EVer wondered how inspiring one could be?

Its the fire you felt while getting people to work for their dreams and be contented with what they have now. Gratitude

Today, I took time to tell someone my dreams, and my inspiration to make the world an oyster to me.. somehow, she got my msg, and we kinda get along well. She's one that actually understands, the power within us.

At the other corner of the word, there i encounter numerous contradictions that .. i am trying to settle? rationalise? segregate? them out to pros and cons.

It seems like, its fated that one should not turn back and try to salvage the missing bond for almost 2years already. Well it was not that bad.. but it did not go any better...

Is it meant to be? Or is it just me?

I looked silly, trying my best to work things out, and knowing the other party is waiting, waiting for you to come, and I was almost there, but i feel very tired already... I do sometimes feel very tired..

Not that there's one to blame. Maybe tomorrow i would think that, i am childish for feeling so, for being sensitive. But isn't all this temporary feelings, my guts, my instincts telling me something i would have done years ago, or maybe something that i should continue doing? or maybe something i failed doing but should try again??

This moment here, I think again, from a 401 down to a 50 character msg? Merely answering the marks that were questioned..

How tired can one be, if i asked once, and the reply was just a word, i kept asking questions to make it alive..but no, i feel the coldness.. maybe there wasn't any intention to correspond...

I'm so tired of asking, but i do wanna concern.. ish.. emo-ish girl..

time to zz.. will continue tomorrow..

will you continue trying, if you knew.. you're the only one trying

will you keep working, if you knew, you're the only one who cared

will you stop the nonsense, but knowing you could not let go..

will you

would you

do you

should you

Its ur actions that made you pure? or is your heart that is doing so,

Going to church everyday, but rob and kill does not make you a true christian

Being a vegetarian but having greed and anger is no better than a meat eater whose kind

Where does this leads to?

Birth, is suffering, being together with the unpleasant is suffering, being seperated with the pleasant is suffering.

Does buddhism forces one to suffer throughout their lives? Or does it seek to end the sufferings that is faced by humanity.

Seek the cause and put an end to it. These righteous philosophies existed million yeears ago, but it was hidden by greed and the other dark intentions that drowned humanity nowadays.

Buddha himself did not create these commandments, but he embraced em, and preached to the world.

The wisdom that lies within the teachings , simple but wise words. Ironic, hard to adapt, but its just one simple sentence.

Today, i embraced buddhism, and have removed all doubts, negativity and greed in my life, my values, my perception. I would practice to be as pure, as Buddha himself wants us to, to investigate, to seek for the right path, to understand the truth...

Shall i not judge from what i see, hear or perceive, Buddha himself said, keep an open mind, for what is told by others may not be the truth, for what seen may be deceiving, for what is perceived my be wrong.

missing those days...

t bizaar ... ugly...but candid...nice
english presentation!!!! owh m in skirt???
last badminton game???mss those days
small cozy... prom 2006
free kick line up... like prisoners oni
in d blues... harassing me la u girls
me n lisaaaaa at genting
cny 2007??..happiest n saddest day in my life

sept 07,malacca trip

aowd april 2008... alldoing diving signs
malacca march 08 with sabians..COOL
THIS GIRLS are not light
doing navigation... 30degrees 210 degrees?I'M LOST

i want these days again... i don't like now

it is so difficult to live life as it is.

M i being too sensitive? But the warmth was not there. The link was gone. Its like .. i actually don't feel anything seeing THEM. i actually thought i would be all excited, i was excited before they come. But no, i was more excited hearing Yee Wah gettting admissions to Spre, and others too. I was really excited, and we smile more.

But i was not natural. I don't know why. I thought i would be all up!!!.. But i wasn't... It was artificial. what was i looking for in the situation? I think i bored them off to hell. Maybe that's what they say bout the caste system. On a different level, people treat others differently.

I guess i cared too much. Till i lost myself... i'm glad that i did not lose everyone. Yea.. I think I finally knew who's worth it and who's not.

It has been so normal that we just don't click anymore. Not in style in fashion in food in anything
Of course, i'm still me, and they are still them. But different views. No longer crazy. No longer lame. Serious and steady...

Well, guess everyone gets older, and thinks maturely already. It happens everytime, but i'd been denying it. I guess, that should be enough? No more is no more. Lets just hope things would brighten up..

Glooomy

WHY? i don't know.. the heart felt heavy.. its like suddenly everything around me does not link. They all seemed different. By themselves. In particles.

I'm blank.. i'm lost!!! It feels like i'm almost there, but NOT QUITE THERE yet. Where am i????

Hrmmm.. manu vs chelsea tomorrow morning.. is that why? don't think so.

Maybe cause the semester is ending and i'm still kinda lost in my studies. Finals bout few weeks away.. but how?...

Maybe its the woman thing again. Maybe i need attention. Maybe i want to be loved. M giving myself a pat on the shoulder

takes deep breath. phewwww.. there goes a new day in 3 hours time. Smile dear, smile

OMG

Hahahahah..i just heard from someone that they are working for the same person i worked with.. OMFG...

I worked at a place for 3months, then my position was replaced by my schoolmate for 3months (however, she left within a month due to studies) so .. i thought wow... at least 2 person from SAB rite? not bad..

suddenly, got this person who went for interview ... potentially became 3rd candidate to be, but somehow not her luck.. she replaced hsiao toong instead.

I thought sure maybe got a permaneant staff d lar.. SEE SEE.. its si POLLY.. lol.. replacing million!!!! omg..

THe whole bank is stuffed with SABIANS weii..damn funny.. its either we're really good? or we are really cheap..lol!!!!

I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING

OMG.. THERE'S QUOTA?

I GOT DROOLING STUNNED when i saw this fella imposting him/herself as the blogger team to close my blog down if i DON'T UPDATE..

WOW.. impressive.. At 1st glance. i thought its for real. For some reason. After weeks, people do come and ask me to update. I did not know people READ my posts.

cAUSE its not entertaining, no pictures.. no nothing. LOL just my lame complaints and.. WORDS..

Then i tried something funny. and KENNY replied.. omg.. how impressive.. hahahahaha


The best thing was found out bout Sarah. CBOX actually censor foul languages.. omg.. thatts so ...
i don't know what word to use here.. so noble?but its good also la.. avoiding ppl to spam at my blog..

there u go updates :P

Quite a number of my friends who excelled in their A levels and Form 6 manage to get admission to SIngapore's top 2 unis NTU and NUS..

wow.... so happy for em... some even manage to get scholarships tim!!! Aren't they great.. SABIANS are great people, great personality, academically great.. wow..

So happy so happy

but also sad.. cause they are leaving me.. No one to play badminton with already, no one to hike with already no one to yum cha with already..

fong going kampar.. left me n xin yee here only..

abUT OF COURSE...future more important mar... go ahead girls.. u've got my support...i know you can do well, get rich and buy me ticket to spre so i can visit you girls..

Eeeee..so happy so happy

Limiting your beliefs

NLP - Neuro Linguistic Programming was one of the courses i'd been recently exposed to by a Rotarian Advisor for my college. He told all of us, something that we never realised..

Which is to go beyond your beliefs.

We are brought up in a parental guidance where everything is a NO or a CAN'T.

Don't play in the river, you'll drown.
Don't Climb that tree, you'll fall and break your legs
DOn't go out, you''ll get robbed, kidnapped, banged
You need tuition, you CAN'T cope with the studies
Stay away from fire, they BURN...

All this principles are instilled in our mind, unconsciously, cause it happened long time ago, then it turns to fear. Because you're never allowed to do it yourself, parents limit our beliefs.

We know we can't go in the river, we'll drown..
We know we need plenty of tuition, we can't study ourselves.

Who told you that?Have you tried to go in the river? No, i just can't.. i WILL drown.

Well, its limiting yourself. Even painful experiences limit people... Get burn by boiling water, and you'll never boil again. When you believe that the world is going upside down, it WILL.

When you believe that your mum is going to scold you for the mess in your room, she WILL. why? cause you believed in it, you expected it to happen.

Ask yourself, if your parents weren't there to limit your beliefs, are you what you are now?

Many people fall badly, but they climb back up, and fall again, but they never stop trying, because they believe, they will succeed one day. Thomas Edison tried 10000 times to create a light bulb.

wHO would think that man can make it to space 100years ago? To them, its nonsense. They are limited by the surroundings, the beliefs.

There's this example my rotarian gave. Last time, a man went down with one breath underwater, and reach a depth of 100 metres.. a doctor that time said, thats the furthest a human can go, anything deeper kills. NOW the record is held by a woman, who dip 200metres more with one breath and came out ALIVE.

The 4minute mile. Researchers said, the fastest a man can go is 4 minutes a mile. A man did it 1second less, in weeks, dozens broke the record, why? Because they see a possibility, and they believe they can.

Have you ever believed in yourself that you can pass all your papers?
or be whatever you ever dreamed of?

Believe in yourself, work on it, and see the difference.

Ur unconscious mind cannot tell which is real and which isn't. Feel yourself jumping across the bar, feel yourself excelling in the exam.. and believe in it, work on it.. and whoalaaa..the results?

REMARKABLE.

lesson of the day, do not limit your beliefs, anything is possible.

NOthing is impossible, it just takes longer. Factors my forbear you, financially, emotionally, permissions, regulations, orders, and the must dos..

Not now?but there's always tomorrow. And later... I can't reach the cabinet. Well, jump more, exercise grow tall, 2years.. you're all over the cabinet.

So easy meh? It is really that easy. So long you believe you can, you always can. Never doubt your capabilities, cause it only stops you from doing what you want to.

busy busy busy

SORRY GUYS..

know you all always drop by and gets disappointed when its the similar posts again.

Well, i'm having 2exams this week, two assignments due next week, and another 2 assignments due week after, and 1 due 3weeks later, then 1week break then MY FINALS..

i'm trying to push up my gpa level to a possible 6pointer, therefore, will be busy... working hard

So.. i'll see you guys after June???

Take care..