Everyone was right

I made a rush decision recently, thinking that that would be the only way to let go of my past. My sis said, that is stupid. You're just putting a wall around you that blinds everything. The moment the wall is removed, you'll think about the same thing again. 3yrs down the road, you'll still have that in your heart.
The right way is to be able to talk to that someone without holding feelings on that person. She's RIGHT. She is RIGHT. Why can't i let go of him?? He just came in and be apart of my life. Sis said, you read so many motivation books, why can't you apply something that you read? She was right again ( Hmmm...sis i'm glad i shared this with you.. i always tot telling you will be the hardest as it is the biggest secret. I'm glad you accepted it and back me up..LOVE YA SIS(I NOE I NVR TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU..BUT I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU))

I am right now hiding from the problem. Janice was right, it wouldn't solve the problem if i'm acting so. Mei yan was right, the most important thing, is not avoidin, is not have feeling bout it. Yee Wah was right, i had to stop thinking about it. Cause it'll only drags my life. Beatrice was right, it's not the best alternative. I 'll hurt people more than solving them.

But how?? But how.. its me not willing to let go. Shit!! WTF.. the problem is with me. I'm sorry to that someone. I know i'd hurt you. I know i was wrong. Its the source that is causing all this. And the source is me. I felt like crying now.. My heart is heavy. I can't... if i could only do the right thing. I can only correct my mistakes. No 2nd chance

I need to let it out