it is so difficult to live life as it is.

M i being too sensitive? But the warmth was not there. The link was gone. Its like .. i actually don't feel anything seeing THEM. i actually thought i would be all excited, i was excited before they come. But no, i was more excited hearing Yee Wah gettting admissions to Spre, and others too. I was really excited, and we smile more.

But i was not natural. I don't know why. I thought i would be all up!!!.. But i wasn't... It was artificial. what was i looking for in the situation? I think i bored them off to hell. Maybe that's what they say bout the caste system. On a different level, people treat others differently.

I guess i cared too much. Till i lost myself... i'm glad that i did not lose everyone. Yea.. I think I finally knew who's worth it and who's not.

It has been so normal that we just don't click anymore. Not in style in fashion in food in anything
Of course, i'm still me, and they are still them. But different views. No longer crazy. No longer lame. Serious and steady...

Well, guess everyone gets older, and thinks maturely already. It happens everytime, but i'd been denying it. I guess, that should be enough? No more is no more. Lets just hope things would brighten up..