What do you know>??

Sigh... when everyone complains about their life, how not satisfied they are, how good can they be, how are those things restricting them from doing what they want...

To me, this is total RUBBISH, ABSURD,NONSENSE..

As humans, we are always, given the choice the option to where we would lead our life to.

Most of us, complaining day and night about how their parents treat them, how their siblings treat them, how their friends treat them so on and so forth.

I'm someone who questions myself alot. Before you set an expectation on people, before you set a benchmark on how good people should treat you, before you start even comparing other's people life with yours. Have you ask yourself, what have you contributed since you know how to think?.. what have you done, to make someone around you smile?.. what have you done to earn back the love from others.. isn't this a great thought?

Many came to me and said, michelle?? you're different, you're lucky, you've got scholarship, your parents don't restrict you, your sister is a wonderful motivation. You can say all you want michelle, but you won't understand, you've not gone through what i had! Who are you to tell me to go for my dreams, who are you to tell me i have no rights to complain condemn and criticize? You think you're really someone that is .. you know.. so intelligent. LOok at yourself. You've got nothing than your stupid mouth. (of course, its a little over-elaborated)

But, i find it true, i'm no one to tell others what to do. But i've got rights to tell myself what to do. If you're not able to do what you wanna do? How are you able to get someone to do things you want them to do?.. None have asked, what i went through to get all i have this moment. I worked to earn my own new Colour phone in yr 2005. Who bought you your handphone?.. I worked to earn myself a diving course in Lang Tengah. Who paid your trips??..

I made effort to get what i want. I show desire, i show capability, i wanna prove that its worth me getting. And yet, all we see its end result. You say, whoa.. michelle you're so lucky, you always get what you want. Want to know why? I never complain when i don't get it (Do i?)..

I'm not someone who's perfect. There are many things, millions zillions of things that i don't know bout. I'm egoistic, i talk too much, i can't sit still, i'm lazy. I have my bads, but i don't let my bads restrict me from getting what i want. Not now? .. Fine.. later.. but i must get it..

Sigh.. i've much to write, but it'll be boring.. i felt bored already.. Its about being contented i believe. Its about counting the blessings, its about the neccessity to LIE. The moment you lie, you'll create another lie to cover the previous lie, and you'll never stop lying, and you have to carry the guilt and fear of being discovered.

Want it? DOne it? Admit it. Its life. Why would you want to trouble yourself to do things and lie about it, if you're forbidden to do it?.. Ask yourself.. i'm asking myself to. Sigh.. dilemma!!!