When its in your H.A.N.D.S

December 31st, marks the end of the year 2008..

Year 2008 has been rather colourful for me, starting of the year working in ABN AMRO, with great benefits and definitely learnt alot (best is what i still could remember now) Then sem 3 took a huge plunge for my results, and that made me work much harder for semester 4. Then , the work in Nova Scotia, definitely the best workplace, not in terms of culture, but in terms of learning experiences, being able to get directly involved in treasury back-office doing stuffs related to finance, its definitely an eye opening experience

The fun part is, I get what I wanted, when I want to quit, and I need not pay a refund. Cause they decided to release me since someone is coming in to replace me, so from a month, its reduced to 2weeks (wow.. fantastic) and yet benefited from it.

Alot say, there's nothing much to teach and learn within a short period of time, to me, an interview is learning chance, a day trip is, a day's work is to. It depends on whether you wannna take time and absorb and observe what is happening. Even taking a bus can sometimes give you lessons.

Life's about learning lessons ei??

sem 4 was miraculous, fantastic lecturers, great desire to achieve goal, made a difference, and my result was what I want..

Now working in campbells, it has been a month, initially didn't like the job, and was always frustrated about it, sometimes you'll feel alright, sometimes it just depresses me. And so I thought I could make arrangement to change my current job scope (well, widen my knowledge) cause I don't want to waste my two months doing data entry which to me is unproductive, when i already get a REAL low pay.

Sis then say i was expecting too much, as an intern you don't expect people to guide you and train you. I think she made sense there? So i didn't question much and end up trying to want what i get (john mcgray)

That was in the midst of 2nd week

Yesterday, it was at my limit. I was basically SLEEPING at work, never felt so terrible before, I was always the one energetic moving all around, giving 110% of what I should. I hate it, when it happens

I was really upset, then the thing that happened was came a new found friend i got to know 2months back. Definitely a gift, though we had much complication in between arguing and getting confused. The unconditional love we had for each other, made us pulled out strong for each and every tough rides ahead.

So, it took me the entire night, to think about what I'm gonna do to make things right at work. And i'd decided when i woke up this morning, to complete my current task (data entry) and to ask for more.

And so I came to work today, with the will and preserverance to survive. THen you know.. how important is your thoughts, when you dislike it, no matter how hard you try, you still will suffer. But once you'd decided that you'll make a change, it seems that your body would work even harder for you, the power of mind.

I gave Alicia a call, and she told me that it shouldn't be that way, an intern is supopse to learn from desired department. But she say, i'm a scholar, i should work things out myself. So figure, and let your boss know.

And it only took me 5 minutes to actually come out with an idea. I immediately storm into my boss's room well, I stormed POLITELY yea.. and sat down and told him that, I was required to come out with a report on something i had learnt the past one month (which is nothing) and I need to plan out what I'll learn next month (which is what I can control and demand for) requested for a meeting on friday.

This time, i would make things work for me. ASK.... and get the message across, the proper way, and you shall be answered.

Yes.. that would be the best new year resolution I could ever give myself, MAKING THINGS WORK WITH MY OWN HANDS IF I WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

till then, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL

May year 2009 be as plentiful (blessings) fun happy exciting for everyone.

I already had my 1year plan ready in my head. And i'm gonna make it work, make a difference, make a life, and improve to be better.

If God can do it, If mahatma ghandi can do it, If nelson mandela can do it, If terry fox can make a difference , if Paul from BGT can make a difference. WHY NOT MEEEE....

iTS MY WILL, and i have to stop SAYING, i gotta walk it.. yes.. Have to get it stuck in my head