Have you ever ponder, that there's a moment, you met someone so close to your heart.. of the same values, of the same music beliefs...
That someone, who understands you, maybe... that someone is you.. a reflection of yourself. Your soulmate.
A weird feeling it seems, cause you will at the same time know that, you're not his/her cup of tea.
You don't seek for common grounds, they unveil naturally. You don't have to list, for it comes to mind, by accident. Is this fate?
It take not much time to fall in love, but how many have you truly loved.
Attraction, infactuation affection..comes so fast, but if weren't kept.. it'll soon dissolve
So where does love comes in..
so where does love comes in..
Love is a gift. For love usually comes unconditionally.. and love usually comes unexpected. Till you truly love..
till you truly love
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Choosing your attitude
Choosing your attitude,
I’d share with some of my mates today…
On the phrase I’d posted in the previous post
I’d share with some of my mates today…
On the phrase I’d posted in the previous post
“There’s always a choice about the way you do your work, even there is not a choice about the work itself”
there was a comment.
there was a comment.
“Shouldn’t it be, us reacting to the change, like circumstances made me act like that.”
That was the call, I gave an example from FISH!
Well, you would say, if you’re driving, then there’s a car that cuts you in front. There you are, all frustrated, and curse and honk maybe even show a gesture. And you would say, if the car have not cut you (jump queue) you wouldn’t have acted as such. You can’t control it.
Hmmm… lets bring the situation to a place where people there are tougher, say, a more notorious area, with more gangsters. Would you act similarly?
CHOOSE YOUR ATTITUDEThat was the call, I gave an example from FISH!
Well, you would say, if you’re driving, then there’s a car that cuts you in front. There you are, all frustrated, and curse and honk maybe even show a gesture. And you would say, if the car have not cut you (jump queue) you wouldn’t have acted as such. You can’t control it.
Hmmm… lets bring the situation to a place where people there are tougher, say, a more notorious area, with more gangsters. Would you act similarly?
so you decide who you want to be at work, today. What you want to be when you're working, driving, talking ... a thought to ponder
Thursday, May 28, 2009
bLOGGING TIME
And so, i'm free.. for a day or two.. at max..
And my honey told me to go tengok her blog today. Cause I am in it.. so I went. I read read read.. don't have..
then she gave a clue.. last para last para. So i went down to last para (btw, her post super long can)
Alright I was reading. and yea!she wrote about me. For giving her a whole new level of experience ( and it sounded so wrong at this point of time) .. when watching movies in cinema with me.
Just cause I laugh at horror movies, and be very silly and dramatic at funny ones.. and then she mentioned that i'm a good companion. Without hesitation, she even said, it was nice to lie on my shoulder ( i would take that as an indirect implication to whisper that I have flabby arms)
HAAHAHAHAHA.. so i screw her, and she said she never thought so, so I apologised!!
And oh, reading the book by the title FISH!
At the first chapter, it mostly mentioned how this recent widowed lady, Mary is going through her toughest time in her life, having to be transferred into an almost DEAD department (as it is back office)
And it made me think a while. "The grass is always greener on the other side" Well this phrase is such a cliche isn't it?..
I believe, no matter what job you are in, everything will turn into routines. even traveling, even meeting people, the most exciting job you think you have in the world, you will soon be bored with it. Cause people just get bored.
And just to add salt into the wound, the environment got worst. People are not helping out. They either didn't bother, or they ruined things up! So there you go, sitting inside your cubicle/desk/in your manager room thinking.. what am i doing here? and why is it so hard to change/influence and turn them to something different. As you drained yourself with these negative impacts, you realised it is not making any difference.
And all you get is your boss, asking you to solve it, and then your boss becomes a part of the problem!! wakakakaa (yea, something to laugh at huh?).. So it got you more depressed, and you would want to bring down the entire office building with a nuclear bomb, as you watch from the outside, and grinned evilly .. just for what they are doing to you, or maybe, just for what you FELT they were doing to you.
ahahaha.. sounds familiar huh? It kicks me in my ass, cause I feel the same way too at times. And then, there's a solution.
and here's a good quote to ponder from that book:
" There's always a choice about the way you do your work, even if there is not a choice about the work itself"
And my honey told me to go tengok her blog today. Cause I am in it.. so I went. I read read read.. don't have..
then she gave a clue.. last para last para. So i went down to last para (btw, her post super long can)
Alright I was reading. and yea!she wrote about me. For giving her a whole new level of experience ( and it sounded so wrong at this point of time) .. when watching movies in cinema with me.
Just cause I laugh at horror movies, and be very silly and dramatic at funny ones.. and then she mentioned that i'm a good companion. Without hesitation, she even said, it was nice to lie on my shoulder ( i would take that as an indirect implication to whisper that I have flabby arms)
HAAHAHAHAHA.. so i screw her, and she said she never thought so, so I apologised!!
And oh, reading the book by the title FISH!
At the first chapter, it mostly mentioned how this recent widowed lady, Mary is going through her toughest time in her life, having to be transferred into an almost DEAD department (as it is back office)
And it made me think a while. "The grass is always greener on the other side" Well this phrase is such a cliche isn't it?..
I believe, no matter what job you are in, everything will turn into routines. even traveling, even meeting people, the most exciting job you think you have in the world, you will soon be bored with it. Cause people just get bored.
And just to add salt into the wound, the environment got worst. People are not helping out. They either didn't bother, or they ruined things up! So there you go, sitting inside your cubicle/desk/in your manager room thinking.. what am i doing here? and why is it so hard to change/influence and turn them to something different. As you drained yourself with these negative impacts, you realised it is not making any difference.
And all you get is your boss, asking you to solve it, and then your boss becomes a part of the problem!! wakakakaa (yea, something to laugh at huh?).. So it got you more depressed, and you would want to bring down the entire office building with a nuclear bomb, as you watch from the outside, and grinned evilly .. just for what they are doing to you, or maybe, just for what you FELT they were doing to you.
ahahaha.. sounds familiar huh? It kicks me in my ass, cause I feel the same way too at times. And then, there's a solution.
and here's a good quote to ponder from that book:
" There's always a choice about the way you do your work, even if there is not a choice about the work itself"
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I know i hadnt been blogging for quite some time.. Almost a month now..
But I just settled all my assignments. Not to mention, its more work for club and events coming right before my finals, then my finals then only 2 weeks break (in which i'm going to fully utilize it by resting) since 10km marathon is just 1 week away before my break (leg break, everything also break)
i will update some photos, meanwhile do wait. I have a long naggy philosophical post coming up. lOL... alot of things is happening lately. If you can catch up with my facebook. you'll see why I can't have time to blog (besides spending the 80% of my total free time sleeping)
Anyway, ManU against Barce tonight. This will determine if I'm wearing MANU jersey tomorrow or not..wkakaak..we shall see..
Jeeee.. a quote to ponder:
" If you're waiting for miracles to happen, you'll be forever waiting" Reach out, and fall beyond your comfort zone, and bewildered with the opportunities you find, and they are coming to you"
But I just settled all my assignments. Not to mention, its more work for club and events coming right before my finals, then my finals then only 2 weeks break (in which i'm going to fully utilize it by resting) since 10km marathon is just 1 week away before my break (leg break, everything also break)
i will update some photos, meanwhile do wait. I have a long naggy philosophical post coming up. lOL... alot of things is happening lately. If you can catch up with my facebook. you'll see why I can't have time to blog (besides spending the 80% of my total free time sleeping)
Anyway, ManU against Barce tonight. This will determine if I'm wearing MANU jersey tomorrow or not..wkakaak..we shall see..
Jeeee.. a quote to ponder:
" If you're waiting for miracles to happen, you'll be forever waiting" Reach out, and fall beyond your comfort zone, and bewildered with the opportunities you find, and they are coming to you"
Monday, May 18, 2009
My new smart pen
Dear all, due to certain issues, i am still trying to figure out how to upload the audio along with the pages. Hmm.. i would say this pen is fantastic. next update would also be about smart pen. lol.. my new toy and i'm loving it :D
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Sometimes, its always easier to blame other people. Why? Cause if you realise that it is your fault or mistake, you'll take it hard yourself. Feeling guilty, feeling unhappy, feeling angry and upset.
That is why you blame others. But I can't. Today, somehow I felt angry at myself for not doing my best when I know I could (yes, I know i'm being hard on myself again)...
People come and tell you, you'll be fine, that you need a life and all.. very true. I do agree that.
But I just feel like getting emotional ( I know since I ever blogged, I'd shown the emo side of me more often, some could almost not believe that I have problems got a shock reading my posts)
I've gotta feel this, for life has a balance. Disappointments, failures, mistakes, are those that made me learn, grow, mature, and have gratitude to things that I can achieve.
These also made me feel less superior towards other people, and I learn to speak to a friend, to chat and to listen. I like being around people, making them laugh.. and when i'm back home, with loved ones, and close friends, and my other half, i'm quiet, i'm cool.. i'm different.. (why has it gone to this area, i also don't know)
I have alot of things in mind (like my unfinished tutorial, like my advertising assignment grade, like my t-shirt meeting tomorrow, like my malacca trip next week, like my club stuff, like my options after graduation).. arghhh..so much to do..so less time.
Blasting jordin sparks "one step at a time" in my room now.. hmmm.. i need tranquility.
Will switch to classics after I wash up for bed..
There's always no turning back, only a "no more next time" or do better next time. So, end todays misery today, and start a brand new day tomorrow. perhaps the next minute. Grief and detach.. laws of attraction. Cannot let today affect tomorrow. chillax .. says tigger.
Kla..chilling now
That is why you blame others. But I can't. Today, somehow I felt angry at myself for not doing my best when I know I could (yes, I know i'm being hard on myself again)...
People come and tell you, you'll be fine, that you need a life and all.. very true. I do agree that.
But I just feel like getting emotional ( I know since I ever blogged, I'd shown the emo side of me more often, some could almost not believe that I have problems got a shock reading my posts)
I've gotta feel this, for life has a balance. Disappointments, failures, mistakes, are those that made me learn, grow, mature, and have gratitude to things that I can achieve.
These also made me feel less superior towards other people, and I learn to speak to a friend, to chat and to listen. I like being around people, making them laugh.. and when i'm back home, with loved ones, and close friends, and my other half, i'm quiet, i'm cool.. i'm different.. (why has it gone to this area, i also don't know)
I have alot of things in mind (like my unfinished tutorial, like my advertising assignment grade, like my t-shirt meeting tomorrow, like my malacca trip next week, like my club stuff, like my options after graduation).. arghhh..so much to do..so less time.
Blasting jordin sparks "one step at a time" in my room now.. hmmm.. i need tranquility.
Will switch to classics after I wash up for bed..
There's always no turning back, only a "no more next time" or do better next time. So, end todays misery today, and start a brand new day tomorrow. perhaps the next minute. Grief and detach.. laws of attraction. Cannot let today affect tomorrow. chillax .. says tigger.
Kla..chilling now
Monday, April 20, 2009
some highlights of ad race
i'm selling this swatch watch (new at price RM150)
RP: 185 drop me a message if you're interested.
tak pernah dipakai
hmmm:... AdventuRACE...
Us at the 2nd pit stop
us at the 6th roadblock..weeee..imagine drinking that..and NOPE..its not JUST OATS
Us helping each other out..but i gave up.. i decided to walk myself..sorry teammies
Sunday, April 19, 2009
ADV Race 2009
Got myself signed up to a race. Which got me pyshically challenged after..No pics yet from our guide..but jz gonna tell you what we went through
Task 1
Teams must find 3 masked man in 3 different locations (in a specific sequence) get their signatures to get the next passcard.
our team : We didn't know how the sequence is like. So we have to do trial and error, we went to carefour subang, he said he's not the first, went back to taylors , she said she's not the 1st, when to ftz asia cafe, thought it was closed ..but decided to go in, then FOUND. went back to taylors, say not the 2nd, ran to carefour, got the signature, walked back to taylors to get the 3rd and off we go..
Task 2
Get to the counter, to make 10sets of egg mayo sandwiches, selling them at RM5 minimum, and then return the earlier RM20 to the counter.
our team: Flew to the counter, get what is necessary, finish packing and preparing the sandwiches in 10minutes, sold everything in 10minutes (we managed to catch up here) so it was all great ...
Task 3
Find a lake in SS12 near SJMC and Metro something. Cross-stitch S A C per member per letter, to get your 4th task.
our team: RAN ALL THE WAY THERE, dengan semartnya SAC committee decided to put their station right at the other end, so we somehow crawled to the place started stitching.
mY ever 1st time (i know how to sew but not stitch) .. then ar.. the string keep getting tangled.. but manage to be the 3rd team to complete... and off we went..for the 4th task
Task 4
Detour: choose A: MONKEY BAR, B: PLANKS, C: MOUTH
Locate a playground in SS15 housing area, with swings and slides.
our team: ss15 SUPER ALOT OF PLAYGROUND. we got worried, cause we found one and it wasn't that. look left right, spotted someone YELLOW..ran to it, and decided monkey bar (thinking that should be just pyshical hor) mana tau.. have to dig for RAW chicken liver, do monkey bar, pass to 2nd teamie, 2nd teamie chew the chicken liver pass to ME.. i go down the slide with chicken liver, throw down the bucket and needs to repeat FIVE times.
mE SUPER FAT You all know la.. so hard to start sliding down due to extreme huge butts.. so hard to STOP at th eend due to inertia, omg..etime i LAND ON THE GROUND WITH MY ARSE.. so embarassing.. and it tasted like.. omg.. omg.. completed within 3minutes (which was fast: cause the time limit is 6mins)
Task 5
To blend your previous task time, and make your own adventurace. Travel to Bandar Utama by any means of public transport. Upon reaching go to coffee's house for your next task.
our team: We made 1st mistake (it was me actually) for not checking the entire envelope (got 2 piece of paper) so we wasted lots and lots of time there for figuring out where are we suppose to go. Then we went for toilet break. and decided to head to the clue in the 1 paper we saw. Took a transit from Subang to kelana jaya to bu. (thank god ,we didn't wait to long for the buses, spent our 1st RM12) and my teamie ask me to check if there's another paper. So we found and I felt so bad. We got to know how to get to housing area in BU7
Bus stopped behind OU, we walked past jalan 2/1 (with the help of a map book) and through asking, we manage to get to 7/3 in a really short time. We knew that this coming task is related to YUCKY stuff. And as predicted, we are to drink 1cup each of a blended mixture (depending on the detour you choose on the previous task, and the time you took) .. so it was 5 ingredients (something chocolate in colour, margerine, onion garlic were blend to gether) then add raw egg inside each cup. Gosh it tasted like SHIT... seriously, but I gulped in everything very fast. can't bear to slowly sip.. help my friend with the other half cup .. and I can't do it no more.
While waiting, the checkpoint master gave me lunch (which was roti canai) then ask me want CURRY anot. I say i cannot eat anything .. not after what i drank.. my teammies agreed too.
So bout 20mins time, we finished and left for the 6th task.
Task 6
Go and cycle across obstacles (hills curves and slopes) to get to your next task all members need to complete.
Our team: Michelle Tak tahu cycle punya..tahu pun tak tahu brake. tapi nak pergi dulu seperti biasa, fell twice start all over again, push myself to the limits and reach the finishing line. Both my teammies were great. they completed in one go. (paiseh la .. m d weakest) hahaha..
ronnie's team was cute: the girl.. curly? the name? hahaha..she went offtrack but still cycling,came halfway back, u-turned again and continued.. so funny.. and off we go to the next task which was HELL to me.
Task 7
Go to lembah kiara opposite sk ttdi (ii) and count the planks on the wooden bridge wearing some stone (sek chun) slippers. OUCH
Our team: It was hard for us to get a taxi, who at first very unwilling to fetch us there, we got down, and ask around, found some good taxi drivers, drove us to the 2nd door to the park. (rm7)
we search and search couldn't find the checkpoint master, omg..they were at the main entrance, our team and another wasted so much time there, then we ran back down to start enduring the torture.
this was the hardest challenge for me. We climbed up hill, stairs, with that pair of shoes. I was upset and unhappy.. pushing pushing myself. but luckily one of our teammies, jo was good, so she did the counting herself as she was ahead of us, we walk to the bridge and came back. it took us 2hours and more. and we head down to KL for the next task.
Task 8
Locate the newly opened prestigious mall in KL, and perform your next task. Road block: one team member, to identify 3 watches from a book, go to swatch outlet and point out the 3 watches before getting the next clue
Our team: ran out, took a cabbie, (RM13)reached pavillion in 15mins, and found 2 other teams with us, we had trouble cause the pavilioon management don't allow crowds to create chaos in the mall, so all 3 teams were delayed about 10minutes, but we got it deducted from our time. tEAMMIE went, after 3 times, all 3 teams couldn't spot the last watch. Then came rescue, and my teammie found (and other team followed him .. yer) and got our next clue.
I waited with my other teammie and other teams, chatted and talked and analyse those behind and ahead of us.
Task 9
Find a foreigner, teach him/her negaraku before the next task
oUR TEAM: so panic, never read finish start looking for foreigners around the golden triangle..until we were scolded by our guide, then we look..owh.. the clue (suppose to unscramble the words, and head to dataran merdeka)
since kl is my area, and i'd been taking buses everywhere anywhere back in high school.. finally i'm in use. hahahaha.. brought team to the correct bus station, and board the bus that heads there( one team was with us, the other decided to take cab again..super rich)
ahahaha..and reached dataran merdeka..
super hard to spot foreigners, one went , I only know train station ( =S ) and a singaporean wasn't too helpful. Spotted a family on the field, i APPROACHED and ask, if they were local, they said no, expatriate from india. BINGO.. i started singing.. teach them whole song, then the entire family sang with us, so lovely.. really lovely.. i felt so touch they were there to help.
Then it started to drizzle.. we got our next clue:
Task 10
Locate this shop ( a photo given) and a series of number as clues.
ouR TEAM: the photo wasn't much of help because most buildings in central market, masjid jamek petaling street area looks the same. so we started asking around, and some said the shop already closed down, some pointed right, some pointed left. very helpful indeed. Teammie found out the numbers are referring to a name: petaling street.
OFf WE RAN to the place, and started asking around. no one knew where it was, fingers all over left right centre. But finally, someone who knows where it is and we found the shop
the task? cocuro? tak tahu macam mana eja... its a maths solving puzzle, similar to sudoku, using only numbers 1-9 have to fill in the boxes that adds up to the total on the right or left box. We finished it in a while, then got another clue that leads us to our final destination.
Without finishing the crossword puzzle (2nd clue) we found out that we are going back to TBS. so off we went looking for taxis that are WILLING to take us to TBS with only RM14.
one cabbie went : RM40
The other RM30
one was like : no money ar? take bus la..don't take taxi - it's a chinese anyway-how degrading.
Decided to give up and take bus already cause running out of time. Jo decided to give one more try, and found a cabbie, its funny ,he took us, we were all kecoh-ed asking we wanna go there the fastest. and he only said one thing. If you wanna reach subang fast, diam and listen to me.
Off i went quiet. he took the NPE : we were quite worried that he didn't hear us saying we only had RM14 left. cause he re-asked us if we are heading to SS14. .. we started praying throughout. and when we reach TBS and gave him RM14, he took it. OMG.. WE FELT LIKE IN HEAVEN.
Ran down thinking that we already won (knowing who's ahead and behind).. we found alien, and she told us roadblock . (i volunteered) So we head to the lift, 7 levels, at each there will be a number, remember the sequence than come down get the next clue.
I took 1st round to get the 4levels correct and the remaining 2 times to get the last 3 levels correct. We suppose to complete a math equation , and give the correct answer.
And it is ONE. the answer is ONE.
THen we were like all excited till they say go MAIN CAMPUS. we were like running as if got tiger chase (found another team packing and congratulate them- got 2nd) so we ran, and reach the final place, got 3rd and drinking red bull already. Haih..fnaly all over.
Fun..but suffering now lor! Backaches and all..hmmm next year join again must get number 1 lol..hahaha.. kla.. long boring post without pics i noe..soon soon on facebook. toodles
Task 1
Teams must find 3 masked man in 3 different locations (in a specific sequence) get their signatures to get the next passcard.
our team : We didn't know how the sequence is like. So we have to do trial and error, we went to carefour subang, he said he's not the first, went back to taylors , she said she's not the 1st, when to ftz asia cafe, thought it was closed ..but decided to go in, then FOUND. went back to taylors, say not the 2nd, ran to carefour, got the signature, walked back to taylors to get the 3rd and off we go..
Task 2
Get to the counter, to make 10sets of egg mayo sandwiches, selling them at RM5 minimum, and then return the earlier RM20 to the counter.
our team: Flew to the counter, get what is necessary, finish packing and preparing the sandwiches in 10minutes, sold everything in 10minutes (we managed to catch up here) so it was all great ...
Task 3
Find a lake in SS12 near SJMC and Metro something. Cross-stitch S A C per member per letter, to get your 4th task.
our team: RAN ALL THE WAY THERE, dengan semartnya SAC committee decided to put their station right at the other end, so we somehow crawled to the place started stitching.
mY ever 1st time (i know how to sew but not stitch) .. then ar.. the string keep getting tangled.. but manage to be the 3rd team to complete... and off we went..for the 4th task
Task 4
Detour: choose A: MONKEY BAR, B: PLANKS, C: MOUTH
Locate a playground in SS15 housing area, with swings and slides.
our team: ss15 SUPER ALOT OF PLAYGROUND. we got worried, cause we found one and it wasn't that. look left right, spotted someone YELLOW..ran to it, and decided monkey bar (thinking that should be just pyshical hor) mana tau.. have to dig for RAW chicken liver, do monkey bar, pass to 2nd teamie, 2nd teamie chew the chicken liver pass to ME.. i go down the slide with chicken liver, throw down the bucket and needs to repeat FIVE times.
mE SUPER FAT You all know la.. so hard to start sliding down due to extreme huge butts.. so hard to STOP at th eend due to inertia, omg..etime i LAND ON THE GROUND WITH MY ARSE.. so embarassing.. and it tasted like.. omg.. omg.. completed within 3minutes (which was fast: cause the time limit is 6mins)
Task 5
To blend your previous task time, and make your own adventurace. Travel to Bandar Utama by any means of public transport. Upon reaching go to coffee's house for your next task.
our team: We made 1st mistake (it was me actually) for not checking the entire envelope (got 2 piece of paper) so we wasted lots and lots of time there for figuring out where are we suppose to go. Then we went for toilet break. and decided to head to the clue in the 1 paper we saw. Took a transit from Subang to kelana jaya to bu. (thank god ,we didn't wait to long for the buses, spent our 1st RM12) and my teamie ask me to check if there's another paper. So we found and I felt so bad. We got to know how to get to housing area in BU7
Bus stopped behind OU, we walked past jalan 2/1 (with the help of a map book) and through asking, we manage to get to 7/3 in a really short time. We knew that this coming task is related to YUCKY stuff. And as predicted, we are to drink 1cup each of a blended mixture (depending on the detour you choose on the previous task, and the time you took) .. so it was 5 ingredients (something chocolate in colour, margerine, onion garlic were blend to gether) then add raw egg inside each cup. Gosh it tasted like SHIT... seriously, but I gulped in everything very fast. can't bear to slowly sip.. help my friend with the other half cup .. and I can't do it no more.
While waiting, the checkpoint master gave me lunch (which was roti canai) then ask me want CURRY anot. I say i cannot eat anything .. not after what i drank.. my teammies agreed too.
So bout 20mins time, we finished and left for the 6th task.
Task 6
Go and cycle across obstacles (hills curves and slopes) to get to your next task all members need to complete.
Our team: Michelle Tak tahu cycle punya..tahu pun tak tahu brake. tapi nak pergi dulu seperti biasa, fell twice start all over again, push myself to the limits and reach the finishing line. Both my teammies were great. they completed in one go. (paiseh la .. m d weakest) hahaha..
ronnie's team was cute: the girl.. curly? the name? hahaha..she went offtrack but still cycling,came halfway back, u-turned again and continued.. so funny.. and off we go to the next task which was HELL to me.
Task 7
Go to lembah kiara opposite sk ttdi (ii) and count the planks on the wooden bridge wearing some stone (sek chun) slippers. OUCH
Our team: It was hard for us to get a taxi, who at first very unwilling to fetch us there, we got down, and ask around, found some good taxi drivers, drove us to the 2nd door to the park. (rm7)
we search and search couldn't find the checkpoint master, omg..they were at the main entrance, our team and another wasted so much time there, then we ran back down to start enduring the torture.
this was the hardest challenge for me. We climbed up hill, stairs, with that pair of shoes. I was upset and unhappy.. pushing pushing myself. but luckily one of our teammies, jo was good, so she did the counting herself as she was ahead of us, we walk to the bridge and came back. it took us 2hours and more. and we head down to KL for the next task.
Task 8
Locate the newly opened prestigious mall in KL, and perform your next task. Road block: one team member, to identify 3 watches from a book, go to swatch outlet and point out the 3 watches before getting the next clue
Our team: ran out, took a cabbie, (RM13)reached pavillion in 15mins, and found 2 other teams with us, we had trouble cause the pavilioon management don't allow crowds to create chaos in the mall, so all 3 teams were delayed about 10minutes, but we got it deducted from our time. tEAMMIE went, after 3 times, all 3 teams couldn't spot the last watch. Then came rescue, and my teammie found (and other team followed him .. yer) and got our next clue.
I waited with my other teammie and other teams, chatted and talked and analyse those behind and ahead of us.
Task 9
Find a foreigner, teach him/her negaraku before the next task
oUR TEAM: so panic, never read finish start looking for foreigners around the golden triangle..until we were scolded by our guide, then we look..owh.. the clue (suppose to unscramble the words, and head to dataran merdeka)
since kl is my area, and i'd been taking buses everywhere anywhere back in high school.. finally i'm in use. hahahaha.. brought team to the correct bus station, and board the bus that heads there( one team was with us, the other decided to take cab again..super rich)
ahahaha..and reached dataran merdeka..
super hard to spot foreigners, one went , I only know train station ( =S ) and a singaporean wasn't too helpful. Spotted a family on the field, i APPROACHED and ask, if they were local, they said no, expatriate from india. BINGO.. i started singing.. teach them whole song, then the entire family sang with us, so lovely.. really lovely.. i felt so touch they were there to help.
Then it started to drizzle.. we got our next clue:
Task 10
Locate this shop ( a photo given) and a series of number as clues.
ouR TEAM: the photo wasn't much of help because most buildings in central market, masjid jamek petaling street area looks the same. so we started asking around, and some said the shop already closed down, some pointed right, some pointed left. very helpful indeed. Teammie found out the numbers are referring to a name: petaling street.
OFf WE RAN to the place, and started asking around. no one knew where it was, fingers all over left right centre. But finally, someone who knows where it is and we found the shop
the task? cocuro? tak tahu macam mana eja... its a maths solving puzzle, similar to sudoku, using only numbers 1-9 have to fill in the boxes that adds up to the total on the right or left box. We finished it in a while, then got another clue that leads us to our final destination.
Without finishing the crossword puzzle (2nd clue) we found out that we are going back to TBS. so off we went looking for taxis that are WILLING to take us to TBS with only RM14.
one cabbie went : RM40
The other RM30
one was like : no money ar? take bus la..don't take taxi - it's a chinese anyway-how degrading.
Decided to give up and take bus already cause running out of time. Jo decided to give one more try, and found a cabbie, its funny ,he took us, we were all kecoh-ed asking we wanna go there the fastest. and he only said one thing. If you wanna reach subang fast, diam and listen to me.
Off i went quiet. he took the NPE : we were quite worried that he didn't hear us saying we only had RM14 left. cause he re-asked us if we are heading to SS14. .. we started praying throughout. and when we reach TBS and gave him RM14, he took it. OMG.. WE FELT LIKE IN HEAVEN.
Ran down thinking that we already won (knowing who's ahead and behind).. we found alien, and she told us roadblock . (i volunteered) So we head to the lift, 7 levels, at each there will be a number, remember the sequence than come down get the next clue.
I took 1st round to get the 4levels correct and the remaining 2 times to get the last 3 levels correct. We suppose to complete a math equation , and give the correct answer.
And it is ONE. the answer is ONE.
THen we were like all excited till they say go MAIN CAMPUS. we were like running as if got tiger chase (found another team packing and congratulate them- got 2nd) so we ran, and reach the final place, got 3rd and drinking red bull already. Haih..fnaly all over.
Fun..but suffering now lor! Backaches and all..hmmm next year join again must get number 1 lol..hahaha.. kla.. long boring post without pics i noe..soon soon on facebook. toodles
Thursday, April 16, 2009
In less than half a year, I committed the same action twice, and now, today...
I felt like how I did 5months plus back..
phewwwww..
And with the honesty from the other party, I didn't know how to respond...
Does history repeats itself?
I'm guilty of commiting the same act, I'm guilty that I realise, all this while the problem has been me.
Aih... something has to be done.
Then came another, when you realise that you ran out of escapades, you stood there, not knowing what to do. Though I had my vision and directions set, but can it be accomplished? fulfilled? .. I dare not guarantee, but I'm sure there's hope. I have 2months left, and i'm giving my best. After that 2months it means harder work.. before I leave for australia next year and everything is then settled.
Hmmm.. something is pulling me back
I need to stop what I like to do, before I get into trouble ..
Lol.. funny isn't it, stop myself from doing what I like to do.. (you must be thinking, it must be something unethical / inmorale - and perhaps you're starting to guess what it is already)
I shall keep my right to remain silent, till my lawyer comes. Lol.. any questions pertaining the above, please ask. Any assumptions made prior to the analysis of the above statements shall not hold me liable.
Sleep now, tomorrow wake up it'll be solved .. lol!
Tomorrow.. how will tomorrow be. How will it brighten up my gloomy worried guilty day.. how how how.. do you know how?... try me then
Cheers
I felt like how I did 5months plus back..
phewwwww..
And with the honesty from the other party, I didn't know how to respond...
Does history repeats itself?
I'm guilty of commiting the same act, I'm guilty that I realise, all this while the problem has been me.
Aih... something has to be done.
Then came another, when you realise that you ran out of escapades, you stood there, not knowing what to do. Though I had my vision and directions set, but can it be accomplished? fulfilled? .. I dare not guarantee, but I'm sure there's hope. I have 2months left, and i'm giving my best. After that 2months it means harder work.. before I leave for australia next year and everything is then settled.
Hmmm.. something is pulling me back
I need to stop what I like to do, before I get into trouble ..
Lol.. funny isn't it, stop myself from doing what I like to do.. (you must be thinking, it must be something unethical / inmorale - and perhaps you're starting to guess what it is already)
I shall keep my right to remain silent, till my lawyer comes. Lol.. any questions pertaining the above, please ask. Any assumptions made prior to the analysis of the above statements shall not hold me liable.
Sleep now, tomorrow wake up it'll be solved .. lol!
Tomorrow.. how will tomorrow be. How will it brighten up my gloomy worried guilty day.. how how how.. do you know how?... try me then
Cheers
Friday, April 10, 2009
for you, my bii!
BII? If you happen to hop into my blog, and if you're still willing to regard yourself as my bii,
I just wanna tell you that
(Allowing my pride and ego to eat me inside)
I knew i'm still there, a very tiny piece in ya mind.
And I wanna thank you for all your sacrifice and effort made
A smile for I appreciate it
A sigh for I cherished it too late
Nevertheless, life goes on
You found someone new
And I know it made you feel more loved than ever
And I pray that it will remain as many as days weeks years
You're one bright smart being
I hope you will keep that spirit in you
That you'll still do your best for the things you want
That you'll not give up without trying
I won't do you any harm no more
For another teardrop, is something I couldn't afford ..
Thanks bii
Take care
And be good! hehe
See ya soon!
I just wanna tell you that
(Allowing my pride and ego to eat me inside)
I knew i'm still there, a very tiny piece in ya mind.
And I wanna thank you for all your sacrifice and effort made
A smile for I appreciate it
A sigh for I cherished it too late
Nevertheless, life goes on
You found someone new
And I know it made you feel more loved than ever
And I pray that it will remain as many as days weeks years
You're one bright smart being
I hope you will keep that spirit in you
That you'll still do your best for the things you want
That you'll not give up without trying
I won't do you any harm no more
For another teardrop, is something I couldn't afford ..
Thanks bii
Take care
And be good! hehe
See ya soon!
This has been bothering me for the past 1 hour
Since i'd learn to listen and see from a bird's eye view, I had no longer want to pursue a hard core life, where all i'll do is just climb up up up get fat pay cheques and all
Today, i'd visited some blogs, and it saddened me.
Reading each and every word, it torments me, how it tormented the writer. And I was thinking, they are so strong to go through all the pain and torture, and yet have not complained about it..
Whille I listen dozens and tonnes of people who are all healthy and safe and in a piece complaining how unfair the world is, how unjust and how badly they were treated.
It hit me in the head, how bad was it, did it make you paralyse? did it take your love ones away? did it take your life away?
I close my eyes, and woke up stronger, these just gave me strength to give back to the society. There's a lot more I could do, and no matter how difficult things are, I will not stop, for all God has given to me,
for all that my teachers, families, lecturers friends have given to me
I shall give back to the community. Its my turn to serve.
Thank God for each breath I take. Thank god for giving me a chance to learn. And I thank you almighty above, for giving me the call. And yes, i'm here to take it.
Since i'd learn to listen and see from a bird's eye view, I had no longer want to pursue a hard core life, where all i'll do is just climb up up up get fat pay cheques and all
Today, i'd visited some blogs, and it saddened me.
Reading each and every word, it torments me, how it tormented the writer. And I was thinking, they are so strong to go through all the pain and torture, and yet have not complained about it..
Whille I listen dozens and tonnes of people who are all healthy and safe and in a piece complaining how unfair the world is, how unjust and how badly they were treated.
It hit me in the head, how bad was it, did it make you paralyse? did it take your love ones away? did it take your life away?
I close my eyes, and woke up stronger, these just gave me strength to give back to the society. There's a lot more I could do, and no matter how difficult things are, I will not stop, for all God has given to me,
for all that my teachers, families, lecturers friends have given to me
I shall give back to the community. Its my turn to serve.
Thank God for each breath I take. Thank god for giving me a chance to learn. And I thank you almighty above, for giving me the call. And yes, i'm here to take it.
Monday, April 06, 2009
It is funny how we could be inspired .. and have the fire burning
but it only lasts a moment
This shows how determined and perservered we are.. towards our goals, facing our fears ..and? etc...
I'm going to be more affirmative now. And only speak when necessary ( I know most of you don't seem to believe this, and you might think its impossible) well do allow some .. random moments
But now i've gotta focus..Got all the papers stick on my mirror.. bangun je..NAMPAK..
My dreamboard...
Those who know me, would know that, I only suggest, intro things that I believe is beneficial. If it isn't, I wouldn't be at all promoting about it. Hahaha..don't think so?
Diving - extreme fun and calming (though expensive, but you can trust me, ask every any other diver)
HAHAHA.and some others more. which i don't want to detail here
I don't like arguments. When I know I have something to say, and I SHOULD.. but if it would create an argument (cause when I fume I wont speak nicely) I shut myself up
I just don't like raising voices. And perhaps that I'd been taking in too much, nowadays that I'm older, I get impatient easily. Change change change that
WAKAKAKAK..i'm going nuts.. but I don't care. i just want to be happy .. I want to dive, I want to explore. I want to do so much. And I know I have all the time.. carzten says I live up to 140 years.. so why worry.
Alright, seminar was a blast, thank those who came, thank those who helped out, thank those who saved me. Weeee... i love to empower students, cause it make me feel that I have contributed to the society. Mission accomplished
but it only lasts a moment
This shows how determined and perservered we are.. towards our goals, facing our fears ..and? etc...
I'm going to be more affirmative now. And only speak when necessary ( I know most of you don't seem to believe this, and you might think its impossible) well do allow some .. random moments
But now i've gotta focus..Got all the papers stick on my mirror.. bangun je..NAMPAK..
My dreamboard...
Those who know me, would know that, I only suggest, intro things that I believe is beneficial. If it isn't, I wouldn't be at all promoting about it. Hahaha..don't think so?
Diving - extreme fun and calming (though expensive, but you can trust me, ask every any other diver)
HAHAHA.and some others more. which i don't want to detail here
I don't like arguments. When I know I have something to say, and I SHOULD.. but if it would create an argument (cause when I fume I wont speak nicely) I shut myself up
I just don't like raising voices. And perhaps that I'd been taking in too much, nowadays that I'm older, I get impatient easily. Change change change that
WAKAKAKAK..i'm going nuts.. but I don't care. i just want to be happy .. I want to dive, I want to explore. I want to do so much. And I know I have all the time.. carzten says I live up to 140 years.. so why worry.
Alright, seminar was a blast, thank those who came, thank those who helped out, thank those who saved me. Weeee... i love to empower students, cause it make me feel that I have contributed to the society. Mission accomplished
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Weeeee...
I don't know how to describe my feelings
Felt productive.
Felt there's so much to be done
Felt there's so much opportunities outside
Felt contented
Felt happy for what I'm pursuing
Felt happy for what I'd been given
Felt inspired
Felt the burning spirit to accomplish my goals
Felt the burning spirit to race to the end
Felt in love
Felt like I want to give the best in it
Felt like I want to give everything I can
Felt fulfilled
Felt that even I can't get the most of everything but I didn't missed it
Felt that even it is not meant to be, but at least I tried..
There's a mixture of feelings
Not sure which is overpowering which
But for sure,
I am happy.
And i just love this new song, it melts me.. what bout you?
I don't know how to describe my feelings
Felt productive.
Felt there's so much to be done
Felt there's so much opportunities outside
Felt contented
Felt happy for what I'm pursuing
Felt happy for what I'd been given
Felt inspired
Felt the burning spirit to accomplish my goals
Felt the burning spirit to race to the end
Felt in love
Felt like I want to give the best in it
Felt like I want to give everything I can
Felt fulfilled
Felt that even I can't get the most of everything but I didn't missed it
Felt that even it is not meant to be, but at least I tried..
There's a mixture of feelings
Not sure which is overpowering which
But for sure,
I am happy.
And i just love this new song, it melts me.. what bout you?
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
back and ... hehehe..happy
back from singapore..
already in love with new things :D
HAHAHAHAHA
there are a few implications from the trip
some i will keep it to myself and some close friends
some.. hmm.. i'm now opting to either work immediately / have fun first. Still deciding
Some.. hmm.. already left 100% at camp. now the remaining also gone =)
Some.. hmm.. busy with club activities but gotta learn to manage my time
hehehe.. assignments piling up , but i'm gonna make sure i'm giving my best :D
now i'm busy pondering how am i gonna make a move. teach me HOW...
already in love with new things :D
HAHAHAHAHA
there are a few implications from the trip
some i will keep it to myself and some close friends
some.. hmm.. i'm now opting to either work immediately / have fun first. Still deciding
Some.. hmm.. already left 100% at camp. now the remaining also gone =)
Some.. hmm.. busy with club activities but gotta learn to manage my time
hehehe.. assignments piling up , but i'm gonna make sure i'm giving my best :D
now i'm busy pondering how am i gonna make a move. teach me HOW...
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I feel upset, when I need to do what I DID NOT ARRANGE MYSELF INTO.
Especially when EVERYONE thinks I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to work things out.
I don't find it necessary to COMPLAIN here, because I believe in working out solutions. Not dealing with the past.
But it becomes frustrating when people don't contribute. It really does.
I wonder why it is always others who can be unavailable, busy so on so forth, and even I AM AS WELL, BUSY, UNABLE TO MAKE IT. I HAVE TO MAKE IT
it is really frustrating. Gosh! And there are no solutions yet. I'm finishing other people's work. This has een accumulating. And I don't like it.
INTERESTING CHALLENGE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. off to singapore tomorrow. back on sunday. Busy busy busy weeks weeks weeks after coming back! It just never stop
Perhaps, that is what final year is meant for.
Especially when EVERYONE thinks I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to work things out.
I don't find it necessary to COMPLAIN here, because I believe in working out solutions. Not dealing with the past.
But it becomes frustrating when people don't contribute. It really does.
I wonder why it is always others who can be unavailable, busy so on so forth, and even I AM AS WELL, BUSY, UNABLE TO MAKE IT. I HAVE TO MAKE IT
it is really frustrating. Gosh! And there are no solutions yet. I'm finishing other people's work. This has een accumulating. And I don't like it.
INTERESTING CHALLENGE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. off to singapore tomorrow. back on sunday. Busy busy busy weeks weeks weeks after coming back! It just never stop
Perhaps, that is what final year is meant for.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Photos time
RYLA updates ( you might seen it on FB)
The unrelated one was me..didn't realise they are taking group photo lol
the 83 of us
my group with ashley as instructor, PP frankie yap chairman ryla 2009
rotaractors who went for RYLA
us at the campsiteeeeee
our group with the RYLA shirt
us winning the human traffiking game ( transportation) lol
little souvenir from ryla :D
The unrelated one was me..didn't realise they are taking group photo lol the 83 of usmy group with ashley as instructor, PP frankie yap chairman ryla 2009
rotaractors who went for RYLA
us at the campsiteeeeeeour group with the RYLA shirt
us winning the human traffiking game ( transportation) lol
little souvenir from ryla :D
and my hair is superbly short now.. a new look i guess ;)
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
A close shot
Yesterday drive was thrilling
Sis called to ask for a ride home approx 9pm yesterday,
Drove waja and mum sat next to me..
There was this junction where we turn right, and there is an immediate right turn or go straight route right ahead.
At the 1st traffic light, I wanted to keep on the left lane (there's two lanes) as I'll be going straight after the 1st right turn, instead of turning right again (like a u-turn).
Mum said keep on the right lane ( as she preferred)
So i kept the right lane, and it was green. ( if you don't know what i'm talking about, its actually the traffic light u-turn from giant taman connaught to the opposite side of connaught, the cemetry side)
I took the 1st right, signalled left and intend to go straight (though I was on the lane where cars usually make another right turn) The right turn traffic turned amber to red. It didn't bother me as I still go straight
With the left signal on, I went straight. A wira on my left wanted to turn right and almost bang my car ( definitely scared my mum to death) but managed to escape an accident as I tilt my steering to the right and he emergency braked.
And mum was scolding me for not looking.
HELLO? I LOOK OR NOT I STILL HAVE TO GO STRAIGHT RIGHT? and that wira didn't even put his signal on, and he flew to my lane k? And the traffic was red that time (red to the right turn only)
I got angry, I just said, just now I keep left mai mou xi lor (nothing will happen)
Aih!!!damn stress. Assignment stress, tutorial stress, and eca stress.
Contemplating to go Singapore a not! AGAIN? i know. But i got to know that it doesn't help a bit in my ECA at all, just a job opportunity in singapore, and perhaps, an exposure.
Since i'm paying myself. I think more than I would use to. Plus there's 4 assignments due the week after. Sigh
But need to confirm tomorrow. See how la.
I'm upset with certain people. For questions I asked were not answered. For it is obvious that people are avoiding me. Perhaps they need time. Gosh, and there people were worried when will i get over it. I know something is wrong. But they just left me in doubts. No one is willing to tell me what has happened. So don't blame me for concluding with my own assumptions. I asked. You didn't answer only.
Sleepy..taking a nap. Good night
Sis called to ask for a ride home approx 9pm yesterday,
Drove waja and mum sat next to me..
There was this junction where we turn right, and there is an immediate right turn or go straight route right ahead.
At the 1st traffic light, I wanted to keep on the left lane (there's two lanes) as I'll be going straight after the 1st right turn, instead of turning right again (like a u-turn).
Mum said keep on the right lane ( as she preferred)
So i kept the right lane, and it was green. ( if you don't know what i'm talking about, its actually the traffic light u-turn from giant taman connaught to the opposite side of connaught, the cemetry side)
I took the 1st right, signalled left and intend to go straight (though I was on the lane where cars usually make another right turn) The right turn traffic turned amber to red. It didn't bother me as I still go straight
With the left signal on, I went straight. A wira on my left wanted to turn right and almost bang my car ( definitely scared my mum to death) but managed to escape an accident as I tilt my steering to the right and he emergency braked.
And mum was scolding me for not looking.
HELLO? I LOOK OR NOT I STILL HAVE TO GO STRAIGHT RIGHT? and that wira didn't even put his signal on, and he flew to my lane k? And the traffic was red that time (red to the right turn only)
I got angry, I just said, just now I keep left mai mou xi lor (nothing will happen)
Aih!!!damn stress. Assignment stress, tutorial stress, and eca stress.
Contemplating to go Singapore a not! AGAIN? i know. But i got to know that it doesn't help a bit in my ECA at all, just a job opportunity in singapore, and perhaps, an exposure.
Since i'm paying myself. I think more than I would use to. Plus there's 4 assignments due the week after. Sigh
But need to confirm tomorrow. See how la.
I'm upset with certain people. For questions I asked were not answered. For it is obvious that people are avoiding me. Perhaps they need time. Gosh, and there people were worried when will i get over it. I know something is wrong. But they just left me in doubts. No one is willing to tell me what has happened. So don't blame me for concluding with my own assumptions. I asked. You didn't answer only.
Sleepy..taking a nap. Good night
Monday, March 09, 2009
Back!!
Fuh.. RYLA, excruciating. Can't be explained by words!!!
It was funny that the 5 torturing days of RYLA ( to be exact, 2 days of camping and kayaking and jungle trekking) pushed all 83 of us to the limits.
Meeting new friends, played crazy games, went really crazy (shall not say as we promised that what happened in RYLA stays in RYLA)
Found someone new, well more than one actually.. hahahaha.. don't know if things would go well. But its a great new start... and manage to bump into one friend, that we've last met approx half a year ago. Maybe its fate? ... hahahah.. you've gotta always know that things happen for a reason. And if old ones don't go, new ones won't come. Perhaps, what happened before RYLA was meant to be, cause what happened at RYLA was a blessing and life changing.
We worked so hard as a team, helping others, learning about each other. And suprised to see that, although we have just met, but the bond and the care we had for each other made it seemed like we have known each other for YEARS.
My first time camping, and it was all fun!Getting all dirty.. Now i'm back, renewed. All burnt, and nope I didn't lose any weight (that's pretty sad) and to make things worst, I actually gained some. WAKAKAKAKAA..
Mulu team, despite everyone being quiet and decent, made out way to being the 1st to complete some games, and we won the other teams in another match (lost one too) but, we are always the most co-operative ones, we reach the hall earliest, we finished earliest .. well except for the last day where the guys had not got their alarm clock working and they were late for 30minutes.
I was given a chance to participate in most of the activities, including something that I always do, mc-ing. Abit chaotic at first, but was glad that it went on well later.
cAME back with alot of new thoughts in the head, more inspired, and changed my goals and perception in life.
Despite plenty of bruises and insect bites and mosquito bites and back aches and muscle pain, I think it was all worth it. MORE PICTURES when we receive a copy of the CD.
YAY!!! I got invited to experience in singapore. Now i'm thinking if I should go or not. Its yee wah and ching choo's birthday nearby. Hmmm.. gotta think about it.
Thank you RYLA, for the change. I left alot of things at OBS. its time to make the change i wish to see.. back to uni tomorrow!!!
It was funny that the 5 torturing days of RYLA ( to be exact, 2 days of camping and kayaking and jungle trekking) pushed all 83 of us to the limits.
Meeting new friends, played crazy games, went really crazy (shall not say as we promised that what happened in RYLA stays in RYLA)
Found someone new, well more than one actually.. hahahaha.. don't know if things would go well. But its a great new start... and manage to bump into one friend, that we've last met approx half a year ago. Maybe its fate? ... hahahah.. you've gotta always know that things happen for a reason. And if old ones don't go, new ones won't come. Perhaps, what happened before RYLA was meant to be, cause what happened at RYLA was a blessing and life changing.
We worked so hard as a team, helping others, learning about each other. And suprised to see that, although we have just met, but the bond and the care we had for each other made it seemed like we have known each other for YEARS.
My first time camping, and it was all fun!Getting all dirty.. Now i'm back, renewed. All burnt, and nope I didn't lose any weight (that's pretty sad) and to make things worst, I actually gained some. WAKAKAKAKAA..
Mulu team, despite everyone being quiet and decent, made out way to being the 1st to complete some games, and we won the other teams in another match (lost one too) but, we are always the most co-operative ones, we reach the hall earliest, we finished earliest .. well except for the last day where the guys had not got their alarm clock working and they were late for 30minutes.
I was given a chance to participate in most of the activities, including something that I always do, mc-ing. Abit chaotic at first, but was glad that it went on well later.
cAME back with alot of new thoughts in the head, more inspired, and changed my goals and perception in life.
Despite plenty of bruises and insect bites and mosquito bites and back aches and muscle pain, I think it was all worth it. MORE PICTURES when we receive a copy of the CD.
YAY!!! I got invited to experience in singapore. Now i'm thinking if I should go or not. Its yee wah and ching choo's birthday nearby. Hmmm.. gotta think about it.
Thank you RYLA, for the change. I left alot of things at OBS. its time to make the change i wish to see.. back to uni tomorrow!!!
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Didn't manage to catch up with everyone...
Was serious in lectures, this semester is going to be a tough ride, therefore, have to be more careful and less playful. Working harder too..
I'm leaving in 9hrs 30 mins time.. for a camp in lumut. I wonder what is there for me?
I need to set my goals straight when the bus leaves kl tomorrow, so I'll come back fulfilled and different, perhaps letting go...
okay okay, I should have let go by now ma I know, remembered I said I'm going to come back different? I'll do it. Not my best, and not just my best. But i'll do it.
When I'm back, I'm going to change the perception, to the extend where love and care doesn't need to be fully purely on obsession. Where happiness plays the 1st role, future 2nd and peace third.
I hope to be proven wrong, I don't want you to learn things the hard way. But when you're not ask for advice, they usually didn't want the information.. (says andrew matt)
I at times, didn't want people to have a chance losing out those information. Because to me, we must must have all alternatives set in front of us, so that we make the best decision we can
Always remember, the choice is yours. To make a difference or not. Why? why worry about other people's thoughts, when the decision is yours to make, when you'll be the one taking the step, sowing the seeds and reaping the fruit?
Think ahead, always think ahead... don't let what in front of you is everything to you now be blinded, it'll only stop you from looking and searching further, maybe just next door, opportunities and better things that you can get.
Trust me, explore, make the world an oyster to you. I hope you do what you're good at best. I hope that you decide to at least, furthering studies. Money dear? is nto that important. Health, happiness future is.
Was serious in lectures, this semester is going to be a tough ride, therefore, have to be more careful and less playful. Working harder too..
I'm leaving in 9hrs 30 mins time.. for a camp in lumut. I wonder what is there for me?
I need to set my goals straight when the bus leaves kl tomorrow, so I'll come back fulfilled and different, perhaps letting go...
okay okay, I should have let go by now ma I know, remembered I said I'm going to come back different? I'll do it. Not my best, and not just my best. But i'll do it.
When I'm back, I'm going to change the perception, to the extend where love and care doesn't need to be fully purely on obsession. Where happiness plays the 1st role, future 2nd and peace third.
I hope to be proven wrong, I don't want you to learn things the hard way. But when you're not ask for advice, they usually didn't want the information.. (says andrew matt)
I at times, didn't want people to have a chance losing out those information. Because to me, we must must have all alternatives set in front of us, so that we make the best decision we can
Always remember, the choice is yours. To make a difference or not. Why? why worry about other people's thoughts, when the decision is yours to make, when you'll be the one taking the step, sowing the seeds and reaping the fruit?
Think ahead, always think ahead... don't let what in front of you is everything to you now be blinded, it'll only stop you from looking and searching further, maybe just next door, opportunities and better things that you can get.
Trust me, explore, make the world an oyster to you. I hope you do what you're good at best. I hope that you decide to at least, furthering studies. Money dear? is nto that important. Health, happiness future is.
Friday, February 27, 2009
I hate me now.
Why am i being so fickled minded.
Why am I always rushing to do things, following my heart and then regretting it.
Why in this world am I having such kind of character
Gosh. I gotta tune myself back. How can i be angry and then forgive jz immediately..but be angry again
I think my subconscious mine is going haywire. I am having personality split.
One moment, i'd so many questions that influenced myself to say yes.. i should be angry
one moment, i'd reasoned out why and influenced myself to say no, its not their fault
And that all happens in minutes
I gotta find out the solution. Any body? HELP?
Why am i being so fickled minded.
Why am I always rushing to do things, following my heart and then regretting it.
Why in this world am I having such kind of character
Gosh. I gotta tune myself back. How can i be angry and then forgive jz immediately..but be angry again
I think my subconscious mine is going haywire. I am having personality split.
One moment, i'd so many questions that influenced myself to say yes.. i should be angry
one moment, i'd reasoned out why and influenced myself to say no, its not their fault
And that all happens in minutes
I gotta find out the solution. Any body? HELP?
TWCS dinner
Left house bout 6a took NPE ( heard they're raising the toll rate to RM2 - hell, how am I gonna use that route)
And there's a bout like 40 plus of us, we had a great dinner (except for the dessert and the main course- which took way lots of effort to chew them all up!)
San Fransisco Steakhouse was filled with industry partners, scholars and taylor's staffs.
All of the fun, sharing of internship experience, advices from the industry partners and also the staff themselves are all priceless.
Here.. finally let michelle's blog get beautified with FINALLY SOME PICTURES..
That's us and the scholarship team from taylors
Where are all the guys you must be thinking? Nah, they are busy handling partners (guys are better off socializing, girls? camwhoring of course)
There you go a group picture with everyone
Its nice getting to know people who are all rounders, when you stop talking, you observe, and when you observe you learn.
You don't learn by talking, you learn by observing.
Trust me on that.
Try it.. and you'll see why I said so!!
Blast blast blast
dinner was a blast
laugher jokes, serious conversations..
and of course
seeing friends after what 3months long
and some that I'd seldom talked to?
Its nice to be back in college
This year? lets make a difference
UNI HERE I COME =D
And there's a bout like 40 plus of us, we had a great dinner (except for the dessert and the main course- which took way lots of effort to chew them all up!)
San Fransisco Steakhouse was filled with industry partners, scholars and taylor's staffs.
All of the fun, sharing of internship experience, advices from the industry partners and also the staff themselves are all priceless.
Here.. finally let michelle's blog get beautified with FINALLY SOME PICTURES..
That's us and the scholarship team from taylorsThere's 3 batches of scholars from 2006-2008
Where are all the guys you must be thinking? Nah, they are busy handling partners (guys are better off socializing, girls? camwhoring of course)There you go a group picture with everyone
Its nice getting to know people who are all rounders, when you stop talking, you observe, and when you observe you learn.
You don't learn by talking, you learn by observing.
Trust me on that.
Try it.. and you'll see why I said so!!
Blast blast blast
dinner was a blast
laugher jokes, serious conversations..
and of course
seeing friends after what 3months long
and some that I'd seldom talked to?
Its nice to be back in college
This year? lets make a difference
UNI HERE I COME =D
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Never trust weighing machines anymore
And I'd been constantly weighing myself lately as I am on the route to.. ahem *coughs* eliminate some of my "muscle turned fats" ...
So I'd been on a not healthy diet, eating less... and as I weigh on my own scale
fuh!!turun dua kg..
NOPE.. don't dream of me disclosing my current weight. its secret. But I bet you guys can guess. But I am not here to comment bout my weight..
Anyway.. went to do a medical check up as I will be off to a camp for a week in march.
You must be wondering what camp so "par pai" need do check up, even NS also I can skip... lol!!!
Its outward bound school in lumut.. bet you have heard about it.. if not? just google :D
Anyway.. doctor weighed me and
So I'd been on a not healthy diet, eating less... and as I weigh on my own scale
fuh!!turun dua kg..
NOPE.. don't dream of me disclosing my current weight. its secret. But I bet you guys can guess. But I am not here to comment bout my weight..
Anyway.. went to do a medical check up as I will be off to a camp for a week in march.
You must be wondering what camp so "par pai" need do check up, even NS also I can skip... lol!!!
Its outward bound school in lumut.. bet you have heard about it.. if not? just google :D
Anyway.. doctor weighed me and
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That's all I have to say. Owh and one more comment. Home weighing scale sucks.. they make you happy, and they make you sad.
Wait .. maybe cause I just ate... that is why my weight didn't change at all. But what
heavier? OMG.. I need to KAM FEEEIIIIII...... next week next week..
anyway, doctor consoled me saying "don't worry, you've got the HEIGHT to HIDE"
now the doctor also can ryhme like me.. aih!!!! nu ren juie tung ..
Sakitnya hati.. anyway.. tonight going off for taylor's dinner at san fransisco steakhouse.. takut jam lagi..
Sleep awhile first.. and maybe an episode of si lai gu san :P
Toodles people..
And oh, this time? I GUESS I'VE COMPLETELY RECOVERED, lost a lover, gained a lesson and also a good friend ;) don't ask me who. you'll know if I want to tell you!!
wakakakakaa
Signing off,
Michelle the poet (claimed yee wah- wei.. study hard wei... ganbate rmbr tell yourself what you want)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
A poem
I think its better to know your things at hand
Then everything can be planned and manipulated
Things had gotten better,
Its just a matter of intention
Whether you want it or not..
I know its words again! But that's what my blog is all about.. bored lame poems lol
Then everything can be planned and manipulated
Things had gotten better,
Its just a matter of intention
Whether you want it or not..
I know its words again! But that's what my blog is all about.. bored lame poems lol
Feeling Life
Little birds chirping loudly on the trees
Calling for their mum that feeds
A gust of wind came, an agent of transporting seeds,
And what I witness, is a snow of falling leaves
Sat on a wooden bench
Facing the lake where couples on boats frenched
Lovey dovey as they seem
We'll not know if there is problem within
What seen by the naked eye
Made humans judge instantly as things passes by,
For once in that park,
alone where the soul searches inside, through the dark.
Discover the purpose of one's truself
living in this world, chasing for love, health and wealth
As bright as we think we are,
failures are the best lessons so far.
In the serenity of the greeneries
Captured the breaths taken away by the sceneries,
The mind relaxes to join the tranquility
That moment you felt, peace found being solitary
A hit in the head,
Flashes thru, pictures in the past like a story, said.
You see yourself in the picture
You wonder why you acted as such, confused for sure.
But you know those days are over
Back you are in the park acknoledging memories are forever
You stand, inhaling the cold breeze
Took a step forward, moving ahead leaving the past unfreeze
Not to live in the past
But to learn and change hoping that makes the future last
Unfreezing the lessons,
turns charcoal into diamonds
You as a charcoal,
Going thru life, working towards your goal
years of chemical reaction, change and with nature as a catalyst
Life becomes fulfilled and colourful like a stage with overwhelming audience to a performer, an artist.
Monday, February 23, 2009
ROACHES ARE MY BIGGEST FEAR
NAME: COCKROACH AKA SIU KEONG
HABITAT: DIRTY PLACES
HABITAT: DIRTY PLACES
SIZE: approximately 3-6 cm in length and width of 1.5cm
SUPERPOWER: FLYING TOWARDS HARMLESS HUMANS
STINKY
LONG LEGS AND ANTELIARS
MY EXPERIENCE WITH ROACHES:
I was always afraid of things that can fly (no not aeroplane, not birds)
especially if they are heading towards me
Years back, I had flying experience with roaches which ended on my hair twice
(which is also why i decided to keep my hair short)
and i can still recall its buzzing sound as if it has just happened.
BERITA TERKINI:
Pada malam yang sejuk, hujan kedengaran kuat di luar rumah, tingkap dibuka untuk ventilation.
(can i have it in english?)
The ever strong, beautiful (ahem ahem.. *coughs*) rough and big sized michelle,
with her daily routine chatting with yee wah with her never ending sad stories online
while spamming people's blog
She somehow realised something is crawling on the bed behind her back
she turned to witness a HUGE COCKCROACH
with WINGS
ON HER PILLOW
On the mission to eliminate the enemy,
she called the headquarters for help ( no response from the masterbedroom)
then she called the Lieutenant (her sister for help)
here's how it went:
MICH: JIEEEEE~!!!! HELP ME.. COCKCROACH
JIE: (half asleep).. WHAT ROACH? PUYAO LA.. M SLEEPING (i know she scared)
MICH: OI WOMAN, DON'T SO SELFISH CAN A NOT..SAVE ME ITS ON MY PILLOWWWWW
FASTER
JIE: AIYO..SENDIRI KAO TIM LA.. COCKCROACHES FLY YOU KNOW.. THEY WILL FLY AWAY.. (BETTER THAN FLY TO ME)
MICH: OIII YOU CANNOT SO SELFISH ONE LO, HOW COULD YOU LEAVE YOUR SISTER ALONE TO HANDLE WITH THE ROACH HERSELF. COME OUT AND HELP
*DOOR CLICKS OPEN*
JIE: SHOULD HAVE JUST SAID I SLEPT
MICH: COME OUT AND HELP ME LA.. PLEASEEEEEE ITS GONNA SHIT ON MY PILLOW..
JIE: YA..AND LAY EGGS TOO
MICH: WOII FAI TIT
Then we started throwing the ridsect bottle to each other.. telling them "you go la" no la you go la
aiyo you go la like that..
So the cockcroach explored my pillow..moving down to the bed
MICH (SCREAMING AWAY) omg... faster (pushes sis inside the room)
from afar, she sprayed the cockcroach
bukannya sampai pun..
but the MR.ROACH FELT THE STINKING BOMB
IT MOVES IT WINGS AND STARTED TO FLY.. towards us, then backwards
Something else flew at the same time. My sister flying to me , screaming and I screamed too.
So we saw MR.ROACH ze spy, struggling with the stinking bomb, flapping its wings, up down up down.. it tried to hang on the wall, but kept falling , couldn't fly finally it fell behind the bed.
I looked at my sister thinking whether she thinks that MR ROACH is certified or not.
JIE: YOU GO CHECK AND SEE
MICH (swallows hard) took the ridsect and walk towards the room to the bed,
jie followed behind..
she said i pull the bed you see k?
I went inside and peep
She took up the matress and screamed
Without knowing what happened I screamed too and ran out of the room with her
MICH: WHAT WHAT?
JIE: ITS UNDER THE BED
MICH: HOW COULD IT BE..
JIE: SERIOUS YOU GO SEE
MICH: NO LO YOU GO SEE LA
*door clicks*
General (muM): WOIII APA NI, I THOUGHT ITS ALREADY MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP, WHY SO NOISY
JIE N ME: GOT COCKCROACH
General (Mum): Please la.. malam malam buta scream like that people thought what.. I want to sleep tomorrow have to work you know?
JIE AND MICH: But.. COCKCROACHES FLYYYYY
General (Mum): cOCKCROACH ONLY MA..
*door slammed behind*
So without asking, me and sis went to check out MR.ROACH AGAIN..this time prepared
We laughed at each other, to release the tension
Then went back into the room...
She spotted the roach upside down moving..
I quickly sprayed another time, incase it attacks with its superpower again
Now 2ominutes later, its still moving
and i'm having that kinda psychological trauma
made my body so itchy omg
hate cockcroaches
if they don't fly, if they are on the ground i'm fine with it
i can even matikan dia
but its on my pillow, if i shake it off
THEY'LL FLY..
that explains the reason why i'm so chicken.
Forgiven right?
DEAD
look at its anteliars.. super long can... omg .. so disgusting
N i'm sleeping over at my sister's room tonight, and I already dump the infected pillow into the rubbish bin, and I think i will not ever let the window terbuka like this again. And i love ridsect for saving my life
Anyway, the roach got me out of the emo-ish environment. at least that moment i totally forgot that i'm emo-ing. At least now the heartache is gone (temporarily) but yea.. thanks mr.roach, though i didn't repay.. but to kill you instead.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Thank you all.
Well, you don't need a wise 50-60 yr old human, who'd gone through alot to give you advices, to provide wisdom to give comfort and listen to you when you're all down and upset
Anyone could cheer you up, could give advices.. a one year old, a 15year old, its whether you want to listen or not...
Of course, my elder sister is the gift, she knew me much better (and i'm so alike her) she knwe so much about me, we shared so much with each other, no secrets, and she knew the moment when I put up so strong in front, means I'm really weak inside.. she was there for me always
I'd just realised that Yee Wah , my newly wedded (batu) wife had been the greatest gift. She was there to support when I'm doing things I wasn't encouraged to, and she was there to provide love when I failed and came back to her upset and devastated.
She had knew me so well, so well, that I feel bad.. for not appreciating her enough..
I felt that, I'd been ignoring alot of people around me, whom cared for me so much! So much
Shien Jean, a 20year old girl i kenw for bout 4-5years, not very close... but she had enlightened me today .. about love ( and just when i thought i knew it all) ... well certain things we do know but its just hidden somewhere in the brain, and a third party needs to knock it out of ya head to give you that " ya, i know kinda feeling"
Both of them definitely put a smile on my face... although still buried within the pain and sadness..
My best valentine's wish was from Lai Shan, she told me, " you're definitely not going to lose me for sure" made me teared..
Queen has always been the wise one always, although lost at times... but her unbelievable quotes really cracks me all the time.. all the time
Tsae Yun, although she always tease me and I always scold her ( omg, she say one lor, i don't think so this is true) but when I needed someone, she's there to comfort me.. and always telling me to trust her more.
Xin Yee, Fong and Mei Yan had always been supportive, we have done so many things together, almost 9 years to date, and we'd been closer each day.. though I seldom join they all.. but the bond is always there..though secrets we seldom share, but definitely when in need, we'll always be there for each other. through and through
There are lots more to mentioned,
My dear sis linda, had always been giving advices I'd never listened. But never failed to back me up when I am completely lost... though she's naughty at times, and though we don't talk much, cause she banyak itu batu punya.. but just love her. i just love her
My bunch of guy friends, though always blur..but they are those who can crack lame jokes and kill me instantly by their level of sarcarsm.
Carmen, Janice Tan, Jan Yap had also been giving alot to me.. showing love.. although we crap most of the time .. my bestie and my two pet sisters..
Ching Yee, one uni mate, that always drives me crazy, but always forgiven.. she's the kindest of all, followed by silly samantha.. they are both now in aussie, and i'll miss em badly..
Names above nt in order, just incase you misunderstood ur rankings.. :D
These days will go (sad days) and those days will come (happy days) things just come and go, the ups and downs will make us grow.. i missed everyone.. so much! And through the downfalls I learn who had always been there for me, I'd learned to discover myself even better
i'd learnt to appreciate things in front of my eyes. even things that are gone..
I'd kept this sms with me for 3months.. and I think its the one thing i really appreciate.
Anyone could cheer you up, could give advices.. a one year old, a 15year old, its whether you want to listen or not...
Of course, my elder sister is the gift, she knew me much better (and i'm so alike her) she knwe so much about me, we shared so much with each other, no secrets, and she knew the moment when I put up so strong in front, means I'm really weak inside.. she was there for me always
I'd just realised that Yee Wah , my newly wedded (batu) wife had been the greatest gift. She was there to support when I'm doing things I wasn't encouraged to, and she was there to provide love when I failed and came back to her upset and devastated.
She had knew me so well, so well, that I feel bad.. for not appreciating her enough..
I felt that, I'd been ignoring alot of people around me, whom cared for me so much! So much
Shien Jean, a 20year old girl i kenw for bout 4-5years, not very close... but she had enlightened me today .. about love ( and just when i thought i knew it all) ... well certain things we do know but its just hidden somewhere in the brain, and a third party needs to knock it out of ya head to give you that " ya, i know kinda feeling"
Both of them definitely put a smile on my face... although still buried within the pain and sadness..
My best valentine's wish was from Lai Shan, she told me, " you're definitely not going to lose me for sure" made me teared..
Queen has always been the wise one always, although lost at times... but her unbelievable quotes really cracks me all the time.. all the time
Tsae Yun, although she always tease me and I always scold her ( omg, she say one lor, i don't think so this is true) but when I needed someone, she's there to comfort me.. and always telling me to trust her more.
Xin Yee, Fong and Mei Yan had always been supportive, we have done so many things together, almost 9 years to date, and we'd been closer each day.. though I seldom join they all.. but the bond is always there..though secrets we seldom share, but definitely when in need, we'll always be there for each other. through and through
There are lots more to mentioned,
My dear sis linda, had always been giving advices I'd never listened. But never failed to back me up when I am completely lost... though she's naughty at times, and though we don't talk much, cause she banyak itu batu punya.. but just love her. i just love her
My bunch of guy friends, though always blur..but they are those who can crack lame jokes and kill me instantly by their level of sarcarsm.
Carmen, Janice Tan, Jan Yap had also been giving alot to me.. showing love.. although we crap most of the time .. my bestie and my two pet sisters..
Ching Yee, one uni mate, that always drives me crazy, but always forgiven.. she's the kindest of all, followed by silly samantha.. they are both now in aussie, and i'll miss em badly..
Names above nt in order, just incase you misunderstood ur rankings.. :D
These days will go (sad days) and those days will come (happy days) things just come and go, the ups and downs will make us grow.. i missed everyone.. so much! And through the downfalls I learn who had always been there for me, I'd learned to discover myself even better
i'd learnt to appreciate things in front of my eyes. even things that are gone..
I'd kept this sms with me for 3months.. and I think its the one thing i really appreciate.
Dated 2 december 2008
darl, suddenly i felt like my world is like being brighten
felt like you'll always be there for me through and through
fel like i'll not have to worry
felt like there's nothing to be afraid of
it just gave me strength and courage.
And i hope i really did..thanks for such a wonderful moment.. thank you so much
Friday, February 20, 2009
Tagged by sandra OH
1. What are you currently reading?
2. What are your favourite books?
Follow your heart by Andrew Matthew
Tuesday's with morrie by Mitch Albom
3. What are your favourite movies?
World Trade Centre, Finding Nemo, Happy Feet, The Shutter ( Horror, Comedy or Sentimental)
4. What is your favourite snack?
Tit-Bits, anything, meat? lol
5. What is your type of tea?
Jasmine tea hot
6. Where do you mostly find your photo-loves?
apa ini?...
7. What is more intense to you - pictures or words?
Words but pictures gimme a sense of longing..
8. Would you rather be an artist or a writer?
Artist in terms of acting and performing (yes) writer in terms of crap and releasing stress (yes)
9. What are your favorite magazines?
DOn't buy magz
10. Which program do you make your collages?
Don't do them.
11. If you could live any where you wanted to right now, where would it be?
A place where close to nature, peaceful and quiet
12. What is your favorite(s) flower(s)?
No specific ones perhaps never gotten a flower that's why
13. What perfume do you use?
NOt using any.
14. What is your favorite accessory?
Ipod touch
15. Where are your favourite places to shop?
Places where they have the things i WANT
16. What is your personal style?
Nothing feminine lol
17. What does your wardrobe consist of?
PLenty of clothes that I no longer fit in
18. What is your favourite beauty product?
Natural beauty lol
19. What is your favourite kind of shoe?
Currently? Canvas shoes
20. Finally, complete the following sentence. I dream of…traveling all over the world, inspiring little children to dare dream about what they want, and go for it.
And plenty plenty more.. that I BECOME UNFOCUSED most of the time
Friday, February 13, 2009
Genting fun to tragedy to fun
so i thought i would enjoy my trip today!till some busuk hati orang took my 145cash n my concert tickets away when i wasn't paying attention on my envelope which i put on my lap!didn't i noticed it slipped.moments later i realuse it was gone!!!!mad am i!!went to lodge police report!manage to claim room.ticket wise to know later but according to authorities, ican still go tothe concert!!sadly i can't reprint my ticket!!!that is so strssing me up!!since my dear friends so tired due to clubbing last night...m here all alone in starbucks having hot choc with. my ipod BLOGGING...thank god it's here to accompany me...bad day or nt i dunno!!friends sleeping...m bored!!going theme park alone later!!!sigh..i lost 145bucks...hate that busuk hati orang..but hope it will "por choi tong choi"
Monday, January 12, 2009
~ a little note ~
When the intention to stay is wrong, most likely the inner self will not respond to it…
If it ain’t what you want, even the ego side of you says that YOU NEED TO PROVE SOMETHING, that you’re not as such person.. that you can do better than what people concluded on your work.. your inner self will not respond to it
So when it is considered that your intention is right? That you’re happy doing it?
It’s like giving a call to your girlfriend giving them a surprise outside her house?
It’s like cooking your boyfriend breakfast
It’s like playing with your pets
It’s like winning a computer game
It’s like having a fun night out with your friends
It’s just doing it, not for someone, not cause of someone, not cause of anything
It’s cause you feel like doing it, its like craving.. you feel like having kfc wedges (actually that’s really my craving for now =P ) And the satisfaction you get after eating those wedges. The joy in you.. ( although it is FATTENING)
When you’re willing to do something, when you’re feeling like doing something, cause you want to do it, and there’s no other reason behind it, when you accomplish the task, the serenity in you was different from what you’d experience..
It’s like… a relief, a satisfaction, a joy, “the inner peace”
Isn’t the secret fantastic? Go grab one now, reminiscence and fine peace within yourself, within the secret…
Do you realise that each time when you think about something that you don’t want, for example, a fight with your partner, family, maybe scoldings from your boss, maybe a scratch on your car, maybe a bad grade for your studies… all these, frustrates you, all these sucks your energy from within.. and you realise you get weaker by the day, and things will get worst..
So why feel unhappy, and make yourself feel worst, when the situation itself is not worth worrying about, cause its done.. rather seek solutions, and think about what you want to do, remember, think good, speak good, and feel good about things
Think think, have a tinkle.. ask yourself if you’re at most peace when you’re you, when you do what you want, when you think what you want,
When you think about owning your dream house/man/car (how you feel) great isn’t it?
When you think about getting a PSP perhaps Iphone (how you feel?)
Desire creates energy, but don’t just think, feel yourself having it, savouring the pleasure, and work your actions to it. The power of mind and feelings, when combine is the power of secret… then, you will, with your own thoughts and actions brings what you .want to you
If it ain’t what you want, even the ego side of you says that YOU NEED TO PROVE SOMETHING, that you’re not as such person.. that you can do better than what people concluded on your work.. your inner self will not respond to it
So when it is considered that your intention is right? That you’re happy doing it?
It’s like giving a call to your girlfriend giving them a surprise outside her house?
It’s like cooking your boyfriend breakfast
It’s like playing with your pets
It’s like winning a computer game
It’s like having a fun night out with your friends
It’s just doing it, not for someone, not cause of someone, not cause of anything
It’s cause you feel like doing it, its like craving.. you feel like having kfc wedges (actually that’s really my craving for now =P ) And the satisfaction you get after eating those wedges. The joy in you.. ( although it is FATTENING)
When you’re willing to do something, when you’re feeling like doing something, cause you want to do it, and there’s no other reason behind it, when you accomplish the task, the serenity in you was different from what you’d experience..
It’s like… a relief, a satisfaction, a joy, “the inner peace”
Isn’t the secret fantastic? Go grab one now, reminiscence and fine peace within yourself, within the secret…
Do you realise that each time when you think about something that you don’t want, for example, a fight with your partner, family, maybe scoldings from your boss, maybe a scratch on your car, maybe a bad grade for your studies… all these, frustrates you, all these sucks your energy from within.. and you realise you get weaker by the day, and things will get worst..
So why feel unhappy, and make yourself feel worst, when the situation itself is not worth worrying about, cause its done.. rather seek solutions, and think about what you want to do, remember, think good, speak good, and feel good about things
Think think, have a tinkle.. ask yourself if you’re at most peace when you’re you, when you do what you want, when you think what you want,
When you think about owning your dream house/man/car (how you feel) great isn’t it?
When you think about getting a PSP perhaps Iphone (how you feel?)
Desire creates energy, but don’t just think, feel yourself having it, savouring the pleasure, and work your actions to it. The power of mind and feelings, when combine is the power of secret… then, you will, with your own thoughts and actions brings what you .want to you
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
The sense of L.O.N.G.I.N.G,
dESPERATEEEEEEE
hAHAHAH...but i don't think I want it enough
BOYS?
BF?
MONEY?
NOOOO
its WORK
...
Today the entire marketing team is having their monthly meeting I suppose
So i peeped.. ( i know its ethically inappropriate, but you have to understand that I'M DESPERATE to be in there)
I see graphs, and charts... I guess their doing product performance and FY09's marketing activity planning! OMG
If only i'm inside.. IF ONLY...
Then i'll learn! Sigh.. What kinda intern I got myself into
Perhaps I didn't want IT ENOUGH
I need to want it MORE
INSIDE... now spending te 1st two hours at work..EMO-ING... wanting to be inside
Took 3 days leave!!! Hmmm... new years coming..planning holidays as well!!!...yay..
hAHAHAH...but i don't think I want it enough
BOYS?
BF?
MONEY?
NOOOO
its WORK
...
Today the entire marketing team is having their monthly meeting I suppose
So i peeped.. ( i know its ethically inappropriate, but you have to understand that I'M DESPERATE to be in there)
I see graphs, and charts... I guess their doing product performance and FY09's marketing activity planning! OMG
If only i'm inside.. IF ONLY...
Then i'll learn! Sigh.. What kinda intern I got myself into
Perhaps I didn't want IT ENOUGH
I need to want it MORE
INSIDE... now spending te 1st two hours at work..EMO-ING... wanting to be inside
Took 3 days leave!!! Hmmm... new years coming..planning holidays as well!!!...yay..
Monday, January 05, 2009
The Dayyy when you R.E.A.L.I.S.E
Thans sj (shien jean) for the support =) ..take care in Manchester..
Fuh!!!
Sometimes, people get very obssessed, with their intention... all i did was for you, (without bothering if its good or bad) People get the right intention (save the family, make money for the family, earn for the family) but they might not do the right thing (steal, kill or any other crimes)
To them, they are blinded by their intention..
Humans have 2 options:
Doing things right
Doing the right thing
How this apply? (don't know if i'd repeated it but hell, its my blog.. lol!! i feel like being philosophical today)
...
Hmm, doing the right thing and doing things right, sounds confusing.. ei? Isn't it the same? you may ask...
some do the right thing, with the wrong way, huh? how can it be right and wrong at the same time?
.. perhaps..you are studying.. (its the right thing for a student) but last minute work, getting tips , copying other work is the wrong way...
..perhaps.. you wanna educate/teach/protect someone, but not allowing that someone to understand, hiding that someone from the truth, or even brainwashing them is the wrong way..
So, its not just bout having the right intention is important..but rather, doing it the right way is important..
So its not bout making the right decision, its about making the right decision at the right time. Alan Mcgirvan says in positive minutes... it is better to make the wrong decision at the right time, then to make the right decision at the wrong time..
Now where have i got myself diverted..weren't we talking bout the right thing and things right?.. lol
We need both, we need to have the RIGHT intention and do the right thing .. and use the right way...
Although i'm not practicing it.. so *coughs* lesson for the day ends here.. :D
Today, i kena lash at something i wasn't at fault at.. lol what language. I was trying to say, I should be more understanding, when after holidays workload piles and being stressed up is kinda normal. But I feel very unhappy when I became the victim twice, even when I try to understand.. hmm, but all well ends well.. the matter subsided and.. we were colleagues again!!!.. =P
Tired... and i can't surf in the office, cause the laptop was reformated.. omg.. and I couldn't get queen or mun mun.. their mobile says the same thing "the number you have dialed is not in service" omg they kena kidnap?...
Aih.. jan tan dumped me and went cameron! I mean, without me..hahahaha.. she didn't dump me la.. i wasn't hers also :P
SHAN IS back in spore with buddy. New year is coming.. 21st birthday year.. meaning..HOR PAO CHUIN LUNG TIME..somemore m going holiday.. omg.. kung seiiiii..hahahahahaha... hope you all understand if my present get a little KEDEKUT yea.. :P
I think i should zz now.. before I fall asleep at my workstation and become a laughing stock again (like what happened today, discovered by colleagues - caught redhanded sleeping omg.. thank god i didn't snore, and thank god, it wasn't my boss, tho he's just seated RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME :p )
Long post.. nights
Pictures on sky trex here
http://www.broken-string.net/
sky trex
Fuh!!!
Sometimes, people get very obssessed, with their intention... all i did was for you, (without bothering if its good or bad) People get the right intention (save the family, make money for the family, earn for the family) but they might not do the right thing (steal, kill or any other crimes)
To them, they are blinded by their intention..
Humans have 2 options:
Doing things right
Doing the right thing
How this apply? (don't know if i'd repeated it but hell, its my blog.. lol!! i feel like being philosophical today)
...
Hmm, doing the right thing and doing things right, sounds confusing.. ei? Isn't it the same? you may ask...
some do the right thing, with the wrong way, huh? how can it be right and wrong at the same time?
.. perhaps..you are studying.. (its the right thing for a student) but last minute work, getting tips , copying other work is the wrong way...
..perhaps.. you wanna educate/teach/protect someone, but not allowing that someone to understand, hiding that someone from the truth, or even brainwashing them is the wrong way..
So, its not just bout having the right intention is important..but rather, doing it the right way is important..
So its not bout making the right decision, its about making the right decision at the right time. Alan Mcgirvan says in positive minutes... it is better to make the wrong decision at the right time, then to make the right decision at the wrong time..
Now where have i got myself diverted..weren't we talking bout the right thing and things right?.. lol
We need both, we need to have the RIGHT intention and do the right thing .. and use the right way...
Although i'm not practicing it.. so *coughs* lesson for the day ends here.. :D
Today, i kena lash at something i wasn't at fault at.. lol what language. I was trying to say, I should be more understanding, when after holidays workload piles and being stressed up is kinda normal. But I feel very unhappy when I became the victim twice, even when I try to understand.. hmm, but all well ends well.. the matter subsided and.. we were colleagues again!!!.. =P
Tired... and i can't surf in the office, cause the laptop was reformated.. omg.. and I couldn't get queen or mun mun.. their mobile says the same thing "the number you have dialed is not in service" omg they kena kidnap?...
Aih.. jan tan dumped me and went cameron! I mean, without me..hahahaha.. she didn't dump me la.. i wasn't hers also :P
SHAN IS back in spore with buddy. New year is coming.. 21st birthday year.. meaning..HOR PAO CHUIN LUNG TIME..somemore m going holiday.. omg.. kung seiiiii..hahahahahaha... hope you all understand if my present get a little KEDEKUT yea.. :P
I think i should zz now.. before I fall asleep at my workstation and become a laughing stock again (like what happened today, discovered by colleagues - caught redhanded sleeping omg.. thank god i didn't snore, and thank god, it wasn't my boss, tho he's just seated RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME :p )
Long post.. nights
Pictures on sky trex here
http://www.broken-string.net/
sky trex
Friday, January 02, 2009
Updates.. New year this year round was fun! Countdown then impromptu sky trex event till steamboat and PLENTY of monopoly rounds!!!! wwakakaka.. and I made Lai Shan bancrupt!!wakakakakakakak
Pictures up tonight.. office cannot read my memory card tak tau kenapa... or you can opt for ah fongs blog.. that's if she had upddated :D
Pictures up tonight.. office cannot read my memory card tak tau kenapa... or you can opt for ah fongs blog.. that's if she had upddated :D
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