Weeeee...

I don't know how to describe my feelings

Felt productive.
Felt there's so much to be done
Felt there's so much opportunities outside

Felt contented
Felt happy for what I'm pursuing
Felt happy for what I'd been given

Felt inspired
Felt the burning spirit to accomplish my goals
Felt the burning spirit to race to the end

Felt in love
Felt like I want to give the best in it
Felt like I want to give everything I can

Felt fulfilled
Felt that even I can't get the most of everything but I didn't missed it
Felt that even it is not meant to be, but at least I tried..

There's a mixture of feelings
Not sure which is overpowering which

But for sure,
I am happy.

And i just love this new song, it melts me.. what bout you?

back and ... hehehe..happy

back from singapore..

already in love with new things :D

HAHAHAHAHA

there are a few implications from the trip

some i will keep it to myself and some close friends
some.. hmm.. i'm now opting to either work immediately / have fun first. Still deciding

Some.. hmm.. already left 100% at camp. now the remaining also gone =)

Some.. hmm.. busy with club activities but gotta learn to manage my time
hehehe.. assignments piling up , but i'm gonna make sure i'm giving my best :D

now i'm busy pondering how am i gonna make a move. teach me HOW...

I feel upset, when I need to do what I DID NOT ARRANGE MYSELF INTO.

Especially when EVERYONE thinks I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to work things out.

I don't find it necessary to COMPLAIN here, because I believe in working out solutions. Not dealing with the past.

But it becomes frustrating when people don't contribute. It really does.

I wonder why it is always others who can be unavailable, busy so on so forth, and even I AM AS WELL, BUSY, UNABLE TO MAKE IT. I HAVE TO MAKE IT

it is really frustrating. Gosh! And there are no solutions yet. I'm finishing other people's work. This has een accumulating. And I don't like it.

INTERESTING CHALLENGE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. off to singapore tomorrow. back on sunday. Busy busy busy weeks weeks weeks after coming back! It just never stop

Perhaps, that is what final year is meant for.

Photos time

RYLA updates ( you might seen it on FB)

The unrelated one was me..didn't realise they are taking group photo lol
the 83 of us

my group with ashley as instructor, PP frankie yap chairman ryla 2009

rotaractors who went for RYLA

us at the campsiteeeeee

our group with the RYLA shirt

us winning the human traffiking game ( transportation) lol

little souvenir from ryla :D

and my hair is superbly short now.. a new look i guess ;)

A close shot

Yesterday drive was thrilling

Sis called to ask for a ride home approx 9pm yesterday,

Drove waja and mum sat next to me..

There was this junction where we turn right, and there is an immediate right turn or go straight route right ahead.

At the 1st traffic light, I wanted to keep on the left lane (there's two lanes) as I'll be going straight after the 1st right turn, instead of turning right again (like a u-turn).

Mum said keep on the right lane ( as she preferred)

So i kept the right lane, and it was green. ( if you don't know what i'm talking about, its actually the traffic light u-turn from giant taman connaught to the opposite side of connaught, the cemetry side)

I took the 1st right, signalled left and intend to go straight (though I was on the lane where cars usually make another right turn) The right turn traffic turned amber to red. It didn't bother me as I still go straight

With the left signal on, I went straight. A wira on my left wanted to turn right and almost bang my car ( definitely scared my mum to death) but managed to escape an accident as I tilt my steering to the right and he emergency braked.

And mum was scolding me for not looking.

HELLO? I LOOK OR NOT I STILL HAVE TO GO STRAIGHT RIGHT? and that wira didn't even put his signal on, and he flew to my lane k? And the traffic was red that time (red to the right turn only)

I got angry, I just said, just now I keep left mai mou xi lor (nothing will happen)

Aih!!!damn stress. Assignment stress, tutorial stress, and eca stress.

Contemplating to go Singapore a not! AGAIN? i know. But i got to know that it doesn't help a bit in my ECA at all, just a job opportunity in singapore, and perhaps, an exposure.

Since i'm paying myself. I think more than I would use to. Plus there's 4 assignments due the week after. Sigh
But need to confirm tomorrow. See how la.

I'm upset with certain people. For questions I asked were not answered. For it is obvious that people are avoiding me. Perhaps they need time. Gosh, and there people were worried when will i get over it. I know something is wrong. But they just left me in doubts. No one is willing to tell me what has happened. So don't blame me for concluding with my own assumptions. I asked. You didn't answer only.

Sleepy..taking a nap. Good night

Back!!

Fuh.. RYLA, excruciating. Can't be explained by words!!!

It was funny that the 5 torturing days of RYLA ( to be exact, 2 days of camping and kayaking and jungle trekking) pushed all 83 of us to the limits.

Meeting new friends, played crazy games, went really crazy (shall not say as we promised that what happened in RYLA stays in RYLA)

Found someone new, well more than one actually.. hahahaha.. don't know if things would go well. But its a great new start... and manage to bump into one friend, that we've last met approx half a year ago. Maybe its fate? ... hahahah.. you've gotta always know that things happen for a reason. And if old ones don't go, new ones won't come. Perhaps, what happened before RYLA was meant to be, cause what happened at RYLA was a blessing and life changing.

We worked so hard as a team, helping others, learning about each other. And suprised to see that, although we have just met, but the bond and the care we had for each other made it seemed like we have known each other for YEARS.

My first time camping, and it was all fun!Getting all dirty.. Now i'm back, renewed. All burnt, and nope I didn't lose any weight (that's pretty sad) and to make things worst, I actually gained some. WAKAKAKAKAA..

Mulu team, despite everyone being quiet and decent, made out way to being the 1st to complete some games, and we won the other teams in another match (lost one too) but, we are always the most co-operative ones, we reach the hall earliest, we finished earliest .. well except for the last day where the guys had not got their alarm clock working and they were late for 30minutes.

I was given a chance to participate in most of the activities, including something that I always do, mc-ing. Abit chaotic at first, but was glad that it went on well later.

cAME back with alot of new thoughts in the head, more inspired, and changed my goals and perception in life.

Despite plenty of bruises and insect bites and mosquito bites and back aches and muscle pain, I think it was all worth it. MORE PICTURES when we receive a copy of the CD.

YAY!!! I got invited to experience in singapore. Now i'm thinking if I should go or not. Its yee wah and ching choo's birthday nearby. Hmmm.. gotta think about it.

Thank you RYLA, for the change. I left alot of things at OBS. its time to make the change i wish to see.. back to uni tomorrow!!!

Didn't manage to catch up with everyone...

Was serious in lectures, this semester is going to be a tough ride, therefore, have to be more careful and less playful. Working harder too..

I'm leaving in 9hrs 30 mins time.. for a camp in lumut. I wonder what is there for me?

I need to set my goals straight when the bus leaves kl tomorrow, so I'll come back fulfilled and different, perhaps letting go...

okay okay, I should have let go by now ma I know, remembered I said I'm going to come back different? I'll do it. Not my best, and not just my best. But i'll do it.

When I'm back, I'm going to change the perception, to the extend where love and care doesn't need to be fully purely on obsession. Where happiness plays the 1st role, future 2nd and peace third.

I hope to be proven wrong, I don't want you to learn things the hard way. But when you're not ask for advice, they usually didn't want the information.. (says andrew matt)

I at times, didn't want people to have a chance losing out those information. Because to me, we must must have all alternatives set in front of us, so that we make the best decision we can

Always remember, the choice is yours. To make a difference or not. Why? why worry about other people's thoughts, when the decision is yours to make, when you'll be the one taking the step, sowing the seeds and reaping the fruit?

Think ahead, always think ahead... don't let what in front of you is everything to you now be blinded, it'll only stop you from looking and searching further, maybe just next door, opportunities and better things that you can get.

Trust me, explore, make the world an oyster to you. I hope you do what you're good at best. I hope that you decide to at least, furthering studies. Money dear? is nto that important. Health, happiness future is.