, I just have this crazy love over P.O.T.A.T.O.E.S.) and and


ZHENG ZHENG ZHENG ZHENG…


THE SECRET..
OMG.SOMETHING I WANTED.
I WAS LIKE (MULUT TERBUKA LUBANG BESAR SATU JE ADA)
SUPRISEEEEEEEEEE

Remember in one of the posts I actually written on how I found ze book and realised that it is too expensive for me to buy..
That’s the thing my “its complicated” friend =P got for me

OMG lo… thanks biiii
Greatttttttest gift ever
Though in between we struggled
As I pissed my bestie =P off quite a few times

But nah!!where got overnight grudges one.. (kak yeh sao)lol!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS HAPPY BOXING DAYYYYYYYY
WEEEEEEEE

And I’m having my mashed potato for lunch today…

RESULTS are O.U.T

Although it missed just a bit from my semester goal, but yea.. at least i'm satisfied i guess

still very busy counting my cgpa...

tak cukup "qing" laaaa

but ok..MUCH BETTER THAN LAST SEMMMMMM!!!!!

next year work harder..

and so it was deducted

My skimpy pay.. was enough for me to survive on petrol, as I don't eat out during lunch, i still have EXTRA to shop around =)

So when you know chinese new year is approaching and that there is a need to go back hometown. I thought I could apply leave. Furthermore, Taylor's having BIG BIG OPEN DAY, so have to grab the opportunity to GRAB MEMBERS (recruitment for club) since we are retiring next year. So i thought i could apply 2 days leave

Went Up to boss... and did a humble request.. no rather an application.. lol.. and then the boss say, maybe we is not operating that week (drools..) but i don't know cause it is my first CNY here too :D..

So we wait for the next most experience HR staff, at least a decade in CCCM. So after some discussion, got to know that my leave is APPROVED.... YAY!!!!but but but...

there's no such thing as F.R.E.E. lunch!!!

So, when SARA is enjoying her 1st two weeks pay (that is freaking ALOT, claimed the super vain girl) I got to know that, my RM450 gets deducted due to unpaid leave application

WHOALAAAAA...

450 deduct already don't know left how much??? worst thing is.. i don't know when i'm getting my pay.. WUHUUUUU.. so i'm currently living on CREDIT.. thank god, mum and dad aren't BANKS.. if not, you imagine if there's interest on interest? OMG.. SARAAAA.. exchange job CAN????

UPDATESSSSSSSS

Now i'm more known as "the photographer"..by campbells staff.

I'm still dreaming of getting into the marketing department (dear lord please help me, i want .. i NEED.. for my competition, for my resume.. for the exposure, for the experience, for THE RELEVANCE) (God: my child, you're just a CHEAP labour, they are MNCs, you think they so free to entertain you? Don't expect so much, for you shall be disappointed, rmbr, be contented and grateful, I have plans for you)

SNIFFS.. *CRYS SILENTLY*

Learning more and more each day, slowly responsibilities are given. Rather, new tasks to test my ability to design create things for the people whom i worked with. BUT AGAIN!!I HATE ADMINISTRATIVE WORK. I COULDN'T STAND FACING THE COMPUTER ALL DAY AND NOT TALKING. IT JUST MAKES ME SLEEPY..

You know how terrible things can be when Michelle can't /not allowed/no one to/ talk to.. omg

Even cups and cups of caffeine powered drinks can't keep her eyes from CLOSING.

But things are getting better. Not work, but club wise. Projects pending = proposals = work = busy = fun. Project reports pending = updates = report = busy = fun. Competition pending = brain functioning = work = busy = fun.

Packed.. and gotta reschedule my time. NEED TO MANAGE TIME...

I WANT RYLA. GIMME. APRRC (CAN!!IF I GOT MONEY CAN GO, BUT NEARER LA HOPE) GIMME ROTARACT CONFERENCE, GIMME COMPETITIONS TO PARTICIPATE. I GOT SATU TAHUN TINGGAL, ONE MORE YEAR LEFT , JUI HOU YI NIAN, ZHUI HAO YAT NIN.. NEED IT , FEEL IT , HAVE IT, GET IT says the SECRET

omg.. spotted a small notebook by the secret, it has short notes on daily quotes from the original book "the secret" so tempted to buy.. but so so so expensive.. PEOPLE.. my birthday present? perhaps? new year present? christmas present? getting old present..

I'll get my 21st birthday WISH ready asap so you all can SAVE and buy me stuff that I WANT NEED AND LOVE K???..don't worry, all sharable lol.. and practical.. and will be appreciated A WHOLE LOT..

COMMIT and you shall REAP. Pareto rule of 80-20. May not get all, but effort is always the 1st step right right right *coughs*

FELT LOVE WHEN I WAS GIVEN HOMEMADE BREAKFAST AND LUNCH. YUMMM.. N WARM.. how could i ever ask for more, love being taken care of, time to be dependant for a while.. *grins* thanks dear for the effort, and waking up so early to cook. Sorry for not showing much appreciation. Deep inside, i melted d .. :P.. sweet talk again hor!!but sincere one =P

That's all, now have to WORK for my club stuff. OMG.. I WANNA DIVE.. SO STRESS.. AND I DON'T KNOW IF I HAVE THE MONEY.. cause of the SKINNY SKIMPY LITTLE SMALL, TINY MICRO PAY..

DISASTROUS END

And so I went to the production plant this morning.. and so it was eye opening experience. LOVE THE area where they kept things cool (WHAT HELL, i'm trying to say the chiller and the freezer) they smell good too :D

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You must be wondering why i started laughing all crazy over.

So we have a new information system for HR. So I was incharge of training modules and arrangement of it. Took me a day and a half to complete 400 courses coding and registration of the staff's training modules.

Boss then say, exit the system to do some back up. So michelle went spamming mails

Once its completed, Michelle Logged in again, and realised something is wrong, why can't she rekey-in those she had already done.. Then she went back to the back up and have a look. .. she found only 100 courses inside, and her staff information is EMPTY...

So I ask ms boss, why aren't my files there
she replied, i didn't touch your stuff
then she OWHHHH me..
then I feel like fainting..

There goes, i think my files weren't back up cause I just start using yday evening and today... now that its not there.

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ALL I CAN DO NOW ISSS.....


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300 courses and the data.. OMG.. OMG..

a faint cry is heard lol!!!!

Now my boss called up the IT outsourced to locate my files. LOL!!! I SO WANNA CRY..BUT SHE'LL FEEL GUILTY..

OMGGGGGGGGGGG
GONE
I'D BEEN SITTING HERE
CAN'T GET YOU OF MY MINE
I TRY MY BEST TO BE A FRIEND AND BE STRONG
I DROVE MYSELF INSANE WISHING I COULD TURNAWAY
BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS YOUR gone
baby YOU'RE GONE
YOU'RE GONE..

wakakakakaaka sing song pulak.. obviously stress release la.. *cross fingers* hopes that it can be restored!!hope that it is somewhere around in the system. RECOVERY please. omg

2nd Day At work

Fuh!!After a long talk with some ghost story teller yesterday, batt went off.. so cant continue *sniffs*
Hmmm, took me quite some effort to GET UP TODAY.. cause really tired and hate waking up early...

Anyway, came to work expecting nothing (continued my unfinished work yesterday) and my 1st gift of the day, plenty of products and company shirt



Now that's the advantage working in an FMCG plant. Fuh!!!!! i shall take back my words said yesterday.
The advantage is, you get free stuff.. lol!!!



Then i was introduced to the finance director of the company.. SHAKES.. ahaahahahaha.. he's a nice man, and he promised to get me into his department. WOW!!!dream coming true (pray hard for me yea)

I shall take back my words said yesterday again.

Then, as I was bout to have my lunch, I was told I'll be brought to the manufacturing plant for a visit tomorrow. DOUBLE YAY!! Cause I requested and I got it. And its a once in a lifetime chance (due to strict cleanliness, not many can enter) (get ready with camera lol)

I shall take back my words said yesterday AGAIN AGAIN

ok.. and then EVERYTHING seems to go my way today. I shall not complain anymore. Nana... you were right. You were so not left dear.. hugs tightly. I LOVEEEEEE YOU PLENTY, LOADS, MUCH, MANY LOTS , HUGE , BIG.. LOL..

We will not know, till the very last minute

As the clock strucks near 5pm, I see colleagues getting down with their wallets, all talking bout buying stuff, as if there's some market in the middle of the INDUSTRIAL AREA..

And there's one benefit I can't tell you yet.. lol!!later you'll bug me for it. NOPE NOT TELLING. THough its really good bargain

Now lets just keep our fingers crossed. And i already have plans for coming weekend.

Oh..haven I told you which company I'm working in? (for those who know.. shhhh) anyway.. you may have guessed, with this picture .labelling

Btw, the market contains all of the above company products.. and only staff can buy lol.. SO YOU MAY GUESS what benefit I get here .. :P

Tmr would be a fun day, cause monday is a holiday.. thursday too. WOOW.. who says working in PJ is bad (despite the terrible jam on the way back - that's like wait till school reopens)

FUHHHH!!!!! That's why, my darling J says, don't jump into conclusions too fast. LOL!!! You'll need to take back plenty of words LOL!!!

Hugs CAMPBELL, falling deeper everyday ...

OWH.. Bout something I'd learned. managed to view most of the training modules (cause I'M in HR) and I gained alot from there, motivational, to marketing to sales, to production.. wow.. and OHHHH... tomorrow gotta bring book and COPY. lol!!!! fun fun fun (I know i'm over-acting, but hey, its great to know that , nothing is bad enough, and there's really something to be gained, no matter what job where, and when) RMBR THAT..

HUGS

First day at work

Monday to Friday 8am-5.45pm

Salary RM450 a month

Public Holidays: 7 days

Working period Dec 3 to February 5



Comment : Well, today was my first day, expecting something from them but I guessed, its bad to have expectations. John Gray is trying to teach me to get what I want and to want what I have. Currrently, the former is not fulfilled, so i'm contented with the latter.



Sleepy day, 1st time in FM industry. Alot of safety precautions as it is a production plant itself.

Didn't manage to get into the department I wanted. So, when they got no where to allocate me to, they chuck me into HR department...



Now helping out to set up their ever new HRIS. (HR Information System)

Used to be in manual form. Pretty conventional I would say their management style. I'd been to many companies, and currently, this is one of the laid back ones. Perhaps, FMCG is not as generous as the Financial Institutions outside...



Well, an intern's range is around500-800. I'm given just 50 below average, nothing much to complain about, it is compulsory anyway. Shouldn't make myself feel any much worst. Now i need to skip lunch to learn more about other departments (That i'm interested in) as most of my working hrs are filled for HR stuff.



Hmmm... what would I say.. I would go back to college and tell the management that they should find principals whom have acquired interns before. At least they know what to do, expect. Like for me, I'm the 1st = guinea pig. Wait.. its a good thing as well, cause I might get exposed more.



Spent 4hours typing up over 400 training courses backdated to year 2001. I'm suppose to help do some coding. Hmmm, i sounded as if I'm IT based. LOL.. you know i'm not. Anyway.. there's always room to learn, anything anywhere (from sleeping, cooking ,movies, picking your nose) you can always make use of what is given, and maximise experience and exposure.



Tired now... 1st day at work, and re-arranging my biological time = drop dead tired.



Nights people. Btw. .for photos of malacca trip

When its Not your fault

So parents, driving instructor teach you.. be careful when you drive, always ahead of time, if not kiss people's BACKSIDE have to BAYAR tao... but what if you have done so and you still kiss peoples ass as if they're the most beautiful ones on earth...

So i had my exam, the paper wasn't hard, might lose some points on round up errors, did my best, now hope for the best lo.. HD HD HD HD.. laws of attraction lol!!!

So after the paper, decided to go home straight. Federal Highway from Subang to Midvalley is approximately 15kms.. straight roads = accident prone places.

People tend to speed... and due to bottlenecks in certain areas namely Jalan 222 exit, Mid Valley to selangor arch, ldp exit etc... intimacy happens.. people kiss my backside, I kiss your backside, you kiss peoples backside, how many some are there here? FOURSOME???

So the long drive at 3pm is crazy, hot sun, terrible songs on radio, sleepy sleepy.. and my little frog prince now full tank and with tyres in full air.. very nice to drive.

At the Jalan 222 exit, the bottleneck was terrible, within 20seconds i got myself from the emergency lane to the fast lane, the car in front of me took off, so i accelerated abit, suddenly he emergency brake, i look at the PEST control van behind me.. FUH.. LIKE F1 CAR coming can, so i steer towards the right to minimize bang if he bangs me, and so that i bang divider not car (why? so i no need pay the guy infront) but of course, everyone brake in time, and before someone couldnt, the lane started moving again..

So i just past the arch on the middle lane,

Driving at constant speed 80km, ahead of me (approximately 200metres) an old nissan on the slow lane signalled LEFT and it took him forever to come to my lane, I look further ahead and saw cars slowing down. Still at 80km, i slowly brake towards the white nissan, and realise he's TOO SLOWWWWWW.. thinking to overtake him, I "thought" of getting to the fast lane on my right... ( i know its obviously my right) so i took a gentle steer looking at my right side mirror,
the fast lane slowed down, and all I could hear is

SCREEEEECCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! THUD THUD THUD THUD THUD ...

Suddenly i couldn't breath, Shook my head a little, thinking that omg, I got hit and I'm dying, omg.. *suffocates*

I still see the white nissan in front of me, my car is still crawling behind the turtle, but on my right, approximately 4-5cars are smashed nicely in a row, sandwiched.

I passed by these cars, and looked at the rear mirror, my brother in blue swirled out, but i guess he hit his right front lights. anyway...

I'M OKAY IT WASN'T ME, IT WAS JUST RIGHT NEXT TO ME WHEN IT HAPPENED.

as i recall,
when the right lane slowed down, i decided not to take the fast lane, however, there's this modified black car ( model unknown cause didn't manage to see) emergency brake (guess he must be dreaming) and bang a vios in front and the vios bang some car in front and some car in front bang another car in front.. so bim bom bom bom bom bom bom... like fireworks you know...cause can see the glass shattered out...

Then i started praying... Thank goodness I didn't manage to get into the fast lane, thank goodness I was next door rather than same lane, thank goodness i still manage to drive when i saw the accident right next to me, thank goodness i didn't accelerate to bang the turtle in front of me and thank goodness i did not brake and let the car behind me bang me...

Fuh, all to blame is the modified car, but he dragged about 4cars ahead to suffer with him, i looked at the rear mirror, the one badly hit was the vios. Fuh!!! so who say if you brake ahead of time you will not bang people.

Listen to mummy, look ahead always, before braking, look how fast the car is coming from behind, brake further apart, and allow space to steer just incase you know they can't stop in time.
But what if you already brake long long time ago...??

FATE looo.. NASIB tao??.. hmmm, claim insurance only la. kesian those cars in front so "no mushroom" you know? Innocent I mean..

aih, so long i'm safe.. now take a nap, tonight war with FP, the grandmother of all horror story paper for the semester...

I.M.P.R.E.S.S.E.D

Perhaps I set my expectations to a certain level, it becomes very difficult to impress me, surprise me.

Perhaps I had adopt to the expression-less attitude, I don't know how to sincerely show happiness or delightful-ness (is there such a word?)

However, today I got myself impressed with a work of my senior. Ended up grouping with her in one of the assignments for this semester was indeed pressurizing :P

She was in the same batch of scholars with me. I have always looked up to her and this was my chance to see her work.

Without doubt, she's amazing. Just by the look of her work, and her leadership throughout the assessment was fantastic. Words couldn't describe how I felt about her.

Suddenly I felt so small. Recently I'd also met up with the younger batch of scholars. Got close up with them and manage to observe their work and attitude. Again, i'm impressed. Young kids at age 17-19 can produce such excellent quality work, perhaps the DHA MILK that I use to think it was meant for marketing purposes really works.

Maybe I should start consuming? Hope its not too late.

Wow.. its difficult to get to find someone who's smart (mind you, not hardworking but intelligent). What more an all-rounder, balanced lifestyle, studies and eca wise in perfection.

*shrinks by a bit again* ... Thinking of this makes me feel that i'm far below average. LOL (unnecessary stress) anyway.. 3hours time would be my 2nd paper for the day, omg.. she'll be there too. Felt like idolising her tim

Kla.. gotta go study.. (this is a bad example of a scholar) ... :P

EXAM

My heavens.. EXAM and still wanna blog..

Well some people do read my blog consistently right *points at you* don't look behind, YES I MEAN YOU LAAAA...

alright.. updates updates.. life has been tough. A lot of things cramped in during my exam period. Alot of decision making situations..

Hmmm, say

Baby A is 1 year plus of age.. baby A was trained, by morality not to SHIT in the pants, but rather ASK if need to go poopoo. But what if baby A suddenly felt WANTING to poo poo, but don't know how to tell mummy or daddy that it wants to poo poo (what it should be doing). So of course, baby A poo poo-ed in the pants.. and got itself into trouble.. lol

Baby A is who? up to your discretion :P

Hahahahaha... as time passes, some gets more confused, some remained uncertain and stagnant, some just get clearer.

Eventually, we'll be awaken as we get pulled down back to earth.

Would you love if you had to lie?
Would you love if you have to hide?

Love is UNCONDITIONAL,
But does love include morale?
But does love include ethics?

Many get encouraged by Love,
LOve strengthens
but love hurts too

...RANDOMNESSS
Looking at the current economic situation, probably year 2010 is employer's world. Have to work double times harder to score better, just to earn a chance into the room where hell, a chance to get employed.

Push ECA, push ECA, push ACADEMICS, PUSH push push self development.. PUSH activities, PUSH to polish resume..

Friends family, studies, work, club stuff, hobbies, time time time... when will i get enough. SPACE SPACE SPACE, how do i manage..

Priorities are listed according to wants, rather than responsibilities. But for me, the latter works.

Gosh, gotta work on my revision already.. aiming high this semester.. wanna push GPA up up up and HIGHERRRRRRRRRRRR... please let me maintain my previous year's achievement. *starts praying excessively* lol

KLa.. i know.. pictures? on white water rafting? Check my fb lo.. busy busy busy.. exam ends 28, dinner on 28, holiday 29-30nov.. and 1dec KERJA bermula.. fuyo!! mesti kong battery I

The Past, The unforgiven

Today, I was checking through my mails and I figured, hey.. there's this one mail that I'd created, but have not been checking it for close to a year.

So i got myself logged in, looking into the sent mails and the inbox, I realise its empty. I thought again, and I recalled, I was the one who deleted it.. fuh!!!

I claim people not being truthful to me, I blamed I pointed fingers at those whom cared bout me most and whom I cared most. I clicked onto the draft and saw a few messages that was left unsent. I read about it, and it tickled me.. Now.. i felt like crying. How could I ever do this to her (Not having thoughts about the other angle for a moment) I felt so terrible, each time she explains what's happening, each time she updates me. But never had I appreciated it.. Due to what I had perceived her from the start...

Perception,something that could affect almost all your decisions in life. With this perception, I lived my life the past 3 years, dwelling and falling in to deep holes, I myself dug.
There's no one to blame.. and I felt so bad ... maybe certain hurtful things were said and I had it engraved in my heart.. and I did the same too, so who am I to comment others when I'm committing the same act..

Wow... looking at the calendar got me startled I'm pretty amazed on how this has prolonged. Not bad at all. I'd been apologising to you so many times, without even think whether I meant it or not. Because of me, the gap between our friendship widens. And I guess I was the one who'd changed.. but i pointed my finger at you. Its really a joke. A joke where the reason cannot at all be accepted.

Marty, I'm sorry yea.. sorry for putting our friendship into a bet. I'm sorry for losing all the chips we had collected over the years by gambling them. I sincerely seek for your forgiveness. I would do my best to make it up to you! Hugssssss

tHE F.I.F.T.Y cents

Last day at coll before the final study break then T.H.E GRANDMOTHER OF ALL HORROR STORY... THE FINALS..

Woke up in a good mood, slept for more than 10 hours :D.. get dressed, drove to college.. normal daily routine thinge that.. i wouldn't want to bore you..Reached college, parked the car, walked to college, bump into mates, had lunch while discussing for a team name for the next competition coming...

Went to photocopy the entire semester's notes for Financial Planning, including tutorials, yea.. you may ask how i SURVIVED the whole 3months lecture without materials with me. Well, I'M BREATHING here.. HOW? one word.. SLACKED!!!

Went to lecture theater, got to know that the Islamic Banking talk is scheduled during the 1st hour of lecture rather than the last one hour of lecture.. D.R.E.A.D.S.. and ended up staying awake for 90minutes (Best personal time: Record for not sleeping at all) and to find out, that OUR SO CALLED LECTURE DIDN'T EVEN LAST FOR 15MINUTES..

GG.. Drove like 30minutes to reach college, lepaked like 2hrs to wait for lecture, USED my energy to stay awake for the talk.. and WHAT? lecture's 15minutes? Worst.. NO TIPS FOR FINALS? *faints*

as the clock ticks to 3pm... I checked my parking ticket, the time printed on the card was 11:11am. Each hour costs 50cents (RM)..

So i took my time, looking at my watch which is just 3, thinking that, i don't need 10minutes to walk to the car park. But i forgot the unavoidable. Bumping into mates and CHATTING NON STOP. Reached the lift at 3.05pm (and it is taking forever to come)

Now you must be thinking what am I all worried about. You see, i didn't want to waste 50cents for passing the time only by MINUTES.

Down the lift to G floor, looks at the time 3.08pm. 3minutes.. I breeze walked my way to the car park (taking into account, not trying to look as if i'm running like a mad cow) *Coughs* get into my car, speed to the counter (speeding in car park is about 40km) the driver in front of me took forever to retrieve his cash out for the ticket, and it seems that he's searching for coins.. (i pay for you la uncle, i'm late)

Then my turn, i took out RM3 handed over the ticket, asking the lady, have i passed the time. she said yea.. by 2MINUTES..

(&^(*&%)&)*(^)(}+_*+&*%&$(*&^)(&_*+^

so I gotta pay RM3?
she said "you look so worried"
I looked back and said 50cents is alot you know ..
She then say, oh its only RM2.50.

All happy, michelle thought she saved the 50 cents at the courtesy of the lady (thinking that she gave discount) she exited the car park, smiling brightly as ever.

Suddenly it struck her.. 2.50? is 5 hours? Now it's 3.. got 5 hours meh? She held up her left hand, counting, 11-12, 12-1, 1-2 2-3.. 4hrs only maaaa.. then meaning?

*&^%^&$&)*%*&$(*^&(*%(&^%)^*&)*%(&^(&^%*)%*)&%*&^$(&^%)&^)*%(%*%(

she paid that 50cents for that extra two minutes. After all the breeze walking (not fast,but hey?there's effort) and speeding and talking the lady to give discount. She happily PAID.. 2.50 thinking that she did get a discount when in the first place she paid for the unused 58minutes of parking time..

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conclusion?
Calculators make my brain STUPID...

DOUBTS

The one thing that men ( human beings) fear most, something that would disturb their concentration, and their ability to think rationally, DOUBTS

No, its not the worries (what happens if) type of issue here. Its just doubts... let me put this in an example...

A friend of yours had told you that he has not been dealing with drugs anymore. Well, he had been saying no, but what you see is that, he's mixing the same type of people, going out with them. You DON'T see him taking/consuming drugs.. but his actions made you doubt.. so is he or is he not taking drugs?

Then you started to think. Did he tell you the right thing? Or was he just hiding from you?

Many had encountered this situations before. Especially in a relationship. Well, you are very close to each other, you're doing things like what couples are doing, you cared bout each other alot, but you never announce that you are officially together. So are you both couples? or not?

It does not just confuse the 3rd parties. But it confuses those who are involved as well... You would think and think again, about the excuses given and you try your best to relate it logically, with sense...

So is this what causes the doubt in you? Iis it because what you heard and what you see is different? is it cause what A told you and what B told you about the same thing is different?

So you confront, you asked, if you're not _______ why are you doing ______... and arguments happen, you say, I know what i'm saying, when its no means its a no. The party countered saying that but you're not walking the talk...

So who's right and who's wrong. Who's being pretentious and manipulative? Who's being over sensitive and over-reacting on these issues? In fact.. it all comes to just a word..

TRUST

• I doubt when you say you had no feelings for me
• I doubt when you say you're not consuming drugs
• I doubt when you say you love me
• I doubt when you said you went for work yesterday
• I doubt when you told me, there's nothing between you and her

So doubts kill, it destroys relationship.. it hurts the other party. But this also means that you are lacking of trust. You don't trust your partner, or your friend, or the other party concerned anymore.

What is deceiving you. What you see? Or what was told? Is it what you're seeing? Or is it the person who had said the different thing? Then your brain starts to analyse,

but this happen, and it contradicts... So what should you do?

Many say, we can't learn to trust, cause we get disappointed most of the time.. Some say, well if you can't believe and trust one person, there is no point of putting yourself in DOUBTS everytime.

One thing for sure, something in the past has caused these doubts appearing in your mind.. or someone's experience has influenced the way you perceive someone.

Only a few things could be done to eliminate the doubts, and its up to the person to decide to trust or not to trust.

1. Has the other person know about this and tried to change to be better?
2. Has these been repeating again and again? Even times you confronted?
3. Is it the other party. Or it has always been you that has been too sensitive?

It is important that before you make any decisions based on the doubts you have, you need to be calm and rational.

Confront in a better manner, best on the spot when you see and sense something is wrong. This would avoid the counter party to have excuses to push the blame back to you. However, watch your words, and by confronting may make the other person lose face. So one way or another.. one party loses. Decide what's best for you. And do it personally one to one without interference from other people

Learn how to trust. The art of letting go is toughest yet most relieved for the victim. Take a deep breath. Calm down.. and ask if you are thinking too much and whether you should trust the other person or not.

Communicate. The only way to gain trust is to communicate and to go through things together. Let the past be the past. Disappointments are unpredictable, but if you live expecting it, most likely, you'll get it...

Each time when you're feeling uncomfortable about the situation/doubts.. pull yourself out of it. People acts irrationally when they are emotionally involved. Detach yourself from the situation. Read a book, focus on other things, distract yourself for a moment. Come back and deal with it in a calm manner. Contact your friends to talk to if necessary.

Unless you're dead, you can't stop yourself from thinking. Unless you get real busy with your work, or unless you're a real carefree type. Let go the feelings, and attack the matter rather than the person.

Lastly..have Trust yourself. Have confidence. be truthful, attract trust, and you'll be trusted. Gain trust and give trust..

Perhentian Island Challenge

Michelle the mighty had decided to test her ultimate muscles that has been built for 9 years.. this challenge is a test to her limits..

IS SHE ABLE TO DO IT??

Crap!! would i hike 4 trails= bukits around perhentian besar and kecil? would i KAYAK.. APPROX 3 kms.. from besar to kecil then back to besar? omg..
WOuld i not take time to enjoy the sceneries but to torture myself with sweat and tears?

Well.. Michelle Says.. this year? not to say she won't .. but more to "can't" do it..lol!!!

So she took part as a volunteer instead = we have a free holiday, meet plenty of people, enjoyed my 1st ever semi-camping trip and fuuuuu.... al the tall dark hansome n pretty girls.. for me to kap ..yay!!!!!.. ok.. where were we?..hahahahaha..

photos time

Left Malaysian Tourism Centre (MaTiC) on the night of 16 Oct, leaving with 10 buses of convoy total of close to 390 people, 300 of them, participants.. some took the bus, some took the flight.. we will meet.. at kuala besut jetty.. alright
Pic time..

At 8am, we reached Kuala Terengganu.. for our official launch and breakfast..seee.. so many..
without me..cause me suppoe take picture.. n darn..some volunteers are inside.. n m not :(

The canopies for the catering held.. yumm.. food .. and grand!!!

We had a tour in tamadun islam.. newly built for the purpose of attracting tourist..5 of the ten buses taken.. everyone is hyped up for the tour


ops..not in order..but you noticed how the oncoming cars are driving on the emergency lane?They were instructed to do so by the police...
That's the glamour of traveling under the state of terengganu with police escorts..
haahahaha.. pa pei leh.!!!



At the crystal mosque that costs 26million, less than 2years old.. and its group pic time again.. weeeee.. oh.. my camera is to small, to capture all :D

You don't believe we travelled in 10 buses? count it for yourself.. maybe you realse there's nine. the media bus (bus 2) left straight to kuala besut for registration.. so..only participants lo!!!

When we took the bus to the jetty for lunch and racer's registration, we had a meal, waited for approx 3hours (m the last boat to leave the mainland) ahead to PERHENTIAN TELUK KEKE :d

this is where we stayed.. all tents .. (you can opt for resort stay too) but that's TOO snobbish.. we should join in the big group and enjoy the fun of sleeping OUT together (mainly coz the tents were to hot, so ended up, bags are sleeping in the tents, humans outside

packing before leaving..

everyone is happy that they completed the race.. jump ever high love the sea.. its so clear.. so beautiful, but mostly sandy bottom without corals and with plenty of jellyfishes (that got one of the short 200m swim event cancelled)

ops..wrong order again.. weeeeee... we went to the largest muzium in Malaysia.. this tank was placed right after the entrance. Wouldn't miss chance .. wanted to climb in.but the size of the entrance.. is too.. dirty/small for me to fit :P so i climb on it lo!!!

Don't beleive we have escorts? traffic lights wont work if we are around!!!.. look.. its a superbike man (and i took a pic.. with me on it )yay!!!

at the muzium entrance with half volunteers and half participants.. no camera inside so.. that's the most i can do..

it reminds me of sejarah pretty much. Seen the batu bersurat terengganu.. which, claims the curator, its ORI tao...

saw keris as usual, the currencies used back then.. owh!!! i forgot what's the name but its a tree like joint together.. and mostly pictures. Our Agong, which is from terengganu .. is A SCUBA DIVER too (applauses)

enough of people and time for scenery.. wee..this is the best spot best pic eva taken.. every evening, i'll take my mp3 my sudoku book, lay on the lower rocks and enjoy the waves and the beauty of the ocean.. nature is gorgeous in its own way..so people?do appreciate it and stop polluting..

back to the challenge, where we had briefing for the participants

oh.. and i got the 1st prize.. weeee. obviously, took the chance to have a pic with the trophy.. telling my friends, hey, i don't need to particiapte to win

i was on duty for the first and third checkpoint for the novice category, and 6th and last checkpoint for the elite category. Waited for 6hours where the sweeper arrives with the last team and went back with them following the routes.. hell it was tough.. ONly 10% of the route and i pancited.. so what you do when you're all exhausted?

CAMWHORE laaaaaa....

a scene we found on our way back to the finishing line

So the last team completed within 7hrs and 36minutes.. yes..long, but i salute them for their perserverance. Its not easy to hold yourself up, and complete it..some even get disqualified..

the night of prize presentation, where all participants gather for the closing ceremony

the participants, with the villagers

participants while waiting for the VIPs to come.. owh..we had barbeque btw

After that we had fireworks, i captured it in video and find it hard to upload at home due to SLOW slow.. transmission of data.. and it hangs my com.. so we'll see when we could get it done

That night, i went back to teluk keke early, cause i am all worn out.. and needed rest. So i bumped into one of the participants who told me to sit .. she apologised for being harsh at me during the checkpoint . I remembered her scolding me "what kind of marshall are you" and why we are not standing in places to direct them back to the checkpoint. causing them to take a bigger turn and getting lost in the jungle. Well.. it happens as always and there's no one to blame. I did what i was told to, and as a small volunteer, i knew what i should, and knew nuts bout what i shouldn't know. ha hahaha..crap!!! but its alright. she's an athlete of course.. and she's done a great job.. we went further talking bout the race previous week, and she commented on my race time ..

girl?how could you do 12km in 2hrs.. thats SO LOONGGG..lol

i'm like pai seh.. obviously i didn't run.

she did it in 1hour and 6seconds.. see.. and not even 1st placing lol!!! so geng hor?

back to PIC

everyone went back to teluk keke.. and its time for community service clean up at the camping site on the next day before leaving for kl..

The guys are incharged of pulling in the robes for swimming (though it wasn't conducted)

the guy on the left? he's the winner for novice category. He's very good.

I did try helping also (the guys were like asking you sure?) then i help carry the crazy heavy long rope back to the house. I make sure i complete what i offer. lol.. and NO more. (darn heavy)

Listening to the YB''s speech during the comm service..

Everyone waited to head home.. waiting for the boat transfer then the buses.

I left for bus 3 (knowing that any later than that would reach kl by morning)

Bus 3 is the 1st bus btw. Since i'm scheduled to be their bus leader so i cabut lo!!!

The last boat to leave the island was at 3pm. That time, we left Kuala Besut to Kuala Terrenganu already .. 10hours of bus ride.

We stopped at Dungun for dinner (where all buses stop there) bet the bus drivers get plenty of commission. I had tomyam. and its not bad..

We left dungun at 6.40pm.. and the last bus is only at kuala terengganu .. lol!!!

We reached home at 12am

There was a conflict in between, the last few buses were required to wait for each otehr to travel in a convoy, our bus were told the same too.

But if we were to wait, it'll be a 3hours wait for the remaning buses cause we left 1st. We decided that it's not worth it. So we cabuted..lol!!! managed to reach MTC by 12am sharp. got my parents to fetch me.. bus 5 reached 15minutes later.

I don't know bout the last bus to reach KL.but one of the buses where my friend is in, reached at 3am.

That time, i am already ZZ at home..

Great adventure, next year.. i'll be joining..time for training..weeeee..

you wouldn't want to miss it..

www.perhentianislandchallenge.com

Proof of me FINISHING THE RACE.. :p

MY 1ST 12KM

Michelle Yong after 20 years of life, have come to a decision where she needs to walk the talk

Basically, I heard the Klang Race is fun because usually marathon races ( 5,7,10 12km)

requires you to complete within a period of time in order to get a medal

bUT for Klang? Finishers will get a medal

So i was thinking, even if i Crawl back also GOT MEDAL wor.. so why not..

Woke up at 5am. Merely slept for 3hrs ... changed and went to Klang

Owh, by the way, i did not register myself. So we decided to cheat back a bip

The rules is, without a bip and the two ribbons, you won't get a medal

So Michelle is desperate and had to take action

When we were flagged off at 7.10am after the guys,

I was just struggling to put on my bip i stolen

I RAN (did not) I slow jogged my way for 12km..

nO.. i actually jogged bout 4km and CRAWL for the remaining 8

OKOK.. I don't think I did jog for 4km

So basically I walked, crawl.. and kap lui for entire 2hrs before reaching the finishing line

Found a few new friends, pretty young girls.. (you must be asking why no guys, 1st i'm not interested in guys, 2nd, hello.. they were way ahead of us?)

Whoallaaaa my 1st 12km completed and yay~~~ medal for me

camwhoring with the medal


mum so proud of her daughter, teared while saying.. i don't think she had ever even run 12km in her entire 20years of life

mummy?not true, each year i run 1.4km for Physical Classes and 3km for cross country

multiply 5 (5years of high school)

so... got 20 km lebih leh..

mum: yea right.. you have not been exercising for the past one year..

mummy: but i still ran faster then JIE.. :P

My dear sis has inspired me to do plenty of sports

From scuba diving, to hiking, to waterfall to even Running.. weeeee

i guess she could have done better if her bf didn't nag her all the way from 0km to 12km

why? cause he complains that my sis is too slow. He was like telling me, i run 42km also not as tired as pacing your sis to run for 10km

He is a triathlete, ironman, scuba diving instructor, rock climbing instructor

badminton instructor .. n my sister's life instructor. :P

Jie u'r fated to do something you never like for life (EXERCISE)

Finisher got Medal wo.. so?I GO LOR!!!!...the stolen BIP :p

*paragraph deleted to avoid controversy* lol.. i sure will die one lor!!!

.

Actually paiseh.. I guess I was about 1 hour behind ms TAN..omg.. SATU JAM

I damn slow.. must train.. lol!!! and she tot i was infront.. lol!!!

MALU SEI LA..

The feeling felt weird today.. it is as though someone saw what I felt...

Amazingly, I must have created confusion among them. How could one act a way, but say another..

Manipulative? Pretentious? maybe...

I was telling my friends, how forgetful I am,rather than forgiving. I thought of it a while, I guess I forgave, but i actually can't forget. After busying around for a few days or two, something will remind me of the past, and fuuuu.. the ache is as if it just happened.

Maybe i'm too complicated... alot of my closest friends had been very patient with me.. forgiving me again and again.

But wait a sec, lets take a deep breath.. and exhaleeeeee

I dont' think i'm pursuing anything anymore. Close to pointless.. I guess, since I can't be what I want to be, and I don't think that I should oblige into being someone I should.. I'll just leave it... I'll do what I want to do, without the intention of wanting it. At least it satisfies my inner self.

Busy busy busy... trying to manage my schedule properly.. enriching my resume, sustaining my studies.. cultivating self control and improvising damage control...

So lisan won herself a 2nd place in Finance debate today. Applause.. although she's so close to winning, but she's already a winner in our hearts.. hugs and kisses.. good job babe.. we all love you .. ganbate on business plan oh :D

Pics time

us after the ceremony.. congrats San.. :D

me and my dear new wife (ops..wonder if she gets mad reading this) but hey.. she insists I call her wife :P

we are so matching hor!!!! weeeeeee

Happily married ever after

SUCKERS SUCK BEST

This post has been deleted to avoid uprising controversial issues

Today, i was flipping through archives of blogs.. my own and others... that moment in time i felt the same feeling i did when i first read the posts.. I realise, I am most of the time forgetful, rather than forgiving.

As memories recalled, things flashed back.. and wow.. I can still remember how the cut was engraved deeply.. amazing... I can still remember how i response to it. And the moment i wipe that off my mind, One word..

Stupidity. And I'm still doing what I am told not to. Wakakakakakaa.. In fact, I had fulfilled my promise I made 10months ago just few days back.

How i wish I could make a decision and stay put with it, without allowing any emotional disturbance.

And I think i'd decided.. Hours ago, I was staring at the mirror, looking at someone whom I knew years ago. And she has never changed a single bit. falling back by pieces...

But after a review of blogs, posts and memories.. yea.. I guess I should be doing what I had decided years months weeks days ago.. just that i'd never persevered..

WHY I CAN'T BE A PILOT

I had not been able to decide what I want to be in the future... Maybe cause my curiosity level is to that extreme, that I want to try out everything. It seems that every little thing interests me. For the past 6months, I had been aiming for air stewardess as my 1st permanent job after graduation. ( Now..thank you for laughing, and no..I'm not joking)

Thought of giving myself a few years before establishing my career. Fly around, get trained with PR skills and of course, meeting people. Then I have this idea of becoming a pilot. I told my mum about it.. .

She said that those pilots are born to be, they usually have interest in planes.. you don't even know what type of planes are they in the market. ( I WAS LIKE... AIRBUS AIRBUS) lol... she don't really agree with my sudden interest in going for piloting. ( But she wanted me to be a stewardess, guess she must be wanting the airlines to train me to be MORE feminine.. and of course, cheaper airfares for her :P)

I told her i would give it a try for both.. so mum has been a critic recently.. bombarding me on WHY I CAN'T BE A PILOT..

for instance...

I was driving my mum to her colleagues Raya Open house, I was at a T-junction when I almost bump into an oncoming car from my right. (As a left-hander, there's a tendency where I would look left then right before making a turn)

MUM: WHOAAAAAAAA... YOU LIKE THAT ALSO WANNA BANG.. HOW TO BECOME PILOT.. BANG BIRDS BANG AEROPLANES BANG SUPERMAN HOW??

I was driving Waja the other day than my usual Kancil, I wanted to signal before turning, so automatically i lift the hand on the right side. Obviously for a Waja, that would make the wiper function.

MUM: WHOAAAAAA.. YOU LIKE THAT ALSO SO ABSENT MINDED, HOW TO BECOME PILOT? LATER YOU ACCIDENTALLY OPEN THE EXIT DOOR INSTEAD OF PRESSING THE AUTO PILOT SWITCH HOW???... ALL YOUR PASSENGERS GO TERBANGING OUT IN THE AIR ..

I was boiling water the other day, then i went up for a short movie.. and of course I forgot about the water.. and of course, it dried up.. and there goes my mum again

MUM: WHOAAAAAAA... YOU SO FORGETFUL, LATER YOU FORGOT TO REFUEL YOUR PLANE THEN TAKE OFF HOW?.. USE WATER AS FUEL AR.. (i was like, hey .. its the engineers that are suppose to make sure its FULL TANK.. not the pilot ) she continue saying, yea, as if you are not responsible to check your metres if they have finished or not ..


So I have to be really cautious lately.. before she starts hammering me on another pilot MISERY again..

I'm suppose to blog boout IPOH trip obviously..

and i couldn't find the camera..in which all the photos are inside.. and yes it was a great trip up.. as we had fun and most of us are deprived of zz due to mafia crazy game and also the early dim sum if don't go by 7 no need to think of eating place...

So hang on while i turn my house upside down in search for the cam..

Weeeeee.. today is the last day of holiday and i realise.. i am unable to achieve what i want myself to ..in this 1week.. nooberrr..

OK...hang on readers :P..

VENUE HAS BEEN CHANGED TO ASIA CAFE SUBANG SS 15.. COME IN AND JOIN THE FUN... WHO SAYS CHARITY IS NOT FUN..

GOSSIP

Go safe : promoting safe sex through proper use of condom avoiding sexual transmitted diseases, knowing how to protect yourself from this unwanted stuffs..

Go away : be more aware of the society. Going strong against violence towards women. Know what you're bout to face, before thinking of prevention

Go celebrate : Women have long played important roles in our society, nourishing the new generation through motherhood, pushing gender equality between man and woman, supporting man in their successes, the pillar of the family, multi-task-er..one gender that we should all celebrate for its existence and appreciate..

This 3 days event has been a great exposure to me. I always thought I knew enough. I always thought I knew alot...but no, what I'd already known already happened.. i'm still clueless about what that's happening, something gruesome in our society... something that woke me up from being ignorant...

There's so much that's happening in the society, when all I did was to pamper myself, and be selfish, talking about wanting peace, being happy.. but not contributing to the society.

Today, through Gossip, I opened my door, to the world outside. And i hope this vow i made would be a reality, and i want to make it happen this time.

OMG.. I GOT CAUGHT VANDALISING.. HAHAHA.. I WROTE THAT WITH MY FINGERS YEA..

AND GOSSIP IS FUN, INSPIRING MOST IMPORTANTLY..

More pictures up tomorrow.. got my whole phone charged for that..

sorry for the grammatical error.. i know it should not be on..but i can't write that long (people waiting)

lol... so long the message is through right.. weeeeee

Rotaract has give me more than things i wanted. I learn.. i explore..i experience..

This is what i'd been dreaming of, reaching out.. and inspire..

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for more information and enquiries..

we're having street party at asia cafe subang square tomorrow.

come and join the fun while doing charity

RM 5 ticket for sale

and RM5 would be all for charity..

Basically i'm waiting for my chaffeur *coughs* DEAREST sister to come and pick me from college (hmmmm bout 40minutes of waiting and there's another 40minutes to go..

Realising that my blog is VERY WORDY...so i'll post up pictures (since college's mbps is MUCH faster than the one AT HOMEEEEEEE...)

And these are a few pictures that can be found in my pendrives.. two of em..

Was suppose to go for a LOB trip this coming weekend on KALEEBSO, the best creation, where food is served fresh from SEA. sashimi, sotong and prawns.. sigh..

Sis la, going tioman on friday, i had MKA test and a Self defense workshop to monitor. seee what i'm sacrificing for you miss oh (mka lecturer) see what i'm sacrificing for you bosss (rotaract president) .. better gimme good marks and good appraisal k.. I'M GIVING UP DIVING CAUSE OF YOU PEOPLE.. but die also going sipadan next year.. weeeeee

Owh owh..and Rotaract Conference too, and Interact Conference too and RYLA(MUST MUST) but all would be commencing next year..next year faster come come come..

OK... before it becomes another long windy post again.. let me entertain you with BEAUTIFUL PICTURES UNDERWATER..

diving is my favourite sport..wow.. miss seeing this creatures.. (taken from sipadan)

clown fishes (There's fake and real ones).. i like calling em NEMO..

Nudi branches (siput laut)lol..they are real small bout few cms only..

this is a common one

yellow box fish is about a size of a 2cm by 2cm cube.. awww..kissing the corals??
diver's number 1 enemy.. crown of thorns (they feed on corals.. and we?KILL EM )this is one of the batfishes.. (batman's family)lol..

looks like bawal putih hor?..

Durian for all.. weeeeeee.. i love my family.. they are the craziest evaaaaaa...

below: listening to the elder's stories (wise words)

although seen as if i'm the one talking and that they are listening to me..
at the beach side, waiting for..banana boat..
ok.. jogoya was a blast.. i think i had too much food, i didn't know what tastes good already

below: getting over-excited on a small lobster, and a smaller one..

*sis * omg.. haven see lobster before ar.. JAKUN

Basically me and my aunt.. were trying to be wong fei hung..lol
my face cramped..

trust me, life is nothing better then diving..

imagine, divers only ascend, because they run out of air, current too strong ..

that means not cause they "want" to ascend..but they HAVE to.. ( i should say WE)

Nature and its forces, so powerful and yet, its the beauty that captures your heart.