Free

Many times in a day,

Things happen and it reminds you seconds in the past...

One moment you missed that feeling

One moment you are glad its over..

For me, I'm so grateful that I once owned those moments

I was startled seeing this cliche,

Why be sad over what you'd lost

But not being happy that you once cherished

Bla bla blaaaa...

Finally its all over..

If i didn't want to move on.. I can't

That was why i'm stuck at a dead end,

blinded by haze caused by the fire i created..

years past.. i thought i'm still stucked

everything is so blurry

dark..

one day, i saw a dimmed light in the midst of the hazy environment

i approached the light

having my hands feeling the front

as i couldn't see

There i found,

a small hole at a window, i never knew existed

it was there all the while

a window, there for years

as i open the window, i found the sunny weather with

fresh air i'd been longing for..

this was the beauty i'd missed all this years?

i chuckled.. as i looked back to the space behind me

the haze escaped through the window

i start to see what had been surrounding me

so clearly..

i looked back to the window and

take a deep breath

i realise i'm free..

most of the time the chance is given to me

i'd not even tried letting go

i thought i deserve to be locked in that room

i never want to be out of that room

Now that its over

i should be out of the box..

out of that room

and i'll put a door to the room

and cleans up the mess in it

Things had changed

I'd been ignorant

in the state of denial

and never again ...

toods past

welcome future

i'm free