Sometimes, its always easier to blame other people. Why? Cause if you realise that it is your fault or mistake, you'll take it hard yourself. Feeling guilty, feeling unhappy, feeling angry and upset.

That is why you blame others. But I can't. Today, somehow I felt angry at myself for not doing my best when I know I could (yes, I know i'm being hard on myself again)...

People come and tell you, you'll be fine, that you need a life and all.. very true. I do agree that.

But I just feel like getting emotional ( I know since I ever blogged, I'd shown the emo side of me more often, some could almost not believe that I have problems got a shock reading my posts)

I've gotta feel this, for life has a balance. Disappointments, failures, mistakes, are those that made me learn, grow, mature, and have gratitude to things that I can achieve.

These also made me feel less superior towards other people, and I learn to speak to a friend, to chat and to listen. I like being around people, making them laugh.. and when i'm back home, with loved ones, and close friends, and my other half, i'm quiet, i'm cool.. i'm different.. (why has it gone to this area, i also don't know)

I have alot of things in mind (like my unfinished tutorial, like my advertising assignment grade, like my t-shirt meeting tomorrow, like my malacca trip next week, like my club stuff, like my options after graduation).. arghhh..so much to do..so less time.

Blasting jordin sparks "one step at a time" in my room now.. hmmm.. i need tranquility.
Will switch to classics after I wash up for bed..

There's always no turning back, only a "no more next time" or do better next time. So, end todays misery today, and start a brand new day tomorrow. perhaps the next minute. Grief and detach.. laws of attraction. Cannot let today affect tomorrow. chillax .. says tigger.

Kla..chilling now