I'm not someone who likes to wait..

neither am i someone who likes to ask again and again whether it is confirm or not..

So, i get annoyed asking, and i didn't even blow up. Instead i just asked if I'm irritating the other party or not.

But all i get is, a comment saying that they don't LIKE me saying that. Because they never say that.

I didn't even SAY they DID.. i just ASKED if i AM or not. Because i THINK i am

What is wrong, when i ask to decide where to go, for their convenience. And asking a few times, just to get back a respond asking me to tell em where to go?

I'm not fetching and neither am i driving my car. What rights do i have. I feel bad to make people come all the way, or making decisions and giving people difficulties. And all i get is the word PISSED!!!

I'm not mad now. I just don't understand, how it worked for other people. Usually, i asked just once, and double confirm. When i don't get answers, I ask again. And when they still don't answer, usually i get the implication that either they don't want to answer or they think i'm irritating. So.. i wouldn't wanna put the blame on them. So i question whether am i pestering or not. Its a question. I guess maybe they are bored answering me. That i am not pestering.

I just hate repeating questions that people either they don't want to answer or they don't know how to answer. And, when i decided to make the decision, and ask their opinion. They emphasize on the 3word phrase m i irritating rather than the solution.

Which concludes.. NO SOLUTION .and the thing got stucked. Then i have to apologise. I think i'm wrong for always asking the same question again and again. But i can't help it if they don't answer. And i can't help it if they are not responding to their questions. So? I prompt them questions. on whether am i disturbing or annoying them or not. Cause THEY DON'T SEEM TO ANSWER ME. NEITHER DO THEY SOUND ok.

And i get a word PISSED.

I don't know what i should do.. Can anyone help me? Am i at fault? I don't wanna put people at fault. This is really depressing.

Rally again??

Aiseh... apa jadi yer... pun takde kena mengena dengan i..sorry picture uploading to be done tonight.. office denied my access to memory cards..lol

CNY coming..was exchanging cny songs with colleagues just now..filled the office with CNY songs... so funny..and it lives up the spirit..lol...

opz..boss's around... toods

So proud of you girls

Hmm.... so proud of you girls, initially "million" did the job...scored a flat 3.. lol

Now.. the other two girls did it.. a flat FOUR..wow.. i'm just so happy and so proud. But since you all TWO didn't give me response.. I also ambik sikap TIDAK APA LA...wong xeung ng kap ng tung tai kam kap meh..lol

Its definitely not easy to do alevels.. You bet.. scoring A is even harder.. but you girls did a FOUR FLAT?...wow.. how?..

Hahahaa..hope you'll be able to get what you wanted. I bless you all with everything lor.. everything yang i ada..:)

See you all for badminton again soon!!!=)

Pictures of yiying's bday and dinner ..to be uploaded tmr..

Heroes Marathon

I can do lots of things in 10hours.. go out, movies, makan, bath, sleep, yea.. sleep..but i chose HEROES. yesterday, starworld had Heroes marathon, a series i wanted to watch long time ago, but i can never follow up. So.. i spent 10hrs from 2pm till 12am watching Heroes.

My eyes are now swollen, and tired. YET..i'm working!! Heroes definitely a good series. Interesting enough to keep me watching. My mum was like, " how could you spend 10hours.. on A COUCH WATCHING THE SAME SERIES??"

ObvioUSLy.. she's MAD. cause i'm not doing house chores. lol.. anyway. i get a share in Thaipusam public holiday.. NO.. hahaha.the whole KL got a share in Thaipusam. Cause PM Declare PB for KL wednesday..

YAY!!!from this year, PB on thaipusam is a no skip.

Wakakakaka.. now, swollen and lethargic, i guess its time to work today..

shld i go to the dinner tomorrow *think think*

Cost of living vs Standard of living

Sigh..

Isn't it time we stop comparing with other nations? I think its approximately the same when we compare dollar to dollar or ringgit to ringgit basis. However, the cost of living in Malaysia is rather high.

For example, an average white collar personnel earns RM2000-3000 on average, buys a computer at a range of RM1500-2000 on average. In Hong Kong, computers costs about 2OK in Hongkie dollars, but their salary goes to like 30-40k average for a primary school teacher.

To compare would be not fair. A garbage collector in UK earns about 3-4k pounds a month, ours here? RM800 is considered high..

The food here, almost everything are at rising costs.. a normal mee of RM 4.50 increased to RM 4.80 when the flour prices increased bout 20cents A KG.
When the price is being set, having price ceilings to protect consumers, since the retailers can't increase price. THEY REDUCE THE PORTION.. trust me.. sushi _ _ _ _ is just doing that. Hmmm... marketing plans i would say.

Anyway, although the cost of living is high, but.. Malaysia is still a good place to stay despite increasing crime rates and etc. I just love the food here. and I'm still proud being a Malaysian for having, you know.. used to be tallest building and 3rd tallest tower in the world. We are a small country, having to achieve that much is already.. something we should be grateful and proud of.

12years down the road would be 2020, a vision, our 4th Prime Minister has implemented and it would be a target to achieve. 9 CHallenges. Are we ready? Lets just wait and see ..12 years of waiting is long.

Died 3 times?

Was thinking how lucky i was to escape death 3 times.

1: Yesterday, as i was walking to my mum's office. I rush to the zebra crossing as it was BLINKING its way to RED. Of course, i didn't make it when i got there. Somehow, the cars are still not moving yet cause its still Red light for them. So, I thought that i could try. As i was running through, I was at the middle of the road when the light struck GREEN. All the cars start moving, and the toyota let me pass, but after the toyota, comes a speeding motorist, He almost terpelanting, emergency brake to avoid me. OPz..

2. This morning, i went down to the shop to get some light bulbs for mum. As i was walking back, i need to cross the road, paying attention on the smelly rubbish lorry.. I cross the road without looking right. Then the rubbish man started screaming at me.. woi woi woi.. i thought what is it, tak pernah tengok leng lui ka. I looked back, just to see an iswara an inch away from my body, i'D ONLY realise i didn't look at the road.. lol.

3. So i run pass to the other side of the road, where the rubbish lorry is, without looking again, the black myvi gotta brake so hard to avoid me, luckily after the iswara no car, cause the myvi swung to the right side of the road. LOL

i could cause the myvi driver death too.

But i'm here posting. So? i think i died three times within 24hrs. Is it a sign? Maybe tomorrow i wouldn't be so lucky.. =)

ITS UNFAIR

Just because they know i wont treat them the same again, things change. Of course, it can be repaired. But nah. Sensitivity has just increased among us and things had been harder. We are working things out hoping that it could mend the broken net.

Asking which place to get it doesn't mean i want you to get it for me. But just want a confirmation where.

Times and times, i think its not worth the friendship. But times and times again, when i recall how much people had done and only did no longer doing, I would be grateful and thankful
How can i ask for more, when i'm only just A FRIEND. hahahaha.. but that was what i wanted, now i tak puas pulak... hahaha..sendiri cari pasal la ni!!!

What is there to hold myself on. Nothing. Of course. I'm not giving up here. Just wanna complain a little. And.. i had a real bad dream yesterday. My mum found out about my secrets, what happened next? I woke up and told myself, its not funny.


Lol.. I hate AUTOMATED TOILETS. They flushed whenever they couldn't sense you. Darn . It happened to me THREE TIMES on one seating ( as in one toilet visit) I stomach pain, go toilet, that bowl expect me to SIT FOREVER IN ONE POSITION SOMEMORE UPRIGHT. adoiiii... throw the sensor away la. Tiada guna punya.. Geram

NO MORE KLCC Toilets for me..UNLESS NECESSARY.

Diarrhea?HECK!!

Too much of kerang a.k.a si ham and CHILLY and SPICY FOOD and night market stuff sends your ass and stomach to heavy floodings.

Gosh.. i feel so weak.. 1day and a half already. Felt no energy and keep wanting to go to the restroom. Lenguhnya tangan kaki I. Now that the pain is relieved. It is the restroom visits that is TAKING MY LIFE NOW. I can feed on anything. Cause anything that goes in makes me feel like going to the ladies. Gosh.. i shall starve today! Whoalaaa

Drink more water. And not be attracted to any food. I still need to walk to my mum's office later. Any one of you can get me a cab?

Colleagues say take MC lar... I am like. I know I should But i shouldn't. Crap. What talking me!!!! Weeeee. Its friday and i'm done at 4.45pm. Hope to meet up with kar po they all today. Wanna go for movie also. The Game Plan/ Ferryman / AVP2( last choice) /Comedy/ Cartoon is sth i wanna watch. Who's up for it?

Chewing on famous amos... and then to the ladies again!!!!

A fantastic.. fantastic enlightenment by OPRAH

http://edition.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/personal/01/02/o.fail.up/index.html

Success is as dangerous as failure," said Lao-tzu, and any life coach knows this is true. I can't count the number of times people have told me, "I hate the job I'm doing, but I'm good at it. To do what I want, I'd have to start at zero and I might fail."

Dwelling on failure can make us miserable, but dwelling on success can turn us into galley slaves, bound to our wretched benches solely by the thought, I hate this, but at least I'm good at it.

This is especially ironic because researchers report that satisfaction thrives on challenge. Think about it: A computer game you can always win is boring; one you can win sometimes, and with considerable effort, is fun.

With time-killing games, where the stakes are very low, pretty much everyone's willing to risk failure. But when it comes to things we think really matter, like creating a career or raising children, we hunker down, tighten up, and absolutely refuse to fail. Anyway, that's the theory. The reality is, we are going to fail. Then we make things worse by refusing to accept this.
Tammy came to me distraught because her 17-year-old son, Jason -- her perfect son, whom she'd raised with perfect love, perfectly following every known rule of perfect motherhood -- had been arrested for public intoxication.

"I've failed," Tammy sobbed. "I've failed Jason; I've failed myself!"

"Yup," I said. "You got that right."

Tammy stared at me as though I'd slapped her. Clearly, that was not my line. I shrugged. "You've failed a million times, and you've succeeded a million times.

Welcome to parenthood. Do you know any mothers who never fail their kids?"

"Sure," Tammy said, nodding. "A lot of my friends at the country club are perfect mothers." She wept even harder. "And they say horrible things about the bad mothers. Now they'll judge me, because Jason ... " She dissolved in sobs.

"Tell me," I said, "do you actually like any of those women?"
The sobbing stopped abruptly. There was a long moment of silence, and then

Tammy seemed to transform before my eyes. She sat up straighter.

"You know, I don't," she said. "I don't really like any of them."

"I believe you," I said. "I don't know your friends, but if I had to live with someone like the person you were a minute ago, I'd start drinking, too."

"I do live with her," said Tammy wryly. "And I'd love a drink."

"Hear, hear," I said. "So go home and apologize to Jason for imitating mothers you don't even like. Try being real with him -- teenagers love that. Every moment you're real with him, you're succeeding as a mother. Every moment you lose yourself by trying to be perfect, you're failing. And the moment you accept that you're failing, you're succeeding again."

Tammy squinted at me. "You're telling me to accept failure as a mother?"

"Whenever you fail," I said. "Got any other options?"
"Well, no ... but accept failure? As a mother? I can't."

"Sure you can," I said. "Try this: Think about the fact that you failed to control Jason. Notice how you're all scrunched up, thinking, Oh, no!?"

Tammy nodded.

"Okay, now unscrunch, and instead of saying, 'Oh, no!' say, 'Oh, well ...'"
I beamed at Tammy. She waited for me to go on. I didn't.

Tammy laughed. "I can't believe this," she said. "I came here thinking you could tell me how to fix my son, and the best advice you've got is, 'Oh, well'?"

"Damn. You're right," I said. "I've totally failed you." I took a deep breath, and relaxed. "Oh, well ..."

Tammy looked at me for another long minute. Then she said, "Just your saying that makes me trust you."

This is the magic of accepting that you've done your very best but failed. Own your failure openly, publicly, with genuine regret but absolutely no shame, and you'll reap a harvest of forgiveness, trust, respect, and connection -- the things you thought you'd get by succeeding. Ironic, isn't it?

Oprah had definitely enlightened me in a great way.. courtesy of CNN News, and oprah.com

Ushering new year

Dear all, it has been 3months since i last blogged. Now that new year has come and i foresee changes in many things, some that i'd decided and agreed by many other friends.

To get it done, is to start doing it.

Happy New Year to all, goodbye to sadness and love. Embrace new interests and forget the old ones.. Old people.. that i don't want to remember a piece.

I pray that my determination would last me forever. This time, my heart has to be strong. I'll let go. I'd successfully done it for the 2nd day already..

Yes mei yan, the last time was a month. This time? For years to come. It ryhmes. I'm still me no worries

Lets just get things STARTED..